I run up to you, hugging you as if my life depended on it all–the physical contact; – the reality that you’re still here, you’re still safe. You seem surprised at first, but relax as your arms wrap around my small frame and squeeze. You’re so, so lovely I muse to myself as I hear your steady heartbeat loud and clear. But I can't help falling in love with you
Upstairs we laugh and smile, and it feels as if I’m falling for you all over again. It’s little moments like this that I cherish with you, the love we share and that little nick in my heart that you really won’t give up on me. We sit together, —first to play Twister, then cards— and we cuddle sillily. You’re so adorable, holding onto me as if I were the most precious thing, when in reality you were the topper for sure. I love you for that. Shall I stay?
As the game progresses you begin to grumble about food and I can’t help but kiss your lips. No one was there except us in that moment—nor would’ve it if there was someone other than us—and I see you lose focus for a second. I giggle, bringing you back to your senses. “You’re cute.” Followed by an “I love you.” from you. It’s soft; as if worshipping me for something I didn’t even know I did. Would it be a sin
The more you grumble, the closer we were to get food. We sat together with her, my shoulder practically glued to yours. I love you, more than words can explain. More than pictures can express. You chomp down on your burger and I cheekily steal your fries and drink. I didn’t order anything, but I enjoyed the snack anyhow. You‘re nice and let me take what I wanted from your plate. If I can't help falling in love with you?
We head back upstairs and chat, you throwing your head back laughing at something dumb we said. We’re about to walk to the front door when you get a call. It’s from your mom and my heart crashes down to the soles of my feet. “You’ve got to go..?” I can tell an uneasy look crossed my face, as if I’d gone unwell all of a sudden, because you stared worriedly in my eyes; looking for any way—any possible way— to make me smile again.
I force myself to grin softly, a sort of guilty one because it portrayed the opposite of how I really felt. I wanted to cry; kneel at your feet and beg you to stay. But I couldn’t. You had to go and that was that. We headed back indoors and I watched as you packed your things away for the journey home. You didn’t need to say it, but I felt the ‘I love you, I’m so sorry.’ radiating off you in clouds of auras. Darling so it goes
I let my own aura wash over you, a litany if ‘it’s okays’ flooding your senses as you visibly calm down and relax again. I hear her tell you it’s time to go down and we do. Stepping into the upstairs lobby I reach for your hand. You still seemed tense and probably even more upset than before, not good, I told myself as I laced my hand into yours. You squeezed it tightly, like the first hug we had and I stayed silent. Some things are meant to be
Throughout the whole trip down to the main lobby, you didn’t let go of my hand. I tucked my head into the curve from your jawline to your neckline, resting it there. You were warm as usual, I pondered, warm like a chicken of some sort. I felt the weight of your head leaning onto mine too, your rough curls scratching my head gently. Take my hand, take my whole life too
The elevator dings to a stop and I frown slightly, catching myself before you could see.For I can't help falling in love with you
We head out and into the main lobby where your phoned driver is waiting.
I wave goodbye to you, not a final one, because I know I will see you again. Darling so it goes
But a bittersweet one.Some things are meant to be
You start to head off but right before it you turn and rush back, yanking me into a warm, tight hug.Take my hand, take my whole life too
And that, my Love,For I can't help falling in love with you
Is when I feel like I’m accepted and at home ❤️For I can't help falling in love with you
