I unconsciously started biting my nails, unable to walk out the door. Embarresemt eating away at me, whilst I try to compose my feelings about what had just occurred.
Was I really so unattractive and repulsive that he had to look away? My throat had closed up when he looked away, there was no desire or excitement in him for what he saw in me.
Axel said I should join him for brunch but I don’t know where anything is. From the little I’ve seen of the place, it’s like a maze.
I sit back down defeated on the bed, but that forces the memory of being rejected come back again into my mind.
I spring up from the bed and storm towards the door. Still hesitating.
Sweat gathers on my forehead and above my lip, I really don’t know what to do.
Will he be mad if I stay in my room?
I gasp.
Will I get punished?
As though a bucket of cold water is thrown at me I launch at the door and yank it open. I can’t get punished, I have a baby to think about.
I stared directly in front of me, the decorative teal wallpaper has gold floral designs everywhere.
i don’t know which direction to go so I just walk towards the left, as I’m left handed. Sighing at my logic.
I wonder what’s going to happen to me? Is he going to throw me out? Or keep me here?
I dont want to be independent. I can’t be, I’ve relied on other people my whole life. The staff at the centre chose my clothes, haircuts, shoes. Where I live, what I like, whom I fall in love with.
I'm useless on my own.
blinking away the tears, I halt in my step when I hear Axel’s voice.
“Who told you, Ellie?”
his tone was anything but nice, yet it still wasn’t as harsh as his tone with me.
”I’m your finance! How can I miss it?” A high pitched voice of a woman fills up the space. I try to listen in closer but they change the language they are speaking in for a more intense argument.
I lean against the wall waiting for them to finish and go away.
For a while I begin daydreaming of what a good life would be, but my mind comes up blank. All I can see is Axels face.
I sigh contently with closed eyes, imagining a world where we would have a happy family. Smiling and doing mediocre chores together. Going to bed, laying our head on the same pillow and just gazing into each other’s eyes.
“What are you doing?” I jump at the closeness of Axels voice.
He’s stood in front of me, with clear irritation displayed on his face, with a few papers in his right hand.
When I give no response, he walks ahead and shouts to follow him, in the direction I had just come from.
Walking behind Axel meant I had a good view of his body, his wide shoulders and tight hips.
He wore simple blue jeans and grey top. The definition of his arms showed clearly because of the low cut sleeves.
As he moved, I could see his muscular shoulders and back.
he wasn’t as tall as I would have expected, many werewolves are 6’1 but he looked more 5’9.
I was mesmerised by his body when he suddenly turned around. It took everything in me to stop in time before smashing into him.
“I need you to stay only in your room, until I can find an appropriate accommodation . In no way shape or form, do you leave this room! Do you understand?”
Confused I look up at his stern face and feebly utter the words “brunch”
”that was my mistake, I cannot be seen out with you. So you must become a ghost here.”
I hadn’t noticed but we were right in front of the room I was initially put in . He opens the door soundlessly and waits.
I rush inside not wanting to annoy him any further.
Without a word he leaves me alone.
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