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"Here, drink this." Holding out a cup of Water to her, I watched as she took it carefully. Seeing the look of blank fear in her eyes, its as if she wasn't even there anymore. She didn't have her usual smart remarks, rude comebacks, or her hard shell; its as if she was a completely different person. The room was a very awkward silent scene, as I just looked at her as she sat almost frozen to her eyes. "So, what happened?" I tried to break through the awkward scene, but she wouldn't speak at all. Laying her back down on her bed, I pulled the cover over her and whispered in her ear; "rest well this time."
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Katherine P.O.V.
I couldn't speak, I couldn't stop shaking in my feet, and I couldn't act as if nothing happened. This dream, it is just what I was afraid would surface if I associated with lucas; he looked a lot like aiden. Maybe I am just being a fool comparing him to my late boyfriend, but I can't help it; it hurts so much. His face was so similar, while his personality was so different. There were times when he said the words like aiden would, and I couldn't help but suffer from it. I hate feeling like this, I hate suffering; there were times when I just wanted to die and join aiden. But, I knew he wouldn't want that. Not only was I too much of a coward to do something that stupid and drastic; I would be leaving my life behind for such a foolish reason.
Death won't be an escape, it won't end any suffering or pain; it would make it worse. But, it just hurts to much; this pain haunts me. It was my fault to begin with, right?
Getting up slightly, I stood on my feet in the carpet of my bedroom. Walking ahead slowly, I walked out to the hallway. Hoping to go downstairs, and for everything to be better. But, every step I took, made me more nervous to face Lucas. I was so weak in front of him, all because I fell asleep. As I reached the stairway to go down, I saw the pictures that were framed throughout the stairs. I looked at one, and my eyes went wide with fear once again. I saw the photo of me and aiden, and it began to hurt me.
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"A-aiden...?" Looking at him dazed, he moved closed to me. I felt the chill of him holding me as i had my hand on the painting. "Kat, my song bird...I will always be here...don't forget it." Staring at him slightly, our noses almost touching, i wanted to touch his hair, i wanted to hug him properly again. I wanted nothing but to be in his arms for real again, everything was so messed up. I knew this wasn't aiden, but why couldn't i pull away from his daze. Why was i suffering from this? Is love really just born into the world to bring suffering? I wanted this to not be a dream, i wanted to stay in his grip for our whole lives; but that wish shattered. 699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYnzvgG8m6
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I killed aiden, i can't help but tell myself that. I loved him, i cherished him, he was the light at the end of my tunnel. I know i'm still young, and everyone tells me 'your young, you'll find many more love interest in your life.' That was not the point, if you loved someone who was so close to you, and they died in a tragic accident, you can't just get over it and move on so easily.
I felt my body becoming heavy, as i looked at the ghost of aiden that haunted my vision. I was becoming so hot, my eye lids heavy. Everything was dizzy, what was this feeling? "Kat?" i turned my head as much as i could, the dizzy vision of lucas standing at the bottom of the stairs was in my eyes. Then, everything began to spin as i looked back at where aiden was supposed to be. He was gone, just dissapeared suddenly. "Aiden...I'm sorry..." I couldn't keep my balance, i fell backwards, and everything went dark.
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