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Some of my colleagues 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIthUgdm7gh
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7qYjAnJUs
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDu6TyAlPh
suggestion or hypnosis.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPVtkb0Zyd
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQ6x773owq
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgT68Up8Yl6
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkh10Ca9uCx
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeD9L1lx0Pk
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS659AShHI0
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQIxqRYKEk
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJlXlvqHC1
capabilities.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlWoMKFB8B
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXnAtEEDgq
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David awakened. Not 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWraseq9Uq
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5J1Z9JVoy
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNZYP7dXnk
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaSUbAQKy3
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHUO4PWeCL
undamaged.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4sEPhykt2
"Only your physical body481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65mx9Wl5wo
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAqOZxyaDS
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gQtvSlAAD
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BW22q0xkc
A shadowy form appeared.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYU5YHUkBxc
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZ6xsbn1BJ
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7eUUXlS5J
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwOGw894gB
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIj9YTbv1S
"Am I in the...ether 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBR1ZIqBPT
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9ihb6Gcev
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyXOawoGEW
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCh1ilI6a4S
David was tired, too 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIs9BwnQ5O
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMm9aaJdAcn
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9PQDSt0j2
The shadowy hood cocked 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIHV8pSjpj
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcudURnYRx2
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwVSHZvefA
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXuegORbmA
more grateful."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbftmPq7x4
"I..."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVFs96bWco
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49okFFYRoO
David groaned in 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIjdyY9yTU
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09f1a6NR9s
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe56KLWNZqV
falling point, that'd be fly."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLygcgZ1ld
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxxU1bNkWT
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzGgf9Snv5
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MsADnE0lG
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93xwjXaDrB
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZFIHhtuMX
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVrhu4sePP
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJba6QzrKOz
David shouted and 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStKs59IaVq
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeRZRnDJ3L
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyabM2ZyOU
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXw8AyGxH7
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRYPjYRINu
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskHxqxU3L5
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNb3ZqJKiq
mist.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeQc4tTItM
Jester's voice came from481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OYIDZxcMD
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1C0YBz9d1d
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQfIewWQNe
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5CJYym4QT
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjzM8Ge1U2
creating a circle around Jester and David.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwSobvU6BK
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTtZrQcupO
"Shut up!" David 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFW2XCVMRZ
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmNZUoxiwT
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEE0UilqMSm
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8u8zEaN4F
Jester gave another 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnih1jruJhE
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTr8Cdq6Kx9
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88J0f46ZgQ
afraid of the truth?" 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMC4kgRlsQ
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMfTXV0QVW
"You're what? A 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQN0O9XMxG2
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuTsCyb2UI
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyRTRfGeDD
you've done not matter." 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin3o7acr37
The shadows completely 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPRuBdSSjA
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WKi0ahDgx
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PLNY0canF
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVq5pLqESz
eye and shadows swallowed him.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPbyKBxuIL
Shadows parting, David 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8HvpfUnLX
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAxcSVUEtp
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5IoYVjgHe
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDmK9VgPJ7
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDz2fsqc5ot
mother481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYaFiEboTD
"This is my memory." 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡri5v8IjtJH
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iPy9FboZP
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILd7lPR2Qt
David didn't reply to 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgxdprHfdd
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWsFD9o9Nc
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAS6iQcNIdy
Unaware of what was 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzOGqSzKSS
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQb2NjLF5aV
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4h43jVuYiZ
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyOdZtZWDL
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11B0XJTqdG
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ367OB0Qazq
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZcht75Bnd
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkb57hiGy26
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0N2dPDILD
Finally the screams of 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLKeAG75OE
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCLapMLXmW
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKVB4XhmyP
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBT94wMqXc
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzHqTku6vs
the baby's throat and squeezed.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wefAi6Ynt
David could feel his 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAtpGgjnZE
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVjxjjZFXz
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTIJfQEhbv
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvQt4JO0Xf
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7jtwYykO1
stopped.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVy4f74vqX
"Oh, nonononono." The 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NGXgYx76H
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFglXVogU2o
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeOTQLjDHv
"You who were supposed 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGBnINLvKK
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdH5mjuSin9
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeTRMWKS8G
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfLZQpQrev
Coughing David stood up 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGBfTokJuP
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3HoK9wNgD
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuced4UHlk
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3J6KLP89E
"No, it was a small 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1ilyuwNKx
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkYNDFqyqq
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Z8kcVl9zf
He was staring at the 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwhse8Pk4u
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdK7slt4B6W
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDaxMmaibp
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsJQz7TeOw
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LKXVA3JGx
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mkAQszDU6
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrtjcSRzA4
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBiuhT9Fcp
"I will!" Came a squeaky481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwJJUbh7Gc
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7V0zYS52kV
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmcPDbKNWs
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbpVXxYC1Y
was an adult.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qI8OKrStI
A knock came from a door481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFX6kPPK7bU
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZj3snRp6J
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhX5deViXq4
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgY7VZPXrr
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxG28NKWN0I
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BF9afwdvn
being a bad boy.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lbLbQ6kvK
That's why he didn't 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ999q6hfD2V
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxOmVdQD4g
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7GpzJAsUV
"D..david" the answer 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1SwUs0o69
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLhEVB2pUE
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8xJNwRFuf
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMh95PEdavq
The man put his hands on481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSrbJh2F3g
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhdVAsOGe5
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqsl0Oov7G
David meekly shook his 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63EEpEUCyJ
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoTao3IpcG
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEih1DLTgLo
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNs73gOj1cs
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriQFdV5ay0
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROZEMCyaDy
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJHUOPPPWX
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcqnkhdcjI
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPnt3XbHVu
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcsx0U3bEQ
Davids body.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZZenf5pN1
Please don't. Came adult David's voice481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7m3o338MnP
Young David was scared; 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKrvYUcQVH
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4NpbTaaot
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDYS96w2eD
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5mcLGxNbt
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lucCusrsu
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbz1CKYkvA
"Mummy, mummy!" David 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFtdrRM2EK
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHyKJBGqDw
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnChfor5VNe
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRsSbzNn9h
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUauj8hqQiu
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2E0dzgG3eU
David didn't even know 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xx0u6gr7P
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMOaK6kUUD
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oiLP7z1DN
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBivJfDGMD
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3ABStfRuO
David could barely hear 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHWqzokDG7
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDJjce1VFz
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95ToQixVPC
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGKe9TcE3W
anger. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfD9J8OQmRF
"There are more 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfW2huEoYFC
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WaccW2NIx
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡona8Dgg9z7
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAH2QBZCsi8
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEvblz8zEm
"What else is there to 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBxydubu2C
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwc2hYlmph8
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡan3r2m99iQ
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGYtvIbZT9
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLffIlmqWa
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDO3U5DKzo
floor. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyTcfvBzuu
Even the pain didn't 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgvelbhhXU
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoFkS9tny5
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb893agajma
everything would be gone.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk18kVCNKwO
~Just like that, give up481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRe2S7VYQla
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4ZgOv1w3z
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTY6fuBhVnO
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKhncZ57vU
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGvwihC0g2
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7QCMjZWgh
than this."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyprAU1MFC
~STOP! ~ David dropped 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9gbwmeNM1
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSojlMG3luu
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9rPFlmVpb
survive. Survive and live.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc08wgRLqrU
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6LxorWID4
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wokug9j2E
"Indeed." Jester 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JGA8qKtcI
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhamuVrgoco
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iuAmB6NWV
like his own did.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q9xGO8hM1
"Why did you try 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeOm2U0uyS
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9YX3MX9Yz
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuO9o6DyLKC
process the influx of memories.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBJicQQoRx
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rDpnOknMR
"You expect me to believe that?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7FlAPnjn4
"Believe what you want."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxn9KJ5O7FI
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGUtzFW9HN
Jester chuckled. "All of481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vkHe7eOJP
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ5Rlc9LeW
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XTad8dr8z
"That just 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6399rzvmVU
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGIa4VWBKl
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1numAsNkS
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN17YUBFyV0
David nodded. "Do it."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTDu4FWD0X
Everything shifted. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjfAo4lPJz
David was cleaning his 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3yCATbmRE
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvO5whc0Wg
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsX5UfoYnm
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ56M7miy51
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TyxWcgBLo
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbg8ugJRRi
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBXFQWWZJG
His last one was just 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWToZEn2TAh
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLP0Gt3fWO
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AAbHCzRss
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbBTEdmMmT
Undamaged goods she loved to say.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtc4VRsgJgX
Right on cue, David 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEzhiBPQcF
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nvbt5Sr6G
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡturpBqHULa
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sR8IVQBcd
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBU2wC3jHF
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hrfR9Msaz
Why was this his life? 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyQdvmiXTL
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7U00N4W3XV
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJThLsx8kdy
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqvsTCnLXB
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4Wvb8eFdc
vein trying to get his eyes. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOP79gBQYe
~Enough David.~ A voice 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hHA5o5FEx
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcRhavt3IX
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzi7jsediAi
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy68QChqhyb
and met resistance.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8i1qOgsC5f
The scratching and 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVi3UKNOVsF
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo2nKAAHZo
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcU25BYGzLH
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OoJ4ZFSj6
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyOXorJFTC
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcwXWxnneC
Oh god what did he do? 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQDwpXFYfv
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCsuscNYCD
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LjgC2dZEG
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDScq6kzCdc
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjxc0ARrQm
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8qXK3M46Y
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRtVoKvNz9
blood.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZlR4dlFN3
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLy6D6SXa4
There was a pause and everything quieted down.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdo21vRKitA
A boy named David just 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWBE0UVJhc
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMb0LdvDTcJ
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiRosTX6VX
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLUYArixqD
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMWHoFh6CJ
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQPCnuT5QM
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUanqv5SvpK
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0xYT7P6yS
silly of him.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hOnX06VAR
Remembering his 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALKswwW6o3
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEv6nK1AABb
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqFt8suB7G
table preparing a meal. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEB6rJOPnEA
"There you are David!" 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlWlgzjjem
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54x7aO2wJO
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHGSYxqAKP
This isn't the truth.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUPZuRmBaU
David obligingly sat 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWojMpekLFs
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegq7r25Ezy
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvhrn6aWqm
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDTIihNvPH
A dream, nothing else.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9d6cNIUbn
They all thanked the 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwZAAHeRLn
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1Hj1bUsDl
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UQN5F3ZWp
this lie.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrixEGkfPN
A lie that has to end.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDeJc0AUgy
David was standing at 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzoUbfX7bp
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbpucndRUj
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YRUAPMV1A
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDT7jTrGAG5
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BKTrXENml
Either way David hated 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeuxpr3U26
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMMdbTrRce
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7WTE1Dg8c
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElSsKUTqtr
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1peNEOiOh0
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsVrmoNTlI
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFhozRg89k
life this happy blissful life?481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsNrHtYj7k
The answer was so simple481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRDdYdgqZF
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULa9oswCc5
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJs6TJ2omt7
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6SIgb58he
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuhCaP3gCJ
David decided to start 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqxBgUzKha
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0kBd8oOZF
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFclih5Dbb
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SA0Rv8pEb
mother. "No more mercy."481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuYfdZtgN3
With the last stab 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NAhIuk6fk
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngUxwympqp
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtaZeJeIJk
emptiness.
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