「我開始明白，成為一個老師，見返舊生嘅感受。」我對住以前嘅班主任Miss Lam講。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxygsHYoJhP
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「係幾開心㗎，尤其見到你哋可以成為出色嘅人。」Miss Lam搭一搭我膊頭講。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfglap4mnoF
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「尤其係有啲男班長以前仲好麻煩添！」阿南取笑我。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcIgyOngb5
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「咁邊有女班長你咁品學兼優啊！」我都不甘示弱。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfOb0nuffN
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「得啦得啦，唔好拗啦，你哋都係我好自豪嘅學生，亦係你哋令我感受到做老師嘅意義，雖然你哋嘅人生會有好多唔如意嘅跌宕，亦行咗好多冤枉路，不過我都會一路睇住你哋，直至行到一條順暢而且開心嘅路。但我幫倒你地嘅嘢有限，點樣行一條正確嘅路，亦要靠你哋自己決定。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtMmQN2jfF
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「多謝你Miss Lam！」感性嘅阿南馬上攬住Miss Lam，不過我亦都俾佢呢番說話感動。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4oTndANqH
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喺同孤兒院所有認識嘅人都吹咗一陣水，我終於明白點解明明當初只係為咗一個承諾，但去到今日我仍然會留喺呢個地方，而且係抱住真心愛呢個地方嘅感覺而到訪。係因為，呢到唔同嘅人，都有一顆真誠嘅心。佢哋嘅存在好似可以令自己喺萬惡嘅現實中抖一抖氣。
「估唔到聰聰而家變得咁Charm。」我講。開放日完結之後，我同阿南一齊離開，並且再度經過果個可以望到夕陽嘅長堤。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhI947JLbzs
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「係囉，好似尋日仲係一個淨係識扭計嘅男仔。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CS6xiv4sz
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「頭先望到若儀嘅樣，嗒曬糖咁。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49VMsNEgHq
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「聰聰都好似特別照顧佢添啦，或者佢哋之間嘅故事仲可以延續。」佢講，我都希望係。可能佢哋之間，又會有一個令人難忘嘅故事。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgriGclIHD
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「以前都唔覺，但原來時間過得好快。喺佢哋面前，我哋都好似好老咁。」我好感慨咁講。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6FehBqYaW
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「阿雄都結婚啦，已經冇藉口再俾我哋扮細。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYxvgexT4J
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「係啊可，所以我哋都要對自己做過嘅事負責返。」我講。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwu4ykQTgkF
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「想講咩？」佢問。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQo5RNvPhH3
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「想表白，向你表白一切。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTG3eMJXyj
「好啊，你講。你肯講，我就肯聽。」佢答。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbFY7P431l
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我呼咗一口氣，腦入面一邊組織想講嘅嘢。173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gQF6nF812
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「其實自從完咗個Party，呢幾日我諗咗好多嘢，我好似，欠你一句真正嘅對唔住。我知道，果次喺我屋企樓下將你鬧走，成為咁多年嚟我哋之間嘅一條刺。雖然之後我哋好似可以好融洽咁相處，甚至你會陪我做一啲無聊挑戰，但我知你一直對呢件事耿耿於懷，其實我都係，好似如果呢句對唔住早啲講，甚至如果果陣可以理性一啲同你講嘢，之後就唔會發生咁多你同我都唔想見到嘅事。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIlNae0p04
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「但之後同你距離好似越嚟越遠，然後你同胡一刀扮拍拖，為嘅只係想我忘記你，種種發生嘅事令我呢句『對唔住』越嚟越難講出口，即使你要離開香港，我都冇將呢句道歉講出嚟。好似一講咗，就會拉近返我哋嘅距離，但我唔想再破壞你嘅生活，所以就放任你對我嘅耿耿於懷，總係覺得我哋之間存在嘅一啲芥蒂好似仲更加好，因為我已經冇曬信心，冇曬自信可以令你開心、令你幸福。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oYUXwqsWP
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「我知道我哋之間，永遠都會有阿月嘅位置。喺失去你嘅日子，阿月真係陪我渡過好多艱難嘅時刻，喺我慢慢可以放低對你嘅思念嘅時候，我真係對佢有一種好難形容嘅感覺。之不過我都唔清楚，到底呢種係愛，定只係一種對佢嘅答謝。但我可以肯定嘅係，我同佢之間，亦同樣有你嘅存在，或者我永遠都冇辦法百分百將自己嘅愛奉獻俾佢，我唔想佢承受呢種唔公平，而且我知道，終有一日佢會離開我，只係估唔到會係以呢個形式。我對你哋兩個人嘅虧欠都好多，呢種虧欠嘅感覺令我呢幾年嚟都冇辦法可以開開心心咁過生活，我唔知我有咩值得你哋做所有事都係為咗我好，但我就好似一個罪人咁，總係做好多傷害你哋嘅事，令我之後無論做幾多好事，都冇辦法洗清呢份責任。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFQYlF3IAD
「直到後來，我喺大學識咗好多影響我價值觀嘅人，尤其一個叫Sammie嘅女仔同肥豪嘅師兄，佢哋教識我原來唔係每一段關係都有機會俾自己慢慢經營，彼此之間亦未必會俾「責任」綑綁住自己。唔知係咪一直以嚟都俾唔同嘅『責任』壓住自己，所以我就將自己縱容喺酒吧，而且好享受呢種感覺，因為可以不斷從唔同嘅人身上搵慰藉，無論係心靈上定係肉體上，而只要冇做錯事，就唔需要講太多嘅責任。我知你一定覺得我好污糟，好仆街，我都覺。但我接二連三咁失去我重視嘅人，先係你、然後係阿月，然後係阿媽...已經令我唔識得再去愛人，唔識得再點樣接受一啲新嘅關係。越喺酒吧蒲得耐，反而個心靈就越空虛，但越空虛，就更加沉溺喺呢一個地獄。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgojrrq8mM
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「我好後悔，後悔冇好好捉實你，明明我哋可能可以好幸福，但係我一手破壞咗，仲令大家咁多年嚟都咁痛苦。咁多年嚟我都唔敢再搵你，直至果日喺阿雄屋企，我冇諗過你會出現。我以為過咗咁多年，對你嘅愛戀已經放低咗，淨低嘅只會係一啲對舊日回憶嘅眷戀。而且我覺得，雖然你嚟咗，但我都可以選擇唔同你接觸，繼續避開你，唔去打擾你嘅生活。但一直同你哋玩遊戲，同你唔同嘅回憶一直喺我腦海中浮現。我先發覺，原來我唔止一直冇忘記你，連對你嘅感覺亦都冇消失到。唔係洛賓無意間嘅推波助瀾，我估我都睇唔到你嘅反應，亦唔會鼓起勇氣同你講返嘢，更唔會知你呢啲年嚟受過嘅委屈。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDi5QgptULg
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「頭先Miss Lam講嘅嘢，我覺得係特登講俾我哋聽。我知道，我哋已經走咗好多冤枉路。果日你同我講咗好多嘢，好似我就知道曬你咁多年嚟點諗，但你未知，我好想將我咁多年嚟嘅想法同經歷都話你知，即使我哋最後可唔可以喺埋一齊都好，但至少之後我哋做嘅每一個決定，都唔會係帶住一啲誤會或者唔理解。」173Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWL6Ykpv4v
