I'm a horrible person.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WYlDiRVo4
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29df1HMEnj
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOv0X7c1Ut
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJTkU60Umb
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bbv3IxXN2
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEnPnwF8rj
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6ncyVeMTi
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZSn5Ba4m0
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64hkSMlo5r
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssz4031Rgi
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtOwgH8yit
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7ReaNHr25
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUCYOWijj6
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCSO9lsWQ9
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCCO2etsuE
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNhJftmFJc
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetzgcq5jsU
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EdDQIVAIl
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmS47TiH3X
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUeXngQbFU
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTjDkDyUkA
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoG8TXTPVoN
Of being lonely.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLBoxBnmkx
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hTV31LGTB
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So I take comfort in my own world.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWdOmUiHAj
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡML1O32vXJd
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHu01seo0MJ
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoI1ZhnmtFW
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOy8QCAAcg
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlH9HMtnk4N
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡps8l9qhjNn
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlgnPbhSda
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXJsUWzk8a
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwH9SZfzmQ
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroAp0FdduK
I shouldn't even have been born.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3N1YlH4Rb
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.318Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TioXbqbwj
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