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Some of my colleagues 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0sA28DcRU
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKwSP0UCCv
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDag9ClMnlj
suggestion or hypnosis.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlbHVWJVDc
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1RubzXLti
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9XwXtIY4J
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMoAEWcqA9
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tffku4Aox
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU14L30ziI
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykEX8Bc7yx
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznZaoMmTKY
capabilities.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GnYMdZQGx
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iuVZOCo33
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David awakened. Not 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTR67D8Y6v
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM24o4RyvV0
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4hUzwoZ3j
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESe1RgxxxJ
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqzOZrALk8
undamaged.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuwhYCUGUS
"Only your physical body438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTEBNrlz3z
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtmtg7N9AQ
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkQrHc3r4v
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurxXTwgabA
A shadowy form appeared.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVMAkf31ov
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrbD5cvbsm
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHmPrHsk2w
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJa7YA6qVl
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8cvehcSzW
"Am I in the...ether 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmPHree0aq
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4AU1tB0gz
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXVsDSmVFH
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93I4Rzlr66
David was tired, too 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZ06HYOWiu
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZb5aGiOiZ
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMfxx7wsuQ
The shadowy hood cocked 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHbuR4iGct
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26dDDIoVdx
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwVqQqR5Qv
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaRWKmmaBI
more grateful."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiw3mf7tHhd
"I..."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOE8L1tqJi
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QLOOuvk9A
David groaned in 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxLHfdhSrc
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwleSb1TWku
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHltO81cJ0
falling point, that'd be fly."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXBCwx3xqv
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmdN0hGjlL
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRoBjSfIDR
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3rAVo8j2t
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSapkRbxcJ
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUgw3VYAsQ
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRhuP6wboM
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSfOerinLT
David shouted and 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMClHuelS1
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4CeMSyRD5
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHeUZmNg3E
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbiaMVkIy3
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbUgbd2607
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9twWu408Dq
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGXSc1iggW
mist.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCykOQPSVk
Jester's voice came from438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUVAGvIuFg
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGC7052X7c
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuyyhAzf0m
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OcM53lPT7
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3baIPGIju
creating a circle around Jester and David.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiWltMsiqT
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaqHh75sXn
"Shut up!" David 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCgh986q25
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGBjD027FE
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66vmNUp1hv
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7ZcaZuFzP
Jester gave another 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyrtW9jiTd
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnmJwoOuKt
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuqfLd0VNx
afraid of the truth?" 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBuN4o9gPP
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfc7B6MWBX
"You're what? A 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEPnEfWlUb
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdj2Lt1shx4
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK9P7V9zx3
you've done not matter." 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMtZqKVipx
The shadows completely 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX101S4wafj
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WCrfI6lLA
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qBW8L3EAq
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVbjbLPzbg
eye and shadows swallowed him.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajzWMrfl3Q
Shadows parting, David 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJg66ZJ1no
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4YYp6ERnP
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBfXdKuLrp
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5BaSsJIQC
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqlrz37Mxt
mother438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyw1ZlWQ0e
"This is my memory." 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDacl2nHXT
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjDFHxCZZM
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvV2so83o4
David didn't reply to 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2jackHAYM
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysj4QbjWz0
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcgbXkLRSq
Unaware of what was 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeU4NFTfOY
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxe9NtAdSf
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXRcDGA12k
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVwVnmsndD
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMcz8QVXy2
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoozAm3XQd
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMCevTMRK3
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SUY2q4dMs
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0Co8WfnTI
Finally the screams of 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX98oF4oga2
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVMVnlRKN1
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlj58vYjYw
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8G9V3jhdm
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7heTtJ2GA9
the baby's throat and squeezed.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqaX7rsP0Q
David could feel his 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4vui0Acua
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCmeMrz9lv
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUakZIfbg2
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsthMdUFWm
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63HxeWRUjg
stopped.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqYzepGRKr
"Oh, nonononono." The 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12aJh6q00z
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJF0VMUOqnd
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKS5vy5KXp
"You who were supposed 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJI4wswBoCr
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcj0PtKUGSS
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6rtakPcKm
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAVMmQWxyg
Coughing David stood up 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nfeCHz5ys
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasM7LHcIil
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoZJbVOQ2R
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftE8I90ezv
"No, it was a small 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9theMLXCx
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vgQr8asmj
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPnrdfjQkg
He was staring at the 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWgFkEgR7D
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdkB74rTuf
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoV7UgoWztz
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXysl8IV0fx
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aGYb7NVAE
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxI0gHW8K3
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkioVheVzz
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2M77xOA2Z
"I will!" Came a squeaky438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxYZanqLAb
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6E40XVAE2M
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmITgPiSD0y
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yOzjFpR6C
was an adult.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PfBNTYP8T
A knock came from a door438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WSKkJYfHm
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iXMpQ3g67
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcBU45RgoK
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiv15ajllY
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQ4xi0a907
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EXl1fFBTg
being a bad boy.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbzexVe8Ox
That's why he didn't 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFD820UtR7
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3dvfLLpg6
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56ORuMddWl
"D..david" the answer 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzvFPbQ69P
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11t5vIEDxD
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1YBdTINuX
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEfChHGffo
The man put his hands on438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YCwpr87zb
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoxYxHAxF2
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MtFjnXgR8
David meekly shook his 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2phRK3F3d6
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBQROwVsSC
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nOn5bPPfh
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzpHTLXALZ
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMhm0Gep3n
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIR2iAV5x81
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaVKQ0LRJl
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygbjr6GxmO
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPwMGUXRFo
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUzzGqpEVb
Davids body.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOM6GU1NqB
Please don't. Came adult David's voice438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eBcWWezcu
Young David was scared; 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5oBNfDGy1
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IZUhjdM38
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuGHUb42ev
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemy4jHoliQ
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8gqYGfNQM
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJc6D7DV08
"Mummy, mummy!" David 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGzw75EjbH
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdv4vPLj4eF
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1hIAWKTox
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRM5HPMpo4
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWX3v7UsVm
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyDO8ZVbO7
David didn't even know 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhrpGJZD5T
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bu8AZ4IzO
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nlSABoTPh
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Jc4JnGnm2
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLrLa5Oj67
David could barely hear 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCT1j9S9KzS
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINJIiE1uGX
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmQjcyyw6l
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsDt9GCIXo
anger. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGGH2svkzz
"There are more 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaP8HxWoLrk
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKgq9LLnOF
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpglRyRuPB4
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiTYF59ZKx
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiwTdoia1V
"What else is there to 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTleoTu3pHd
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRHiWP82si
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y7tEKTsF9
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWW2IsB6jx
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqTHztvjRs
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPqUNVOprR
floor. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpndqwZ05f
Even the pain didn't 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGBTlL8z4T
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeGqS8i0Z2
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtN57d4zqoS
everything would be gone.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6pjqZtk1K
~Just like that, give up438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2iXenAZOQ
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLi0gsC2ir
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrgwEQIaOm
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Fm0QzkJIP
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2l88ASFGCM
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeb4Cs83ovt
than this."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjEWsPLkVn
~STOP! ~ David dropped 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaB4wxPlz5
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMr5s2ssxBU
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Cq4ASQPil
survive. Survive and live.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYssLIDGtt
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWWmGFoQPE
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo06OfTaTzm
"Indeed." Jester 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqVLahmYYp
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHMrLuqOOE
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4w2iutU67
like his own did.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiOSZ1WlYu
"Why did you try 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0JQ4SMnT6
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnKnLobs1j
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5NUP2HlDX
process the influx of memories.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4K8OXxJGGG
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mnbwQFKn1
"You expect me to believe that?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5CiZtmQ6U
"Believe what you want."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt608hxfNF5
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7R9WZbGZn
Jester chuckled. "All of438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4T3RmknU2j
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SUAOu1w0X
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5GQp5RZBB
"That just 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY2qPcdDNk
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwIYhaORfO
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQSR3zOjs0
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03VNrp1qYO
David nodded. "Do it."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2CGNXeHAf
Everything shifted. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdU47mkIX9Y
David was cleaning his 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWwRrmQK2V
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcnkQD4zRh
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXptRFSSL2b
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVhWjaLaPx
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMin8rkmXgy
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7tBY1nEzE
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZZmE59r1u
His last one was just 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJFphjuj6F
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfB3DBCZdh
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgHEeuezPR
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk0MhGToNh
Undamaged goods she loved to say.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIuYJ2eZF0
Right on cue, David 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVglSO7xJLt
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJg2jyXGSpD
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCHvunJFM4
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjObOGINqk
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinMSJ7hZ0O
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uhhKbY5ga
Why was this his life? 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrW7uQdsMNV
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1NW1jQVSC
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHykASiYA2r
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZxUYJJlJo
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RtEIT3fMG
vein trying to get his eyes. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMYjIaMcGZ
~Enough David.~ A voice 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefo0NoPFZj
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0bPf2m7GE
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YrDjfmjZf
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikbDdwSfVM
and met resistance.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznslc1cfMn
The scratching and 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3joowI5oGM
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBA2IYkH8kS
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE73WYM07Fs
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuDjhD51xs
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ra0G4NZc6
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkSGuudz30
Oh god what did he do? 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlVYQJjZy5
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxhYYKEqrT
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO36fifpwyA
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPRmOTGcaJ
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb71bm82HSZ
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXh30srP8A9
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIZ2i8setL
blood.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKvlRy2v5Q
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhhciEg6Fz
There was a pause and everything quieted down.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXbPEAGq0u
A boy named David just 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFpN73msPa
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOvNx37GHV
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiAhV1Fwlk
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8lyTTODMN
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpjKVmm4pR
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrj0aFdjGu
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDedOrkBag
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvTLaLQVu9
silly of him.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXYGiNYSlx
Remembering his 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4jRHAW8Gj
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7pR8CrLuF
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHxjQeZlml
table preparing a meal. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqa8D51bxf3
"There you are David!" 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPGBjRWOuy
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKNGjcY1VM
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDh2VDW9omF
This isn't the truth.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiqnNdEcAU
David obligingly sat 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6t21hBsdrU
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGmAnxEpG3
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44KJGZHjXf
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6oo2b9fkK
A dream, nothing else.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzQq6KxEXO
They all thanked the 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3mcRoyp1j
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xgaNBp92M
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxSEkWZcko
this lie.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiG8SpBHgAf
A lie that has to end.438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDVc6hxrRy
David was standing at 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Wioc6iqWY
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DaY0Rab1c
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJwDS1IPlW
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2uemfvEN2
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IlGy8hzfG
Either way David hated 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwZULfie60
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYfNrCW8Ca
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtA8xqx6E7
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5Aiwg2GtA
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbG74TVDDb
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvXBhf1nM4
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcQ3yRfuEn
life this happy blissful life?438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2YNjb9X3O
The answer was so simple438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7plIiiOTLf
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rFutN0Nyr
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUoEe3JxBb
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUC1zCaSBy
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxxo7rKXQR
David decided to start 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbq1gAehzvM
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6b00mB2liU
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlIe5NR077
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfazcQEGbI
mother. "No more mercy."438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzIdLqv4XO
With the last stab 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndQTz0E2HL
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vdG63XxBn
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQcJ6nEoxS
emptiness.
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