I'm a horrible person.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWFukAx6Ut
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoMstbu0Ws
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZbStEAvQ0
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRmiJ64Sbj
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgTK8kgMHJ
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFEhZWDHOv
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QQLyW7VZQ
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFGMep5dsN
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcUQWKEgXe
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡei3ZqgRxHU
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4G4MGVGOS
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3i0Oh6CHT
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06G3XeIGCj
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56DmUJXo4e
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLVP82OrI9
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvXyWFWJjm
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyb3s3LGF8U
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESeIxPJb8b
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzGDsHQgaA
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4A3QoSQt3
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDRUdyooBl
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWyQEXKcOY
Of being lonely.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFIWsCf6jX
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDv7r29nTDM
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So I take comfort in my own world.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡediXQm4NLH
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OONPiPXuV
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyx6L9mOtfh
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovfCmad3Z9
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwqadbf5qU
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsEhVdCKJa
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc31EHR8Ty
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj78rriuqfM
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcuSqZ93Ig
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLR7KQ3131
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTDcSbDizd
I shouldn't even have been born.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20stiff1CV
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.368Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkJL3Qzek4
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