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Some of my colleagues 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBqg72mGqa
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxavWI8LL8r
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrIZ8t0zUj
suggestion or hypnosis.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBN66FVHrR
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQS2r2BTlNr
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaGuYefFo2
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg6mBEkEG2
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDnhLQz7er
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2bPIVC61e
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MvVy9CJEO
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAiW6uDnjq
capabilities.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEo1URI1xB
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeg6hKYIPAK
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David awakened. Not 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2V1GWFPth
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBz9UlmbWz
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72Uh2sd7eR
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCcXhSudKx
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYFM4quI0y
undamaged.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3k3FCHawdD
"Only your physical body459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYo4vbaMmx4
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8162W3uVB4
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96c159JlWz
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzin8ryTJuO
A shadowy form appeared.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVgzYk8hlM
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXgLYwsjuv
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Qef3hKwKo
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayy4Vp3Q2M
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplN4eCB071
"Am I in the...ether 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2VT4c8PTP
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdqSFbjgja
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aGcrAOsfl
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjpLKMVN4q
David was tired, too 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitwIq4V06W
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiEISWFua1
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnD1PkyoBdV
The shadowy hood cocked 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxsu0JE2Er
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jn8vUJtxQ
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkbsVBXu3R
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhFb6gNVIm
more grateful."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgPcXy94k7
"I..."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aAZ8nC0mx
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtGLHdKDFQ
David groaned in 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZoMdIao00
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYD2IR1imN0
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsleE2XM6f
falling point, that'd be fly."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfgBHTKtHN
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7Bn1BoH0S
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjdbJcL5m1
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjE1iuNUc0
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPt7oD5A2O
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRw5LRvV7s
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYE5pRUUIG
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRXOacFfsZ
David shouted and 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvx5NhN3ciO
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6D9Z5lcD4z
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRrH9lVmEL
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMKy4onDmL
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpptfWMMu0e
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTFYkePXCV
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrZ1pIhWcw
mist.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajVYUpgshH
Jester's voice came from459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Qx7P74bM0
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97NQhJO8WJ
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtX5ZBcJ31
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIUbl93GJ9
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSZV5X1ACR
creating a circle around Jester and David.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtxh5wA9eP
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMvZ8uXCVY
"Shut up!" David 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡol5vsQJG6W
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHajx9KNHGh
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruD5w8fgUh
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KqQfeP9Tw
Jester gave another 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlD27wIxmv
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkU8FbMAcid
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYoeOmvYry
afraid of the truth?" 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBAGPITtXQ
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2MGJdSMGH
"You're what? A 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GJ45O5ZWz
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpUS1lFc0L
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ089BHiVzMF
you've done not matter." 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgWxx382Om
The shadows completely 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SydYCKgxJ
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzC02PEiNqM
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0naSCBMc9
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLL0zDxi2Nz
eye and shadows swallowed him.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWmutKUmwf
Shadows parting, David 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTzz5DFMq6
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGSPvxa2WP
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Q5skKqcJZ
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8XZnOVvbS
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6x9BZyRxt
mother459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjQo8VNxlG
"This is my memory." 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvn9RjqCIWl
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtD2ydIFj07
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ261LAD7w
David didn't reply to 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz827Wjddpn
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYQSMNVTHN
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0HIcRybW6
Unaware of what was 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ44kXdudC4
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMZpdzt3y0
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7ANOVjCbJ
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZ2lzuSA6Q
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIGtLqqrAD
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0l6cLTNyHB
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIJAPbGqp1
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDJgGnhhBF
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9if9CVqcV
Finally the screams of 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKZq87CX70
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQBIldNxuF
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcMlzxHIEM
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujcIH5YOkK
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWUiXnHU04
the baby's throat and squeezed.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hSxUDTtxu
David could feel his 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoYNPowbyJ
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTU7qDRXqw
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcH0BZYZ7v
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbO7Aatd5MG
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbj6gQvNww0
stopped.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29DIhQVXdl
"Oh, nonononono." The 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vmTCqS6gT
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYdaxGoOvh
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU6Fw5MFai
"You who were supposed 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAjljieVg7
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qXtfl1PGN
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqgJ0u8bI7
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvEworxenU
Coughing David stood up 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnkeX7YktY
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPE0wrtVCMH
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡax6LCQEwB2
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjKeXzCKVE
"No, it was a small 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWMsq1oDOS
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mdLAI7OMN
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvClZ1PaLSx
He was staring at the 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6WjMIv5bQ
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMtH2YgHod
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfjmI0w3Wd
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabaiIsKAUW
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKlD2PCK3Y
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHnBDDj3y2
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LrohXQOVq
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbqbonhAT9
"I will!" Came a squeaky459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuBpYsw22g
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGX8w0dNtc0
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQ9X9Kqc0L
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnreRSQNAF
was an adult.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GIvVHFHSi
A knock came from a door459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZHV1u7GTq
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDbZ6jO8rw
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnTt9NTi0e
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsdcfJCTX5
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyP9VWzb0X
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQk7OviMmWN
being a bad boy.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQaLfjBzd5
That's why he didn't 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHTAZBBNGS
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPyDHwKeAd
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTggFbcHSA8
"D..david" the answer 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1a3tYkwWYH
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsGmi3pCxK
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlB4Yo0JlE0
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcqNY7c4Ta
The man put his hands on459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLurlweaTG
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjRCkTdqiM
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWra34mwhmk
David meekly shook his 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtiAjj2eLi
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyUXmQi2BU
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0gwJqe9g7
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DC2KzazRW
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKdoCK9zpY
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtMSvt9MWD
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ259CirevQx
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzx5eIWRBD5
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNBz3hVgKz
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvQKxNbYHY
Davids body.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniLxv4Mkc7
Please don't. Came adult David's voice459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4qRNQeDma
Young David was scared; 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqwFz6tI0q
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaPYAPV7xC
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9maqppFmm
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JzgxXySQo
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtil0pGeB2
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrityYN801
"Mummy, mummy!" David 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrOkwfsxjK
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgruthaEIFl
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPWGZM7x4S
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UwpARAyX8
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSU5xVeSdi0
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhL4vOdqQxj
David didn't even know 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKBkfcupDD
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfwsG0WUgs
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DZLCfdfzJ
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pRiknRHiC
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvPuW8v3P4
David could barely hear 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpq1LF19QZg
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qsDWzfZ61
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mOSzUCccH
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhDJlndM5f
anger. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0H8GJZh8U2
"There are more 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FAmTxoPAu
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCAJdY89H8
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY88qCUj1ZC
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtJCBWxmwO
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jmJXzBjKB
"What else is there to 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w08CPi8BW
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuXCw2MQj9
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDRfX24IfY
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcxALSOhTv
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2B5j84AfB
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSWFHhiXiu
floor. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNAmURM7cn
Even the pain didn't 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtRwEb8LAW
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHwGdpW5p2
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sYbdGgIbJ
everything would be gone.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S2IIg1S5V
~Just like that, give up459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mzaUHEer0
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZMBt5mglS
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1z22VzQlN9
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCFqt9EDsq
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpJ13SZJ7v
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XRrRhNf6R
than this."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGPnDfroAW
~STOP! ~ David dropped 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56G9DG25Hf
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGOXtBUW0e
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbitUQ6Qwn
survive. Survive and live.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEjVwHMgBg
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50PaAezFRd
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCVG3ykzgg
"Indeed." Jester 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkGiPmiUU6
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvakaPJZdd
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Jp0DbO4rk
like his own did.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vsRGGxIkz
"Why did you try 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvQfYcjOhM
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerLSjytNHn
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaoGEhMwvW
process the influx of memories.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jpAeJ0eAP
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErhFKnz3Hv
"You expect me to believe that?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtq9ViiSAKT
"Believe what you want."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspQ6k03s2M
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsYp20svfa
Jester chuckled. "All of459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvdtNmGrme
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfo9Vn2rnGz
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAy2D1Fhrk
"That just 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn44fA6a3so
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCKE1UzkQU
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXeRbdkbE6
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcxAxiJfPS
David nodded. "Do it."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm4b9XaO9p
Everything shifted. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmrITo1rM4
David was cleaning his 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSY4iJS976
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsF3DY4wI1
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuLtwHZvUh
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIlwauVwqH
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDN6goKFZB
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBV5BFETRH
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dZ9Q8Wa7C
His last one was just 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPz9hfejGJ
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgKsHpmb0z
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo663UR6Nnv
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjhRzgMPP2
Undamaged goods she loved to say.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNcqIh4Ml9
Right on cue, David 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEtgDrLock
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWR2DnOXln
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdn8Cn1bLW3
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZCywPgamp
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9O05YiRXg
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYFMGXo45G
Why was this his life? 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJX1HAxuH1
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNUFS8ujS9
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpYUBvoYck
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgKMskRdNq
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7YAIPKZ2A
vein trying to get his eyes. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNEnAL9k4P
~Enough David.~ A voice 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnOGEAKTWo
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0BxvRrw7Q
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbOEqh2Mf8
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2C5wYpDun
and met resistance.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6ZWsRnBSV
The scratching and 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GpIdvJBig
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9WZP1MasU
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEKlV7cSzW
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkkaOeSe4c
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUUG0W4TyS
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUD4w3MeuJ
Oh god what did he do? 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAi9QrClr4f
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zbe3SmlFC
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HYLmcxJ9S
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqSMnIgOrz
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHP7ofYB8hW
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDnac7xq7I
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7YFTXBmS9
blood.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW04DaQWg9F
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4HZvYeNqg
There was a pause and everything quieted down.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSJGFnbr3j
A boy named David just 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3HSbQS91J
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybGFQwbLHb
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEe0qQbTBp
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodLWKje8Kw
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMj1Q4n1BeC
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ryGlprdSV
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvsjx7OCp7
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwTUy9G5Hp
silly of him.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGi4zpKS8ZV
Remembering his 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVTmxQIh1T
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HDmsMDwRQ
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bPYcGFG29
table preparing a meal. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNB4nhArOa
"There you are David!" 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLTVVHQGJl
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhcr2tTxLG
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcUhjetlLO
This isn't the truth.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPAAxcQHhC
David obligingly sat 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6N5SEKb4wH
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMGAJINvhC
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJldWaEokz2
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcV5c3f0su9
A dream, nothing else.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ingG4Bpi9
They all thanked the 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrh0M7fqTuj
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSkhEXlHgK
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMN01tDdK9F
this lie.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3m6HlybFT
A lie that has to end.459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRGEtPyVwA
David was standing at 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2oEWxSEWm
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzikAg42tJ
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkMcI2YABd
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInnMItjvpd
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCeV3uYhVb
Either way David hated 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDzUfrV722
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvdzV6ZrLu
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMFgM3iBHY
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tdH533E4O
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGozOYyqzFI
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTi1bqtYR2
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK858ocBm1
life this happy blissful life?459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzaOcZzfG5
The answer was so simple459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGPgSlYVbu
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLIMxNiqWW
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jza6tLVap
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrN2Ey6yrH6
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQgC1vl4Gt
David decided to start 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlw0cpTVG0G
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5R4l0ImtTw
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkwMCcrVuy
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaFiNcGvvP
mother. "No more mercy."459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXozRKUfOLA
With the last stab 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvh2dpWrr8
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHgAWTqZWW
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUvzJRgQo7
emptiness.
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