My head hurts.

I want to look away.

But I can't.

Because it's all I have left.

All I know is toil and work and rice and beans and saying goodbye to loved ones too early. All I have is a family made up of broken people and a community paved with broken streets. All we have is stories and hope and the Lifemaker and each other.  All they want from us is the sweat off our backs.

But on one night I have a dream. On one afternoon a child commits a crime. On one dawn the world starts turning towards a new day and the gods are closer than we ever knew them to be.

Basically rants and frustrations I need to get out of my system.

You want to say it but your tongue seems frozen and wont move? Cat got your tongue? It's too frustrating.

Do you have those moments when you want to cry, shout and just punch someone out of frustrations but actually can't do it?

Do you have those times where you want to defend yourself but realized it's no use, everybody won't listen anyway.

That's me and writing is my way of expressing it. I'm dealing with emotional crisis right now, so please ignore if I said too much in this blog.

I just want to sit in the corner and bawl my eyes out, cause you know I'm nobody for everybody to defend on.

So in this blog please let me rant.

Thank you.