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Some of my colleagues 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1jJmpNaDK
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMvQtcBMgK
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CE5qxaz8B
suggestion or hypnosis.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3SNUXLeAY
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSXBS08Cnu
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZwIDkMqoJ
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshtC10TLAh
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dtqhhCkru
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEQ6F6Y0Jd
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTq6aovo17
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtL7SRzDlj
capabilities.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5rTzCbPpr
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoko1YvVvvN
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David awakened. Not 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVRtpgX7bO
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJOCMIe7KY
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGY7xJ5bOr
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7q2oZ9iFpX
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTNg7W9Omn
undamaged.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdp1c7SGyyl
"Only your physical body548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEf6sx6Uvm
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuj5eoxUqV
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfR6ZYEQ78q
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHKZ5GpX4a
A shadowy form appeared.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hnuwRC4bO
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsAtKN0Akb
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7OCEeDVlu
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUUoS378KM
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBuElYesPb
"Am I in the...ether 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjwmx0JWYG
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZT04KwkFv
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifwqhUvFKt
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XBGUmH6EX
David was tired, too 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡet62ZIDVsd
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsCtpkT9Ma
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkM3rsGUhOc
The shadowy hood cocked 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFfLhnXWOy
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2vjPxXcjt
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhsCXKsNxj
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4IKGcXOV0
more grateful."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMqQzGBDpu
"I..."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiX5NxZtx6b
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9SQjDEe0f
David groaned in 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbQbZWrGYt
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJQgKfy79f
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHbgl0PjpO
falling point, that'd be fly."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9givfpsDwS
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mDpkEDWBv
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAOCbAF689
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnQDEfSko6
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWETBkofZxG
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPcd5J9PuT
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBYSI9VzKU
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfGG9KN37Y
David shouted and 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYP9upNkkfh
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLkMf7l95o
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJrOsP84zv
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVd9vkRbaOT
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczHelBjqJA
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbN0hsfwixs
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQM6Osx821
mist.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuYHhvTVX5
Jester's voice came from548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSEyRPh6Zk
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaGaDccGaM
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhuHwq6Jnh
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpIrEiWl2f
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z8PKbvppE
creating a circle around Jester and David.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4DSd4tMpQ
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuG6V7Kwzh
"Shut up!" David 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFOgTGCwLh
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQSbE3cBEE
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31Buj1QQ70
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYZUowsh0c
Jester gave another 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6EtHm8pxE
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtb4cG7CPq
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms8VZA1Cjz
afraid of the truth?" 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAklLrZ4tBL
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Qx5y3XWw0
"You're what? A 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWimv8loC4Q
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeHXfgJTAH
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1vWuBIhuD
you've done not matter." 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5ownyC44k
The shadows completely 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAbHmQdxZS
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRxo1Jrn38
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sbKYnedtb
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtiAnISZrS
eye and shadows swallowed him.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfu1C7A95M5
Shadows parting, David 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnj1P0smWd
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoI38rBsbS
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMKVSi1IDy
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWt5QSERqNI
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUnkoRFEZw
mother548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDksulAeVHG
"This is my memory." 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubezcecn4L
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KF9vWWK13
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChcvi56J4p
David didn't reply to 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjtMmzYZM8
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQSsjvXkWp
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EIxN3TE6x
Unaware of what was 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCsFpOlTPI
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQZiiBvbiN
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJiJr1UaU8
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIXlTsebyu
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CMEPYSjRF
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpOQ4Zr2EC
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFPJSuGfu9
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZAjBZ5fCC
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOatpjuHciM
Finally the screams of 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSdMzHV77z
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsteuqyEp6
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTy2MkI4vaj
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJc5gDA8EWP
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsdCiq0Jkf
the baby's throat and squeezed.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYuqjO90L6
David could feel his 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJyqUZzuHA
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlerRfhzBo
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekXm7JFahR
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAZD0j4ilm
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Q2QR2iwAZ
stopped.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqX992K7QQ7
"Oh, nonononono." The 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrtsvmNiHL
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXh1YfFm8O
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoUdasz8AL
"You who were supposed 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCWs7e7oK2
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgqWNOlPON
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBgHBERD1f
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJm0rUZZuG4
Coughing David stood up 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHVfNOUAOI
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5X85b0fJAE
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEmNYOqxfI
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNoIubWqly
"No, it was a small 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PUqpfClnY
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqGAphLtej
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ002P8s2hHb
He was staring at the 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvBNomXF4t
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jc2sqZxlh
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCcTm9pXyq
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mxnRgX2qY
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VzLKf6Bjc
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgUEu0n4R9
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7q59nTOvaU
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIDP0yK8pW
"I will!" Came a squeaky548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymv3OIdPwt
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sNXliOvw6
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡON9m9PMeL1
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYGFaDJglM
was an adult.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40tBgiLQTJ
A knock came from a door548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69wY8AZPwv
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1744zbaJmJ
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeb5GQ7sbt0
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuAubgsAvJ
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnAxSaxEpr
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTz8Eg0I1S
being a bad boy.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcIoBl2N7v
That's why he didn't 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcJhZfCvfu
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfloCSoLoF
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3tGsgvdA2
"D..david" the answer 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZB1i8JPPRS
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0IRwzkBj5
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEmmxtBlLp
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgX09aavam
The man put his hands on548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtV8d3Fe9nG
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkED93r1Dpc
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBKfwOP1Mu
David meekly shook his 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHDlTJCMD2
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeNmYIUoDw
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPxPAu397U
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0UK4wS978
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkt4wYXOB5M
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeOpgnOa8O
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjMTBz8wLE
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigWLI8d46g
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33NlXgCLvT
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHFxAYQskB
Davids body.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOInKGR6bza
Please don't. Came adult David's voice548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGla6ZKwYv
Young David was scared; 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFNCcbOzdv
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwrLlUNcSq
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrY31knz0l
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyygI7el1s
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDCJFkwIJz
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwyNyoACIC
"Mummy, mummy!" David 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6bkgEvwlH
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNcNVM8Aux
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIrmm2dnRj
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncHtRhmYGH
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3h0bULdnPj
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZ1NyK9ty6
David didn't even know 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTNIfKRvYe
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡombpsSRlTG
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7tYucOQJ1
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6K0WOHKtpy
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadJfLGPBYe
David could barely hear 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1Zl12oQuq
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAfGkfg5si
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSmVHgq03c
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvemOU7vtd
anger. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYCp4tv7VE
"There are more 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9swsnRjM04
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gM7X7ZDnt
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTz9PY85Pnh
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6gcihI5xq
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTh1JipvhF8
"What else is there to 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QSVo1ysJ3
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdHw0pHesK
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTPIaiyW7e
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUU36J531l
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLn6jdXE3K
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lod1U4526
floor. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6d52PiNPYk
Even the pain didn't 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZ543CSyGf
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMU0E8j2oKp
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6Olu8LIov
everything would be gone.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjR6euEWLX
~Just like that, give up548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvvNRTaGOb
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53QRTGJUeU
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FL1WBPA7E
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeOE2QguVJ
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZL9DcoD9aY
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklqzZjAsST
than this."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoXwF85ggC
~STOP! ~ David dropped 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWV3YqmiZHo
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5J26gqHeC
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6rBAFaNPc
survive. Survive and live.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEczewUGylS
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcibDcSyW0p
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzv1f2grlrk
"Indeed." Jester 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GFBNnyndf
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aDQoLPqYU
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdikxpEIjAp
like his own did.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxflus3lUK
"Why did you try 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7H067DTFZS
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYx3u06Fhd
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlHXg3qaVm
process the influx of memories.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZaZckzABQ
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL74Rzjukji
"You expect me to believe that?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPeEmK278l
"Believe what you want."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRCnAEiLqi
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0geUU3x5ks
Jester chuckled. "All of548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueb6ncRvx4
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSMWdBGZhw
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSff0jp6P3
"That just 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHBQoqsE4v
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJp6fadLE9j
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzetjQN5Cy
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48up9kvQ88
David nodded. "Do it."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEY6yiL2ggn
Everything shifted. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGitIjTsnZj
David was cleaning his 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jBTrxfKRr
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzzKMGnzZT
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksiypwDRje
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPq17aPZIyA
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjzh6cl5t7
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ836dUNaVLf
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvRnCtx6VR
His last one was just 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGUzZCQkrF
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9y3eeBhfY
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoD1BZe18Mf
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYJAcVOACI
Undamaged goods she loved to say.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMd2ujRSDFW
Right on cue, David 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZveSMU5LvZ
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZL0LQNOeip
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAcbzLM9k7
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJHZcqtXqA
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoVarJdG1c
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVbgzWfc7M
Why was this his life? 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRmlpZU3Mq
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72FP6rdE5R
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sYCXr4kac
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznu3A57dOJ
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjc5ISOiyk
vein trying to get his eyes. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx91L1jgqhq
~Enough David.~ A voice 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0DAWZ34Us
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmZ8Ik6BKj
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MlKmYGJdc
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50G0k8qUrr
and met resistance.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNCmxpbstJ
The scratching and 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsa6H0Xw6pW
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4w498gxvKJ
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiIgqNINL6
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCtmGDK9d5
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0TRspoKpE
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6Gj4p7fsq
Oh god what did he do? 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUoK2jnCr3
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiOZfBQpeK
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTB4dTvka7
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57C6fTklpa
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN4XE9740Z
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uEwTluVAs
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9ydKLNeiq
blood.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoC1kzvhTI
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xCG36vNZ0
There was a pause and everything quieted down.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzCmyiA31x
A boy named David just 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFRA5QnGg9
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4HNdCaFBC
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocg7spgMZl
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhvFjB8pCM
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchldP9LIjF
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYF3IIyepo
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxExCjFYQ3
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtL38S7bIeH
silly of him.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFES158t6b
Remembering his 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84W91w3gAV
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3DYE7jr0y
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0gAHL1GJs
table preparing a meal. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZgRSCyjly
"There you are David!" 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKy0246fLfC
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOHEYU3Z6x
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cTpKq0924
This isn't the truth.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60skIaAPny
David obligingly sat 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhmTpwY2Hi
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDqCD29U5M
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQJ0yIgcbu
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRL12On62d
A dream, nothing else.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1szeR6uTH
They all thanked the 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwrpHCgn2K
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIa21o6VAUm
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gEKL4fVAB
this lie.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Svbg7w9Mg
A lie that has to end.548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenyJJr8qoT
David was standing at 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sJJZ4gcRk
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdsHGBacy8
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQeHjTMMIP
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitJc4sl8gx
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEslhM5iYL
Either way David hated 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FaUDU77i2
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfmeDZAk7b
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqu6BoM7Z7S
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4Gv542l5l
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcIa08LjlZ
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxE3QTpkLFv
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTTxnXSTA8
life this happy blissful life?548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pVBXIiMRb
The answer was so simple548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJ3ReOEU18
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tJgGQMvdB
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyff9Ulge7
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzwjbXXmF3
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYDI4YoQdq
David decided to start 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIN1yp64pZ
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPpOQLgQ3s
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICeb2uHYUy
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5DGfScQu6
mother. "No more mercy."548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1n92F5XoK
With the last stab 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfSknAHrUL
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlG6Br7heWB
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast548Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhkx7b88H8
emptiness.
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