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Some of my colleagues 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnFVVvd3qs
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6JGt2eGWd
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyoy6iSGO7
suggestion or hypnosis.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeDc3ZvS8o
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsN88nyGFO
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieGEmf1Cef
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FEp7sIJ8z
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeH4ecaC6K2
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jexFEkG7K
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYi216RRLY
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogIHM9fnxv
capabilities.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixBtBqNOPF
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBjGHo1qIK
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David awakened. Not 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiljloSlIC
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbVdq0JpWx
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLCWP0FN2m
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzY9J7U84Y
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKSh4nNCKm
undamaged.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfmzEa5FBt
"Only your physical body484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpAKQb2QYQ
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQvEegIlAY
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7E74qsOhJ
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW90wHtdIjA
A shadowy form appeared.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8E1wk2M70
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjcg4rvc7k
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrisMm5NtS
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx9QMsnmdn
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0mTg5fquy
"Am I in the...ether 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBei838zI5B
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz69Kt7QfDK
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALYkNGvbOx
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7XivPkyvC
David was tired, too 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwLwKJuGtx
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyknZH60rS
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgMBuPFFER
The shadowy hood cocked 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FvUBgubzq
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlrejckHdb
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUPdQPdV2w
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFObXS4JFv
more grateful."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOkauAYen2
"I..."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fQTXgFJoG
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eYD3ivxYl
David groaned in 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIEIc5F1mP
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7v2yNCT4QH
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cwlOpdf8D
falling point, that'd be fly."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE1FUUpfNC
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa76WS10bJy
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6Buy6YdT4
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1gJb3Hfaz
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60hxEGPcNu
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhTnSuf8av
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF8nU0B4FM
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxjcyImSfX
David shouted and 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcF0u4PXJ0
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6xaTuN6yd
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7beVk8qaoa
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDlHjDguCJ
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWz0eaew9I8
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs00ZFYsa4O
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1aQ6yjTLX
mist.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCt43kHlaE
Jester's voice came from484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNbqWNP215
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KYUxUfB4g
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiO4ge81aFH
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRG723N7z9D
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxhQx0RoC9
creating a circle around Jester and David.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbiCHp5qvq
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHMkDMDLPi
"Shut up!" David 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1zXJs7hsB
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqp7sxPjcbL
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPkrinsKPo
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlILjszMvD
Jester gave another 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVVDCOuSFL
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjCynKRkVm
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3K8U8NCRw
afraid of the truth?" 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7didQIcOT
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfkI0MBMmc
"You're what? A 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr28hJaNwcs
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9iVu48n8a
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xbrvx8qI7
you've done not matter." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IaxmTkuo9
The shadows completely 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqBfKv8UCT
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIPyJkTEkp
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFf4cOuXjFs
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXcFnSnRQA
eye and shadows swallowed him.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUijbGNYSpZ
Shadows parting, David 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMoJkUSkDo
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkE6jbhg87
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6p1x81gLTt
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOX6Nd5SCHD
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkIzuNKrUY
mother484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVCJOZ8j9c
"This is my memory." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeL4q9rnMxo
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelfWyVcHJH
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BeJ4cnpYh
David didn't reply to 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9i9t20MLcm
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIvkkBb4Xp
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1p7k31rmI
Unaware of what was 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aY1CvTqR8
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6yZdDxeaJ
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq91nuIaLqD
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhO2F4LkSH
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegbv8CZwNK
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsLNHQuBkQ
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWZ6Y5VvCk
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjvaq3NlAZ
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6zUScQ6Ul
Finally the screams of 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUUjsAsU3x
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmjDJs1tMW
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcu25if6PWa
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnXVjuARUt
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTM1D9mQMLu
the baby's throat and squeezed.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ455YBBmEh
David could feel his 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm9HnSzRlK
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCt5U9gjT6
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyIYaGpyjd
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt6kBBC2NY
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ931jlntXMb
stopped.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdf8EhcCtjn
"Oh, nonononono." The 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8wc3RlV1i
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaNWXHAnKc
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T9a7CAzxI
"You who were supposed 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg1TMZFqzQ
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vfWmuVWUK
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvtKnCzqzX
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnp19zUmeA
Coughing David stood up 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriQGxv2lsY
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpaN0WlbLq
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AQAM1tzCW
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqbQ4BTBXV
"No, it was a small 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLog9wTrxGR
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOcjmJ7xE4
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEgrr5IMds
He was staring at the 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bS6rld8xW
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2SQW6hqFn
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7T0Upfi46Z
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UnPgEhDd8
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7smqBC6BQ6
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUu0wC3O7ZB
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNDZMr155Y
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkceBvW5IE
"I will!" Came a squeaky484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMZRljG8Yn
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqWJrB5bR6
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH16AW57YUi
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5qACNBU5R
was an adult.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcM8tw8U3Y
A knock came from a door484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXPmJ9oFNY
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctwVWCHBgw
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvf2tJlpoj
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpfp1BVwXJ
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkbtWUi5WQ
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlHFPcz785
being a bad boy.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIXMo6d7dD
That's why he didn't 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IHV9Z5zQL
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7JEom2vgd
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YknzZizuC
"D..david" the answer 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03SNG5o7zj
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0EMsDBZpw
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoDkCwDnYQ
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZccYS1m30q
The man put his hands on484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOYZwZJaZ9
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9GTrDxbhy
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJU44HA48Pk
David meekly shook his 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgL0dzRXwX
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8x6wfgocvz
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUb8PKxVNas
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUe0zI6b9tv
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemujTwQsGS
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrdjvm7HVu
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzd0ArQgeEJ
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3witSDiqwf
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEXIAqNB0Z
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6shFYPAEVP
Davids body.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXVJmMYpTG
Please don't. Came adult David's voice484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2JWQTzKIc
Young David was scared; 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHgylSt9xn
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z7zLV2yoc
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ad23MwLOS
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDYRQpUbGw
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMp8UkDjj9P
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeA3x6rM2GA
"Mummy, mummy!" David 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLSfpW2Wss
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbgcgYT7P2
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KZqVhaTYn
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UhMfCkq6G
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOLhC2gAYA
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBEHg8QpBD
David didn't even know 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3p5GaV3C0
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLQdvTxXyU
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrq10lvCEP
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCVfMavvk0
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBk7zKwfbRP
David could barely hear 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrPP5vuhJn
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9m6fDF2t6o
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1dlOl2YUE
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxzacUxTmq
anger. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaudbWXmvc
"There are more 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLP5DeIeGJU
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqyYKxRnWK
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovTU4U9T7X
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz3X3IlUO7
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yxFnbkxIS
"What else is there to 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB57batYAgN
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xI6jxo3gS
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN80och6IpP
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJg0HZZNde0
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXP6t2FIQSz
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2z2LkX60s
floor. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4blelLW8qV
Even the pain didn't 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbTicW6VmY
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRdu0SRNM1
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRYXDue9UL
everything would be gone.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XYemURGx4
~Just like that, give up484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMxYD4sgAd
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71ew3gr7IN
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPGeIuTXlW
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DCaEa3i3o
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtldm5KYbEb
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBwkeT82KM
than this."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0f30xvjL6
~STOP! ~ David dropped 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3BbF72VNy
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sH4o7h6RI
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYhhpjUEqf
survive. Survive and live.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84MO3dNBZa
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCh5mfoNZsQ
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPjiHm6PMJ
"Indeed." Jester 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMAFXd08bs
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrcDtrYqQ6
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF9DLNS4xX
like his own did.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbm00AABPZ
"Why did you try 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXHtdJ0KbR
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECOmp6LAp1
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKMky9rpwD
process the influx of memories.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8a0enjtuc
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtzz848Fg3
"You expect me to believe that?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YputciALa
"Believe what you want."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSK1Hqfmel
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7azw1ikRC
Jester chuckled. "All of484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkj997HSYk
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8fFy6Uslg
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJKTlY5zma
"That just 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyIFvFJlFk
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZdJoQDyVK
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpnWtbtgtE
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEd7Tm0npJe
David nodded. "Do it."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sOzaWHxJu
Everything shifted. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwacSzglzgd
David was cleaning his 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0U8QXIXGl
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBjm3imXnk
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kL6qRpSlI
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNT5enqifP
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3o8EuCfLr
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMu3pBRy1J
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHuBvzEo6X
His last one was just 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7tyCBg6xE
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEyNspp5di
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIK1SQ0OYf
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqevqdp4ncR
Undamaged goods she loved to say.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwDUnUiJo9
Right on cue, David 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXosYVb682B
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOiweG94J4
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecVdC0ranC
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0Nt7I9kG4
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTytanSTrY2
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5h0ECrHSqP
Why was this his life? 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZrMT48PoO
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvfKGNW8pl
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHZRpC5cgj
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatYSHX8GvY
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aBWUtVqZ1
vein trying to get his eyes. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡok9xkVdlVe
~Enough David.~ A voice 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lnKYjv9vY
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWwa50W2Sm
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUB5Jdee8PE
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtsyoL28wE
and met resistance.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhcxsxF2yr
The scratching and 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7bPYweBvv
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhVTc2ECuB
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Hb4CzWlki
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4vTT7Guq1
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SD8m2zQTR
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMHeizNgMU
Oh god what did he do? 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sylWQhzxh
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcfUihXDkF
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyqDry6Koq
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeh7R3nPz0
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdXc94luf3
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOMgsmB4Lw
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiMPcv3cbo
blood.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwllkbJa5PC
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tc8tnhNPM
There was a pause and everything quieted down.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLh0rMJG0V
A boy named David just 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CJGIYQ4Tj
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtR48aL08c
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEljnHD1Ia4
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL30lvGnnI
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WgHSQFDMD
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ixzcIP5fu
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIjafD6Abu
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaPi4OV2uz
silly of him.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kM5KXbbX5
Remembering his 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozF9pXUZ4j
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFTyUMPdpN
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5zPUKaXNB
table preparing a meal. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtEOKArZ59
"There you are David!" 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQq7ozZBOP
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSt3yDnUFD2
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRERO9fpRDX
This isn't the truth.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaVdp5lAjk
David obligingly sat 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWOPdY9NpD
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNvN723rUC
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclkT8QwT3H
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHicQ0YiEHE
A dream, nothing else.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMB8xbR6t4m
They all thanked the 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPacbLYwDT4
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxP48Mkp5w
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9vuE0EAdC
this lie.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3aI3SdkJo
A lie that has to end.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ434qEajCWR
David was standing at 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdTOlTm8gY
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNnyOitiNe
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRiKHIhf9P
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUafxtsVaUp
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCOYOvWKDy
Either way David hated 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecxE6SlFPl
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPtrhNbLcu
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCJmYV8SOl
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekOX6RmTZh
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWtkicjhHj
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQAVE0nTnN
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSpilhMOEW
life this happy blissful life?484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2bkiMyu7V
The answer was so simple484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqRaOuqku0
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkGAB1iDnH
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEGcuPUew0
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bSbxsUvLe
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TiaYcT4zW
David decided to start 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUhhpjghey
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q5X2DSP0u
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UdbaL6NOD
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUpdqQOGR0
mother. "No more mercy."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9kuJ8Yf08
With the last stab 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzJy8WL94F
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjN233Go3V
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3vktsoDUk
emptiness.
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