我們兩人再次靜了下來。看著球場上的燈光照射在球員上，只顧追著球的球員不停的跑來跑去，為的或許是要努力入球，又或者追著球跑只是一種慣性。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZY6ZvofsZ
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「有樣野想同你講，不過唔知點開口。果日你咪問我點解起旺角要避你地？」Joe忽然開口。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoSQ0UneXv
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我沒有想到他還記住這件小事。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeadiBubJKM
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「係啊。你話趕住翻屋企嘛。」我還記得他當天在巴士站的回答。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVX7O7bgUo
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「我上次冇講到好detail，我覺得應該要講清楚啲。」Joe突然變得很認真。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjMwIMv8vn
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我腦海一片空白，無法推測他想說的是什麼。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdP5MtKjy4X
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「其實，我之所以急急腳咁走，係我唔想你地聞到我成身煙味，我都好唔鐘意成身煙味。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ggHUyEWBp
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這個答案很合理，如果我知道自己無辜的沾上煙味，我也會想離開人群。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQxi7rwHiq
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「你一早知你個身有煙味？」我還是很好奇，一個討厭煙味的人，怎麼會讓自己渾身煙味。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfW4Nisy4LH
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「唔。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa50d5LZwnT
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Joe稍作停留後繼續說：「我啲朋友好鐘意食煙，一路掟飛鏢，一路食煙。搞到個場烏煙瘴氣，但係我從來都唔食。每一次同佢地玩完，都成身煙味，我好想即刻掉曬啲衫，即刻沖翻屋企沖涼。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexbPDX2Ipr
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我沒有想過Joe會去玩飛鏢，更沒有想過真相是這樣，不知該如何接話。我思考了兩秒鐘，Joe也靜了起來，沒有說什麼，或許他知道我需要點時間消化。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nvm82pTvf
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「咁佢地唔會叫埋你一齊食咩？」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cPDD3G6cB
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「會啊，間中都會。但係，我真係一次都冇食過。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbx9Ns1lJLr
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「佢地唔會話你咩？」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiApnmEoxR
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「會嫁，不過話完我都唔食。我真係好唔鐘意食煙。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Slbj0kC9j
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「其實我地係上網識嘅，果陣覺得飛鏢好似幾好玩，就join左去試下。」Joe繼續說。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn93l9hIJa5
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「大家中學嘅時候，有一排好興食煙，好似係有錢嘅象征，同埋顯得自己大個仔。咁佢地屋企都有錢嘅，比起我啦。佢地一試就翻唔到轉頭。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrASmf8Ypx
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「一開始，我都有試過叫佢地唔好食煙，不過佢地總係好多原因，叫叫下我都放棄左呢個念頭。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOAX0XM1js
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Joe說完這個故事後沉默了良久。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam77ISnB6K
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可以想像在那個烏煙瘴氣的房間裡，立著一部飛鏢機，後面那些抽著煙的人總是肆無忌憚的抽著煙，等著自己的回合。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbgK7rqwtc
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昏暗的燈光下，「插」，一個身穿黑色風衣青年剛剛投完飛鏢，他走到這群人當中。然後，其中一個抽煙的人，拿出煙盒，向著這個人打開煙盒，邀請他一同抽煙。他知道，只要拔出的一根，就有如潘多拉的盒子，一發不可收拾，他會從此成為他們當中的一員。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PIq27mZuG
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他討厭這樣。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoK3CkizPoN
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我問：「咁你應該對住佢地都好矛盾？你唔食煙但係佢地成日食。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFY6vYEC65
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在一個都是煙民的地方生存，對於一個討厭食煙的人一個很難受吧。只要少少的煙味足以讓人頭暈、咳嗽、嗆到眼睛。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FnC2qUpu5
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Joe抬頭看著天，然後說：「係，我都覺得好矛盾，我唔鐘意食煙，但係同啲食煙嘅人一齊。有時候我真係好想逃離呢個圈子，離開佢地。玩左四、五年，好似習慣左喇。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ46dnyFreF
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我想問他，如果不喜歡抽煙，為什麼還要留在這個圈子？236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRD9iJsWOT
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我還沒有問，可是他好像猜到我在想什麼。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Z0lpBVf9f
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「唔……自己一個都玩唔到鏢啦。講到底係我冇咁嘅勇氣離開，好多時現實就係咁。」Joe聳一聳肩膀。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeP23ZoN2O
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「都係嘅，好難。」我只好這樣附和。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RaVu155o4
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Joe接著說：「我有時好羨慕Kenneth，可以好享受自己一個嘅時間，唔需要靠識朋友去維持生活，唔似我識埋啲豬朋狗友……」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHxwpNQM5n
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他淡淡的苦笑。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRScJBU6gPk
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苦笑裡頭似乎隱藏著許多無奈的經歷，有說不清的苦。他喝了一口珍珠奶茶，或許奶茶的甜可以中和一下人生的苦。此刻，我只想安慰Joe，我坐的更靠近Joe，輕輕拍著他的肩膀。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDBnNAogaL
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「唔好咁講啦，每個人都有自己生活嘅方式。你都可以嫁，唔想做咪唔好強逼自己。」我只好這樣安慰他，希望他會好過一點。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8Ie90rAWV
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「唉，有啲野開始左，好難翻轉頭。」Joe慨歎著，感覺好像走上一條不歸路。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEBFr9q9U8
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「如果你係我，你會點做？」Joe直視我的雙眸。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJ4q4vm1Zd
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我想了幾秒，最後平淡的說：「唔……我都唔知啊，冇遇過咁樣嘅情況，可能本身冇乜朋友。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpYVHL8zBK
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Joe溫柔的說：「你可唔可以應承我，唔好同人講呢件事。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoepCRuIF56
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「當然冇問題。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc81F82BNIG
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「多謝你。」236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFNedMano6
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我同情他的遭遇，為著他一直忍受煙味而感到心痛，心情忽然有點沉重，知道真相意味著要為他背負更多。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENlopsSrY7
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我抬頭看，這裡的天空好像特別大，卻找不到一顆星星。於是，我低下頭偷偷瞄著Joe的臉，看著他吸著珍珠奶茶的嘟起來的唇，和吸管裡一顆一顆滾動的珍珠。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMxiZKttfi
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我也拿起我的杯子，吸了一口奶綠，慢慢的咀嚼著珍珠。綠茶的輕微苦澀，好像是因為Joe可憐的故事而浮現。可是，伴隨著奶綠的香氣，我想：從今天起，我擁有了的秘密，屬於我們之間的秘密。這奶綠好像不是微甜。可能糖水都在杯底，所以甜在心裡。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcDZ4qGr82
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