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i have a love-hate relationship with nights like this. i have music blaring in my ears to drown out the thoughts that make me so fucking disgusted with myself, it’s 3am and i can’t sleep, and i have a drilling headache which doesn’t wanna seem to go away. i love nights like these because i have time. time where i can just think without anyone there to disturb me. i’m alone. but then again i hate feeling lonely. sometimes my head gets too loud and i’m scared of myself and what i might do. sometimes i wish someone was here with me.
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