結婚三年、打拼六年了,我和老公終於買下了我們心儀的房子。以歐美地區的標準而言,這是一處小巧的溫馨小宅,正適合一雙人生剛開始的年輕夫婦。深秋的多倫多週末飄著正紅的楓葉,跳蚤市場充斥著咖啡與可可的甜香。
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「去買面好鏡子吧!剛好我們現在有些餘錢,可以稍微買些奢侈品了。」297Please respect copyright.PENANApxJYTtIJ4H
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老公這樣說,我笑著點頭,挽著他的手臂走進了市場的微型拍賣會——緣份就是這樣奇妙,二手木柵制的拍賣台上正好放著一塊中式木雕古鏡,鑲鏡的孔雀屏框是沉香色的。大概西方人都不明白這種古鏡有多珍貴,出價不高,我們很順利的就將之拍下來帶回家了。
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「老公,我美嗎?」「當然美了,老婆——以後我每年都帶妳去旅行、每次都讓妳美美的回來照鏡子,好不好?」
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初綻的孔雀華屏前,我和老公身穿古衣,幸福地相擁而笑。
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結婚五年、打拼八年了,我和老公有了第一個孩子。可惜女兒遺傳了我那不爭氣的身子,常常進出醫院,我只能放下我的生意和事業,而我和老公的話題早已從週末的夫妻穿搭變成孩子的身體狀況。剛屆三十五的他正在事業的拼搏巔峰,為了升上更高的位置而越來越晚回家;別說閨房之樂,連我最近撞邪也無暇訴說。
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最近——最近一年,我在打掃時發覺玄關的孔雀鏡裏倒映著另一個女人。她的衣著樸素得可謂寒酸,她的臉容素淨得可謂憔悴;可在下一瞬那,鏡中人又變成了身穿新潮、火辣衣飾的濃妝女人,她抱住我的翊寧一腿跨過機車,扭頭對我自信地微笑。女兒正在以本能感知世界的巔峰期,為什麽人都變了,她還是會不顧一切地向其撒嬌?
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「Who the hell are you?」(妳他媽是誰?)
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我恨恨地看著那鏡中人,難掩內心深處的恐慌。
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結婚十年、打拼十年了,我和他為父母舉行了體面的喪禮,然後分房了。這幾年來我們越來越常爭吵,為了女兒的未來、為了父母的錢財管理,我和他最渴求的關愛與纏綿,無一如意。四十出頭的男人與女人正好是慾望最強的年紀,我與他兩兩相望,卻只餘下索然無味。
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「睡吧,我明天還要上班,妳明天還要送翊寧上學。」
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這句話是他專屬的晚安,每每都象徵著一夜無眠。我下了樓,為自己沖了杯楓糖伯爵茶,坐在沙發上邊飲邊發呆;明天早上要開車送翊寧上學,中午要去買菜以準備晚餐,下午要……下午要……297Please respect copyright.PENANA8dsfKOqdPN
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下午要去談生意、去逛街、去酒店喝下午茶啊!
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望見孔雀鏡裏的衣香鬢影,我不由得急吞下了茶水,咳嗆聲間我思考著這些年來鏡中二人的身份,總算有了點眉目。297Please respect copyright.PENANAVQNgmHIe3F
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唉,真沒意思。
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結婚十三年,我離婚了。我什麽都沒要,乃至連那孔雀鏡都在修飾一番後贈給了翊寧——我惟一的女兒。當然我對她有愧,留下的亦不只那面意義非凡的沉香木鏡,只是這一切全都出自我手,與我的前夫無關。我們仍然是翊寧的父母,就要為她付出。
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「Mommy,妳真的要走嗎?Daddy明明很疼愛我們的啊……」十一、二歲的翊寧問我,卻只有疑惑,並無難過,一如當年我問我的母親要否離婚一樣。
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「寶貝,不要依賴他人的疼愛來過活。以萬物為鏡,可知對錯與得失。」297Please respect copyright.PENANAAFsyIc4nCM
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我一手輕甩著機車鑰,微笑著說,在踏出玄關的剎那最後一次佇視那孔雀鏡。倒映的人兒穿著模特兒的配搭衣著、背著名牌手袋,中長的紅髮颯爽不失柔美,歲月為她的雙眼添綴了些精巧的皺型。
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不知道新的生意伙伴會不會喜歡跟這樣的人合作呢?297Please respect copyright.PENANAqhjqaRW0iu
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嘛,管他的。
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我們相視而笑,總算在這刻像老朋友般擁抱了彼此。
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Fin。
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夫以銅為鏡,可以正衣冠;以史為鏡,可以知興替;以人為鏡,可以明得失。吾常保此三鏡,以防己過。——〔唐〕吳兢《貞觀政要·任賢》297Please respect copyright.PENANA6296ZzATUX
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鏡子反映的是萬物的客觀真象,當日復如是的鏡像裏出現了一點不同、一點陌生,那我們該如何自處呢?
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