I'm a horrible person.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLOh8FB8gp
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9PwHwL6oB
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQA6NjYEZQb
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0lFldFZrJ
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDUi4Xhndg
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzwnyvAI2H
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZgSKVcIKL
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhznMinxMx
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgVVTMC8Cd
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElAJ9jU51W
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CVSTo8oU8
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hpKMLOr3M
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBwMJxH0x3
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgNDmy51I8
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGCc5vuMc9
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zQIplCLkZ
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡye9j32yNCx
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MUzHYmXQ0
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAq6mzTCUU
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsQOzcK0Ne
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ13priIlJx
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpE5gMvYX1
Of being lonely.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDPwGho3LC
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmSJQotHvD
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So I take comfort in my own world.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLMmJJPO08
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooubn27Jgd
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0euuygItf
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN30Lhv25PA
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lHF915keT
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmzwMH4uBJ
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvclAyk5LQA
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fgMccwFld
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHxcDeJidG
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdi6uxA8Tow
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNretIzhXL
I shouldn't even have been born.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HSpiqdTDv
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzZcbwZpIH
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