I'm a horrible person.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Plbbek7CN
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGMEZOzbkI
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUlYM0AwIB
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObakSJgzAK
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFGgUsGxiL
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKcr3WXzal
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzB2lpMGHjW
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0X6yRWQMo3
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnifsixzYNa
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡos4vDmvJyh
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOUlUeFpHB
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Toqj8iInC
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3a2og8fRSx
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntZqplqR9a
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHqEtdE7WY
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmNJ6l931K
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OBxes2Rbl
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhAKCwv1wn
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk2Ut9C0Y2
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaQGnZ1K1e
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4H73qDyKV
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKX8ILNCgg
Of being lonely.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujp49gehS6
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYsIOUxAkR
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So I take comfort in my own world.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaUfe78FBF
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLcMlrbk7J
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDihTIkO5K
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZvgetONqH
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE5v0FfnpN
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjntTiOgQrN
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvJdwl9KdO
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZaH8nu1Mz
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbU6dEZr4h
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENi7L6yTpU
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFy72TZh0wG
I shouldn't even have been born.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKwcFqyM8n
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.296Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvMA6PssG5
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