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Some of my colleagues 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNZ3mrPaLU
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHISHIPqHSP
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VsNNXXBya
suggestion or hypnosis.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5bvLpCihu
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBa4fS8mcEP
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgU6YuWhJD
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5rIQq9QWD
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL79sCWT1T8
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkdRdyVgRi
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXp1JXbm3qz
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBJiPQo3Pp
capabilities.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDXxdHLoRf
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYlwqrQ20e
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David awakened. Not 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4ddDajm9C
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTzQZ1BS1q
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2U60U9su6
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLLXUg7KLC
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxJ97szBDx
undamaged.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZymqpxc7o
"Only your physical body406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRjd65u7fr
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11UE8YYtTA
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl84tpv5bD
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0QUrTtkqQ
A shadowy form appeared.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JMpYpxjF6
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzph6IAtNPC
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcMWejedWm
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JtlIWWbYT
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48O0mDulMV
"Am I in the...ether 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekbvHZVmnD
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJh2mSCoMF
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FYxUG0Wkt
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpgCv4amTC
David was tired, too 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpc9Q6355K0
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJz1vul1qBL
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhN0cbyWdCw
The shadowy hood cocked 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBg99WtNWfu
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5DkHuF9Sc
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZi9CkrQSCG
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJJUhgaL90
more grateful."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEfhKI3uqX
"I..."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1eiv1gLgY
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXhrIQP8ml
David groaned in 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayCCsRt5kF
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PXoHy7Imm
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvZyphNIa5
falling point, that'd be fly."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRuZR1O170
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8NJltsNjd
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XNqB124aC
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7ZQkTyb0S
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABZfIFQAlC
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4doC3YZMKJ
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJyg8ixwFF
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVSQHz4hH1
David shouted and 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTW83fHugC
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthvhC2C62X
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIRHd5PxUS
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxisXBkda2D
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEekgqNujlq
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEVu9osIt1
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYJDrlr72G
mist.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQPWUmOwNL
Jester's voice came from406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsScicPR0FZ
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUmWsSpD0p
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkUIWMuXrv
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16VnTunpaP
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0JaoBmOpS
creating a circle around Jester and David.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I9goESvfi
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FZtvFNc2g
"Shut up!" David 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRvCdZHF23
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyr8IzMMe2w
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapgpL1Z171
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWVxIn482g
Jester gave another 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXv2tmFPoK
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNHh0WRwG2
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6SB9TaQdC
afraid of the truth?" 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkh3No2HII8
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxl2ITM51Xt
"You're what? A 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TN8lAUep0
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7eSkKwZxG
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBHA3Yfm2m
you've done not matter." 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoXkF5zX9Z
The shadows completely 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0HM8hiFfR
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwn7q5xbTDw
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2VMAs6Wet
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp79jVj8zYT
eye and shadows swallowed him.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX5rsyHPFV
Shadows parting, David 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBSbL53sOz
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79ir8P9BHI
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlS0LZvm9Wc
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjBp4ajfFV
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4vjkKn8V8
mother406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3dFZWz65A
"This is my memory." 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ002XP1b5DS
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuvDi6MefD
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZlNDRx4e4
David didn't reply to 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmo2OG49yC
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQS7G4IZrXC
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ408Iljm1dH
Unaware of what was 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3osUcL7AF
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioKcQ2xMsK
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqziMa5tLZ
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaghYSdZVXz
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeWqWrwwdk
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgVzlryNrM
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8qFq2xScE
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQZps5vRyU
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzh7vpYGJT
Finally the screams of 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5rkwk9L4V
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8sJaFnmhF
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzT4tiuJkw
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYURWadKGIv
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyMhlygtVZ
the baby's throat and squeezed.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHJOeLhafi
David could feel his 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wXLqmxLD6
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMis7AaB5iK
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTmKBMEU1P
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVjjv7dz8s
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn85OqODhVD
stopped.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oL0TZPDHC
"Oh, nonononono." The 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyvwzQlF9T
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkuTmcqeLe
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIInVjeHVkE
"You who were supposed 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5YhIkIJ0S
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFMoPUxotv
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ372ZsBZ2OV
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bZiUdvIiN
Coughing David stood up 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzj81khQTen
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1zU6whQKh
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAe4CFBfZA
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHdf4Vkr9R
"No, it was a small 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYGbksXrmy
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlREu3zoJZ
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybMfexpooA
He was staring at the 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7Y7Xff1kq
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD12dzEw00x
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmAqv3bBpe
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6SYL1jBjF
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsntrpmZxBo
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcs1Dk5Imq
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46SWdkw0Qg
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFSq7nwyJR
"I will!" Came a squeaky406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndaQl1a3l6
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExmO6Dibcb
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKBvyO9SwJ
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4D6YPjiJPN
was an adult.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKzchX0D3v
A knock came from a door406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4cA7lF4yb
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWF0xFigO8
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpqsCJKjdF
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMUe14XHwa
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OKnWdE2WY
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Vc0e3nXa0
being a bad boy.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLV289THi0
That's why he didn't 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mdF0xCCEb
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePTeFqF9oB
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYgTsh1UVY
"D..david" the answer 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRE7ANA4yoN
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdomkYBUnz
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvkI9LDcAA
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2zlibdEZp
The man put his hands on406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyyOWXIe1t
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfuwU8xaHp
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpYeBNHQML
David meekly shook his 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN3Dei2AMT
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInE4Wb3OVN
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRRQBpnYhi
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VmyUIp0IV
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWSSpOdYlJ
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PiB245ouh
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bcyuTszx0
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrPM5iP4WB
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BxKogGr1q
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkE4giGRvA7
Davids body.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpQbTIAZI8
Please don't. Came adult David's voice406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkNBeH7Gkh
Young David was scared; 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAILM5XYSn
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Lg0Rlhwy2
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJsN9jdbxr
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Pqvunj4Rj
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDwHAD907E
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLz0w18P3KB
"Mummy, mummy!" David 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHAakCnY8g
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjabZaOxL3
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3RxEuoxLo
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0h6mEIYYu
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBk80dG4jpc
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDDxe6cb63
David didn't even know 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPbaiGlZWc
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGevkS3dfrF
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFyXAEPBB4
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N0E0mIFnS
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbfqNjiAb7
David could barely hear 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgULhw1TFop
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLlNcv9OKd
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5f4I5oTIbg
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNmgOIOn5J
anger. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPSwytOVW5
"There are more 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qugDJDjJt
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkzd46wHbK
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tf4UnbBs0
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXo3CIqWKMo
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpWZbA5tZa
"What else is there to 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtotF7DN3T
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0S5gN8o7z
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIygQwXF8RL
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLJtOn9kI2
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJ5wjzjth1
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4m5I7cI7J
floor. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdPictYCST
Even the pain didn't 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuic9oU1n5
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKElB4Yh2A
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBsx2akk5k
everything would be gone.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtzQ5B46AN
~Just like that, give up406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRX6aruzcR
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlfb6jFPhc
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH09KnyJNJl
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIt4GBm6n4L
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJ2aLnL9vj
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsjh8Z8k5J
than this."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClMRFb17kJ
~STOP! ~ David dropped 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAL3f4JmvlT
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2ffGMo2d1
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvkRJDzec7
survive. Survive and live.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qbU0qaaIA
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSJi0lxEjq
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYGuHnaFb1
"Indeed." Jester 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0OQx2dNLk
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIXvuKLYsL
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9JPACSozm
like his own did.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYdElD8L66
"Why did you try 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjljcXJBH4
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uYURxpNaQ
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡali1mB0DpZ
process the influx of memories.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7XppcBrre
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOzbKHvp1q
"You expect me to believe that?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaNxNzCLQ3
"Believe what you want."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQrTICsAvE
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtOniDlm1Q
Jester chuckled. "All of406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MSqbZv2Ss
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrcWhTOHUU
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41LcTURTlU
"That just 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20i5EGMIyj
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt068vVjNLv
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnqeDyFr7H
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHakv9EbNbM
David nodded. "Do it."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sGNQWb287
Everything shifted. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnRPN30hlw
David was cleaning his 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeFketuoEs
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDXzwSXm9g
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu37pze32Rl
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jZeMQgcXh
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeqLM6E7ix
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡff02h4Ulvl
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwFmNrwp90
His last one was just 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCHpnIpUQP
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEjETwMyzk
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUorrZuC0W
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb9vl1KWeV
Undamaged goods she loved to say.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7k4VqckL68
Right on cue, David 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12P52sRdm4
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRbbRHv2cc
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsz3Woyifla
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7tCvF15ej
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWT0Xd5n8J
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvswEwRM9K2
Why was this his life? 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXid27T15A
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAg000mZx6b
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2AXXcdeJt
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68EjcTo3gu
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lH3R08Yd9
vein trying to get his eyes. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIV88QkqvD
~Enough David.~ A voice 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVGVh2yY1Y
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcRCJiKA81
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSK54QVm1zG
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbTkBG40yq
and met resistance.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gSGYODo95
The scratching and 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpyqkTz95m
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pmftDEZUr
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWcP172I2E
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuChO1aQ1r
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FWOIuZgoz
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZQwPXoMio
Oh god what did he do? 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcSByHJ627
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqATnUnne2
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3nlTNTjbE
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgG6SFeopUI
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQTOxuBj3m
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOyXfxiACN
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡal1EG0xlQS
blood.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhX3cAceJlE
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwuVckdRNW
There was a pause and everything quieted down.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcjnDzlsBh
A boy named David just 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzIbbJT1gd
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxlc4s9HMI
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpTb9XhL39
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpOhgR2E8I
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMtDNfrpDM
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTKLmbYBfT
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRn27yJBCql
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbqqZ77T2G
silly of him.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yhn7KPJzA
Remembering his 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63XB2yJEdy
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyshtLOIyRJ
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDFufi59g0
table preparing a meal. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGRysjgYn6
"There you are David!" 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYXVJ7YEy8
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKo8cjpF106
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Nd1IJN6wN
This isn't the truth.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcVhjDbaeS
David obligingly sat 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuEtEfGC13
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzx9OvhJ8LY
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNwBplNSaj
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpM5VojPMP
A dream, nothing else.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNu23E6F2x
They all thanked the 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmAkY3FHgn
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7BC58cXt2
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXd0F7zfSR
this lie.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIHSbHbu8d
A lie that has to end.406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡws9rXExJw9
David was standing at 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXdRClEJaG
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTIDhVQAuH
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5oRM622oB
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNn3Spaa1I
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zDZfE2MOo
Either way David hated 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqrj6znz93
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kMfAoiQ24
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GPrbcvp63
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4MKPMSpAv
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjJWyBS7Ep
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtf4udzyB2
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3cdJQe2ku
life this happy blissful life?406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUz0S8xMOKK
The answer was so simple406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVKwHAotFw
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOwBmUBbAw
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhxuIjzv9X
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzViYbAcx27
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsymFFsLbWs
David decided to start 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqinqwpiz4q
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNykFagfdS
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLEc0O1y5M
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwbyEsgQEw
mother. "No more mercy."406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf6A5eqRKp
With the last stab 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFEsL7ZjY1
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPeXO5rBTS
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZbDWm82Tg
emptiness.
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