I can’t breathe. The pain resurfaces to the top when I think of us, when I think of the past. Forgotten memories I once cherished. Those memories that I never wanted to forget are now a venomous bite that kills me slowly from the inside. The tears will not stop. I can’t wipe them from my face fast enough. I ask myself why do these tears even need to exist for you? Your picture that I keep coming back to from time to time, you know, the one I’ve kept in secret, makes my heart skip a beat. I don’t want my heart to react that way, but it does. Why? I hate it. My eyes tear up if I dare think of it. I hate that you left this all in my body and in my soul. Why did you leave this deep mark inside me? For what purpose does it serve? I’m screaming in pain, drowning in my own sorrow, shaking my head, saying that I can’t feel these feelings for you anymore. It needs to STOP. But I don’t want it to stop….. I understand it’s a pain no doctor could ever heal. I understand that I need to let time heal me. But what if time just isn’t enough? What if I could never forget you? This is the last deep breath I take in that reminds me of you.
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