Dear Future Queen Bee,
A queen is usually surrounded by people. Many people. She's got her guards, her maids, her children, husband, grandchildren, people who visit her, people who live near her, people who love her, people who hate her, people people people. But she's lonely. Very lonely. She's a lonely queen. And no matter how many people surround her, she's always remain, the lonely queen.635Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFoSIdMSqj
The same goes for me. I, am a bitch. A lonely bitch. And no matter how many people surround me, whether it's from the jocks, to the cheerleaders, to the nerds, the sport freaks, the artists, the musicians, dancers, teachers, just people in general, I'll always, remain the lonely bitch.
I suppose you can call it a different kind of loneliness. The type that doesn't make sense. I mean, for God's sake, I'm probably the most social person in the school yet I somehow always find myself alone.
I go to parties; many parties.
I go out with friends; many friends.
I talk to people online; many people.
but I'm still lonely. So, God damn lonely that I sometimes find myself staring at my reflection for hours, without a single thought running through.
Is that healthy? Is this healthy?
I dont know. Nowadays, not many things are considered healthy. Like, you could be exercising- that's considered healthy right?- but a little too much of that and you could die of a stroke.
It's also like eating fruit. Take a banana for example. Bananas are healthy for you. They have potassium and that's good for you. But too much of it can kill you. What was the most amount again? I think more than eight and BAM! You wouldn't exist anymore. I can't remember the amount, though I doubt you can eat past five.
You see? That's what happens when you're lonely. You start to ramble a lot because you're so used to being alone and quiet that you forget how to talk properly. Another disadvantage of loneliness is your memory. You start to remember a lot of things in your spare time to the point your brain's had enough. It starts to twist the memories into something else, until they're brand new and our previous ones are lost. Which is the reason why I don't remember much.
Which is, also the reason why many call me a dumb bimbo at school. But it doesn't make sense; I'm not blonde, I'm a brunette but once you're labeled as the "queen b"- and no, not the queen of beauty- you're stereotyped as one.
It's a weird world we live in, where society lives by the name of stereotypes. Where they breathe it in like their oxygen-actually scratch that-I think the word drug is more suitable for the description. I mean, it's such a new trend for everyone to have a pipe hidden somewhere isn't it? But I guess too, that they're lonely people, with a different kind of loneliness. After all, who am I to judge, besides from another lonely person?
Yours sincerely,
Rebecca Striking.
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