I'm a horrible person.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstG2vov4VG
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZgIXLKqZi
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfsdKKIXGI
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtiDuFXLxj
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmqCj8hVLd
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDpv1GaxEg
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3HJkfJuh0
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79tpLPALs2
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeRJCIRm8A
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AjR4fu6Qv
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtt7LqWBjoo
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhALlHUDGx
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoVBanGfab
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0d0B1ShJAb
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj1AjXNJZm
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCL3BTIF4E0
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYFRRN1cDG
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgVzeFdvU4
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvK5g4oqcMs
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaQA8Mhmho
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWTrqOkqxd
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbMb8Sni1s
Of being lonely.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJP4Fv9ggc
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhMgIqY4Bu
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So I take comfort in my own world.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpf86dHXXef
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnrhqBLJVj
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QMHoJGkv7
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6qScx2hV3
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyfp7QFLd1
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTj1hDrVYTa
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZ1CUWG1CS
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO38RtFEUdI
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4YvnDCKNd
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGrPWuYrtD
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPB6cGmjfv2
I shouldn't even have been born.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPaH49dhKP
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLcIEJwXgW
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