I'm a horrible person.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAPdSUGnrW
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQ5p6U1neN
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQ0zXxxjnJ
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgetp9zAhZy
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvTWdLZ6bC
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMD4YLrKJk
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxuCdpaS2E
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuvma5BpgQ
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNKMSuJ93h
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ84AMBT3kn
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0H5v6GAoe
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbv6LTJYjyM
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaPNTRurZA
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmvBxpa0JJ
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zoS6bQB4Z
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYKtbO7FbV
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaERegLkYDZ
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNt1gsBmZV
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIltRlTqwV3
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsZK8q1s5K
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHh2uZTjin
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaa5FxxHUn
Of being lonely.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlHEJuMQTp
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWcZn765JN
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So I take comfort in my own world.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBrmky8cK3
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNf99AgHie
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgNZMi7XrM
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlix8pyyELl
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhqsL7b5Ak
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3VwiRAOZQ
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxJ0YG2i8s
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRxI3zPe00
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNPKc9zWz9
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoEuteAaNi
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQfqZt5Zhd
I shouldn't even have been born.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqecBLfNovK
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59u7wLhMwh
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