Release the memories of that first kiss; they way in which you pulled me flush and I lost my breath. Help me forget the touch of your lips as they traveled my skin; leaving me aching in an unknown abyss. Take away the sorrow of missing you keenly; sometimes I feel that you are still near me. I do recall you saying because of seizures you could be forgetting; however, my face you clearly remembered. Stealing away to be with the other, because my elders would have torn us asunder. I left home early in my adult life because my love was deep and I only wanted sleep next to my other half, I loved so earnestly.
Time passed and words turned to anger; you never could forgive my elders. No matter how much I begged and told you; I love you better! Still I said, they were my parents, fury ate you, and your heart was bitter. Around that time you asked me to marry you; I told you yes but we must reconcile and do our best. Day after day; our words turned to coldness and rage; it turns out I was not to be your mate. My last words to you haunt me to this day; I told you I had found another and he accepted all the pain, the anger, everything that was my mother and father. I can see the look of horror and betrayal in your blue eyes and your face. I told you like I did, because I wanted you to feel the hurt as I felt I had been disgraced.
I can never tell you how wrong I was. You were dead not too long after that last, terrible sham! You drove in heavy rains and a seizure struck.; when I learned of your fate, my heart has been stuck. I feel the agony so often of course but knowing that if I had just heeded your words and let our love steer the course. I can only beg in memory for forgiveness of my rage; I was naught but a child at a woman's age. My love has never stopped; it never will. Someday there may be a way to tell it to your face. Your love was my world and my world ended at twenty-four. I will stand in the shadow of the stone and remember angels only wish to fly. I will remember that was your dream and now it has come true; I continue just to pray, not to see shadows of ours days. May I can be forgiven and I so wish you could forgive me too.
ns 18.68.41.167da2
