I'm a horrible person.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOLlMcwMN7
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zADA8Uwo9
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnw5k7Cst0
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTLJtUSEJe
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ManG5qscf
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LoZ9WGWBp
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQNdM1zMzG
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sXgYC48l9
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkfQTp0RaP
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRVVvaLFzQ
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicYATcFVW5
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0sNijq7or
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVcpckMu8Y
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4y6NAnvZpd
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mcDUHWm1M
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EqYo8WvWq
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCUsKwzgGA
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgY4xhPMHEl
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrz94WV2lM0
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV3UfyC7mn
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwM9M5YlkD
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ubRpR150q
Of being lonely.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcNz0AlOjq
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8cGFNDP95
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So I take comfort in my own world.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkl8O3JuZ7
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoD0iF43n2a
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgxrdP9Fki
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVZzqrbrus
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGslnZYQRuV
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeprmo5CKTW
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFLXR4zRWT
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G8vqoIo8T
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9TKPEOEZA
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTkhFCHlBG
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsxZeGHBGD
I shouldn't even have been born.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVM5kRnQ9fU
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gDfvbYrzS
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