Trigger warning: includes Eating disorders don't read if you get triggered easily.
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I wake up with the same aching feeling in my body mainly my stomach. I was struggling to keep everything down and it's all my fault.
I wouldn't say I'm on the plus side but I'm not skinny either. My parents are always comparing me to my sister.
They never make me feel wanted, they wonder why I don't leave my room they always judge whatever I wear but they hate how I'm home all the time yet they never approve of any of my friends.
The only friend they ever approved of was Tommy the boy who lived next door. I hated hanging out with him though he would never shut up about my sister Catherine.
He's always had a thing for her and who wouldn't she's so beautiful. She had dark brown hair with slightly tanned skin and bright green eyes she was so perfect I was nothing compared to her.
I had to get along with Tommy though because his parents were friends with my parents so I just pushed through the agonising pain of never being good enough.
I mean for Dream's sake (if you get this reference I love you forever). This boy is using me to get to my sister and you know what the messed up thing is? She knows it but she pretends she doesn't notice so I can be tortured.
Don't get me wrong Tommy is a great person and I'll listen to his problems whenever but every time I try to tell him what's on my mind he ignores me.
I just wish I had some friends that didn't use me. Maybe people would like me if I looked like Catherine.
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^^^ fit for school.
I ran downstairs and tried to make it out of the door before getting a lecture and luck never was truly ever on my side.
"And where do you think you're going?" I turned around to see my mother with a disappointed look on her face.
"To school where else?"
"Not without breakfast your not. Don't think I don't remember you skipping dinner last night."
I sat down at the table and that's when father dearest comes to join us. "Are you sure you should eat that? You'll get fat."
I stare at him in disbelief while I had one parent who hated it when I starved myself the other encouraged it.
"Can you both just pick? I either eat or I don't."
With that, I left the house and started my walk to school. When I get jumped on by a tall 17-year-old. "Hello to you too Thomas."
"You know I truly hate it when you call me Thomas."
He looked me up and down which was making me very uncomfortable. "You've gotten skinnier haven't you?"
"Oh maybe I'm on a diet, so I guess it's working." He looked at me so confused but I don't know why.
"But you're not even close to being overweight so why go on a diet?"
If only I knew Thomas if only I knew.
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