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Some of my colleagues 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5Tdu2Qvdw
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPnBXY5iWN
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qZMsWQfue
suggestion or hypnosis.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYy0mGQhlJ
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNifXK4hqfo
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbX2IEYCrl
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KcQy2sC2i
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5g7WYqxUu
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1GYg96HNj
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fAQVbz3Tn
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiIqxQ4G6l
capabilities.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYcY2bRY7p
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDD0CBrP3I
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David awakened. Not 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkwmSDPx27
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGm0wbg6bO5
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSrSQLJO4g
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrI04FNEVh
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4W1Ne9gsbM
undamaged.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PySzoLGqM
"Only your physical body480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeBTwwqycp
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDvRxAgl9L
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ibMeH49Mw
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xvPeSK08W
A shadowy form appeared.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIu2KFjbB40
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHAPpvXJtN
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFOf322ils
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDNcig03Uo
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9T8RxRR6pF
"Am I in the...ether 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduGeasOsBC
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hg5rMx4S5
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrJCtSORiA
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0UcYWbtTV
David was tired, too 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3bUH6MVUL
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82sMUwWSc2
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxtsh0T3Ju
The shadowy hood cocked 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6trDXnoyQF
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtCrkA2XJ1
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJjsbNTisw
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHfXx4OOb7
more grateful."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryxbWzUiow
"I..."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK04X9xvzU
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4E6YOOdvL
David groaned in 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡju9YGQOKJf
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrK0MM4Ksj
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjmZ4839gn
falling point, that'd be fly."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZAlViefAE
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUo4ddeZCG
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4EFrBNspe
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtMOx4lbJX
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Nrb23S1kA
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHf4cdtz2g
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNY8iZiyAp
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofSjefeb2V
David shouted and 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGSm7w10KF
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4SuXZ4RX4
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtW4LdmaiP
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVD7mIJNMOe
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJT2XWh4eoL
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cB5ejHCIS
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkREkbE6hH
mist.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvgmkWg2rs
Jester's voice came from480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oULuFI4E0
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEnI3Ni5FM
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuE3uDhWxZ
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvdGna11r5
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3d4JxX28ny
creating a circle around Jester and David.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PIuTd00jp
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo25D24WQNY
"Shut up!" David 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yhCGOa5z1
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYxR4OMU9S
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeL2TlaFi7
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmqbenNp4P
Jester gave another 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkleF3gdZM
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKJPs1gsqB
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7DrWQtyhB
afraid of the truth?" 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1K3pNdsFll
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DfrvK9Xcg
"You're what? A 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MqBvCxSxq
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEI7rWLkNma
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidP83jFVeh
you've done not matter." 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLL9TL9LtML
The shadows completely 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpWgoyof5E
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnol1mKdn9p
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXdXgiVKBS
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmf6ElpzjR
eye and shadows swallowed him.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJutXcCBWe9
Shadows parting, David 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJxZ6OTOJB
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlwtlZcRuL
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9kOkYO1ZT
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLm1H6IOr2V
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PZI7lzFIp
mother480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PLSRyK8yD
"This is my memory." 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCF11diGMn
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LAwFWNH6H
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhV4xlDkRuK
David didn't reply to 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvkJxtF635
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUGRD7k0S8
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ062F3G1Xgf
Unaware of what was 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ldRGtu88w
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Vv2TOKFiH
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrED8vQ5rr
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqa83bn21W
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6J1A7tB1Zn
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EqkBvJxyg
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFCoHPJAut
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrYVePKgBK
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGJV2SgP9F
Finally the screams of 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZN6C4lQRgj
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiyGmh3Fhv
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPhg5oH83j
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCXVAgs9iI
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvguXoulKE
the baby's throat and squeezed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetG833oOyk
David could feel his 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcfbYqp1wJ
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLAZlnggHE
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HfV3UuMXf
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiNya5hzas
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNZLowU84f
stopped.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AApmz9HVE
"Oh, nonononono." The 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuf7f3mFdDQ
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqX75tQ8Hz
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBAINoiSL6
"You who were supposed 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIueUlH5fJK
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkW1nbpK3Ak
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3D5vvGg6OD
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYMP2SXaTv
Coughing David stood up 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJRv6jqsum
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UflhkWXm3
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYfL7vekxU
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzycBNwEjYp
"No, it was a small 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUMnWlNoVZ
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5ncWVpzMK
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRohlbFNkz
He was staring at the 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8KuqdDx5p
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFviOwZx5vt
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUa3twRMXx
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSmMs7xgGx
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vMSYTBMf9
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RpWglj7C5
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpuSXFwq1W
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejXDd3o2i0
"I will!" Came a squeaky480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTMYowEqGz
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡea7rbuAyDf
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGP9PODWte
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiq7JFHZBs
was an adult.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfoaBvgBkx
A knock came from a door480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3VIMVTkhs
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VlAUIQnsB
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79xL19hyj2
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYVEiYpe1i
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO69Z2AbONJ
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb6Dp0lOCf
being a bad boy.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78zJroLIBp
That's why he didn't 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRi8ycSZlW5
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JGDre9JlH
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYn5OOpSsbZ
"D..david" the answer 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9i2tkmgd5z
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoGY4NA3lo
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcTo5zrDDk
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRZybvgK6K
The man put his hands on480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVUtPiSB9p
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHK1X4EHBWg
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVnmY2B4MB
David meekly shook his 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUrB1DX7el
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDE0yiGyAF
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsY2FCrqLE
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVFKcRvuzU
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYInLmY65NA
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJJ6PO8ZaD
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinwPaYv1Pv
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1TnjUeJOj
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQeG9GjZiX
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPYBEd3aO2
Davids body.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzMYypYXPq
Please don't. Came adult David's voice480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdB9YhxEFGu
Young David was scared; 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8rkURlvXY
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3wh47asGO
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdYG5DzCUw
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8hbhEgVds
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RvUjGcE43
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVObII4g93
"Mummy, mummy!" David 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEnjgml3b2
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNk4NtZsd7
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2MDyrou3p
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegkPuGIobK
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIKkEiknyq
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU7fCaVq8v
David didn't even know 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzO6xlnM8B5
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbIbMDr153
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFtlYMHvKc
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrxfSogBVx
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKF3IGF5eU
David could barely hear 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwDB55DL5A
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGFsUW3Tkk
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNf77QFLtkm
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqswwzki34w
anger. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaLjQRbjdt
"There are more 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9AEzT9LnK
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0q438rSqz
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHm4bHHhmO
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDivDnuALt
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZPjeZPZfW
"What else is there to 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDtkXAHxaS
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ogbwQNlrp
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRVnffE7Ji
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0K8JVbGfX2
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXKDC9hqaZ
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed8JNQzmWk
floor. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDW6jwEC3w
Even the pain didn't 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzvPPDPLKV
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPB9vT6t0N
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw8UDODo4i
everything would be gone.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0qa1EvWt5
~Just like that, give up480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaszgxohqM
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR025yRafMP
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEthzByM8O
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1rGdVi2nd
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4J7E5G6Xp
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfsD8xeEjm
than this."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO46FqrpqHg
~STOP! ~ David dropped 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgJGzbBYLK
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVsAAEEJpJ
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsvdvfhNEA
survive. Survive and live.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyApwUYzil
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlZKSZ2zFM
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRbQ0hKWYi
"Indeed." Jester 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDmVjHoKdt
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYfixuPZ7J
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpC2evKvvjc
like his own did.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTF7JtEBaj
"Why did you try 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3IZDXOsSB
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFqQmhDgs5
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMskAvoOfl
process the influx of memories.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHh9jREbdZ
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8Ju78bXYV
"You expect me to believe that?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcodz6tYKzW
"Believe what you want."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcboZGNTHwM
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKxUvjIF4l
Jester chuckled. "All of480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVThK34ECo
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcLSZMTksg
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaaw6zTvCn
"That just 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyX2YwMc6Ik
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAJXFLpwl0
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzpDK32C2m
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGXE2vVeDI
David nodded. "Do it."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUPBTsbGNM
Everything shifted. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlF8APhGec0
David was cleaning his 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MAJ4ctOPz
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOUI6N2ZrU
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pDCdaINw4
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxayE0j0X0B
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhTacmQWpI
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14206dIMer
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17QyXqcnYD
His last one was just 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXtdlkrl2A
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciiKEuqa1J
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVOrlwNRTh
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSRfEEqvbj
Undamaged goods she loved to say.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUssQrlgaxh
Right on cue, David 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBYMcG4Zym
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVI5C8TcyS4
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiL1MGeijY
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbPUXmKdAV
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRKE2o86ex
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlru84rCIAe
Why was this his life? 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6UQKa9qxj
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4657UrBM86
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAlQ5ANVNv
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEZMnkA8wi
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3jyPYXEZx
vein trying to get his eyes. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERx7nyt8ft
~Enough David.~ A voice 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwffOujs5vP
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqWdoDGTbc
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaEz18lajL
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatghzbW0LF
and met resistance.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wpVOFODuR
The scratching and 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFiHnIvCD0
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjxG9tYcwN
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06OZpE5ULW
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNc0QuLk9GR
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGGMufZ9yJ
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuABDB4EYSD
Oh god what did he do? 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3VLMogZuF
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKec4DhLY7
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7Gmvw3jwj
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ6jjTIate
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtatihUyHVb
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjULcF3D95
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7VOOUuTqR
blood.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpMeKuzgsQ
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTYS0BH3vV
There was a pause and everything quieted down.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ARl8CZ70f
A boy named David just 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rBfEeuwbq
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mU0wjAtZR
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ18mLmDCva
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMZuwsxGJ5
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84vIapjcCL
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxFXGRmqtZ
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytaINWQ2GN
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLPNGpRdCj
silly of him.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVaPRU4A3P
Remembering his 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZB4TIMIlv
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkvC7Bkxxt
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcwoCzWXvT
table preparing a meal. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk7hovqGId
"There you are David!" 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrVZCBtBfL
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvDoOxyDv5
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotQCKKoj2e
This isn't the truth.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSJxUUEoQj
David obligingly sat 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKc9h2HuW7
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvIzbVgdqr
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmre6f0ERJ
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUa1YYU6TS
A dream, nothing else.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzMGVlyxNX
They all thanked the 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsvJV4SGPh
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPFD3bWC2H
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4khacWEoxW
this lie.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWVxu3DxsC
A lie that has to end.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3HnNehh49
David was standing at 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICPdplkye5
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1MQhMDmSB
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ2EnnYMIq
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLF2SvpEdm9
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDifq4Ln3F7
Either way David hated 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm59Q9Butx0
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKu0UWjO8pQ
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd86XacKIOh
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWOA92vqDt
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fIH100BZx
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyR3MYVhRUB
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuKZNbWK5i
life this happy blissful life?480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjzACaUCQ7
The answer was so simple480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLlmwhNRZr
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrhpsepar1
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGk6TVV8bQ
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDB6J2ga0c
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPwBCzsz7X
David decided to start 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpezto2wZhW
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrg1wbTUnJ
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPOVkDOgfl
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEv6Dzvuisn
mother. "No more mercy."480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmP6OkoBzS
With the last stab 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAEKBb6V4K
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHi4CMLoks
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepefny7H32
emptiness.
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