Letters at the Door End of Chapter 1
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How did I get to this point in life when all I wanted was to make a friend who wrote beautifully about tragedies. At first, it was fine but the more letters we traded the more attracted I felt myself become to her. Erin was the first female to make my thoughts race and confuse me with what I wanted most. Tommy made sense while our relationship was storybook down to every detail. We don't fight or have arguments and we love each other so why is the heart so faulty. Why does it yearn for that which is unknown to me, is this not enough for my love life.
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Ever since that day my self debates seem to spin out of control. I feel so conflicted and it's hurting more and more lately, now seeing more pain in her face it hurts so much more. Is this me just wanting to comfort her because she has been hurt before, if so how does that work. Because right now I think I'm hurting her the most with my indecisions.
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Amy; " Kayla Brooks, right?"
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Kayla; " Huh oh yes um hi can I help you.?"
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Amy; " You are friends with Erin yea?"
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Kayla; " Yes I know Erin why..."
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So consumed by my thoughts I didn't realize what I was saying and now was staring at a woman who sent chills through me. Her facial expressions shifted once I admitted knowing Erin, but who is she, and how does she know her.
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Kayla; " I'm sorry who are you again?"
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Amy; " My name is Amy."
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That moment of confirmation that I knew who she was is all it took for her to make me so terrified. Calm yet she was towering over me with a look that sized my throat dry, I tried to speak but I couldn't.
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Amy; " Since you know my name I can make this quick, Stick to your current life and Boyfriend. Don't go toying with another's heart because you are unsure of what you want. "
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Kayla; " Hey I don't know who..."
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That look just got more terrifying why was she so tall I couldn't stop panicking. She just stared down at me and I could tell what she was saying was a threat and warning about approaching Erin. How can anyone be so calm and terrifying at the same time, then she just walked off as nothing happened. That was the Ex Erin told me a little about but how did she find me, and why did she come to me. This only brought me further confusion as I tried to understand what I should do next but I just went home.
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That's where I found my courage to speak what I should have said to her. I succumbed to drinking like a fool desperately trying to clear my thoughts now. I was screaming at the walls and throwing things in frustration I was challenging an image of Amy like she was standing in front of me. I'm just a dumbass lashing out because I drank too much. The worst part is that I always blackout and end up someplace different but never did I think I would be here.
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I was naked lying next to Erin and I can't remember what happened, but the feeling is still there. I can feel it like a whisper on my skin and I can still feel like I'm floating. So why can't I remember what happened the most important thing. Oh God Tommy I had a date today, I have to hurry or this will be my third skipped date. I tried to be as quiet as I could while sneaking out of her place, God I fucked up so bad. After I made it outside I raced down to the Rmart store where we agreed to meet up. I look like a mess surely but if I make it on time maybe everything will be okay.
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Tommy; " Kayla where have you been?"
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Kayla; " Uh sorry I was cramming extra school work I'm sorry. Did you wait long.?"
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Tommy; " The thing about childhood friends is they can always tell when the others lying. What's going on Kayla?"
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Kayla; " It's nothing I just.."
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Tommy; " Enough, Call me when it matters to you because it's clear I don't matter."
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Kayla; " Tommy wait please."
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Damnit why is this happening everything should have just been normal, just a basic storybook ending. Why do I have to want more than what I have. I wanna cry it's so hard to hold back the tears I know I fucked up so whys everything crashing down around me, what did I do to deserve this. Walking aimlessly with my head in the clouds I just couldn't organize my thoughts at all so I stopped at a store I never visited before, God why is my luck so goddamn shit.
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Amy; " Welcome-....Hello Kayla"
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Kayla; " Can I have a water and ill leave."
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Amy; " You look upset wanna talk about it.?"
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Kayla; " You and I are not friends stop pretending like you care."
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My voice was raised and I was on edge but she didn't flinch an inch at my tone. She was still so calm even as I was biting back at her, but she just guided me to a side room. I didn't want to but I didn't have the energy to fight back either surely she has something to say. But once inside she just hands me a bottle of water, I don't understand this woman.
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Amy; " So what happened for you to wander into my little Shop.?"
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Kayla; " Look I wasn't paying attention I don't even know where I am at right now."
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Amy; " We'll you can cry and tell me what happened."
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I looked at her and I couldn't see any change in her so I had no idea what she wanted or was doing. But I couldn't keep it in either so I decided to just tell her.
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Kayla; " I missed three dates and my Boyfriend just broke up with me and the worst part is I don't know what to tell him because I don't wanna hurt him even more. I don't wanna keep lying to him but I also don't know how to explain it to him."
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Amy; " And Erin?"
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I was a deer in headlights I didn't know how to answer that but my mind started replaying fuzzy memories as if trying to recall the night before. That's when I realized I had told her something without saying anything.
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Amy; " How about we start over and go have a drink or something. I think we got off on the wrong foot Kayla."
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I couldn't understand her intentions at all nor could I read her as she stood there with a calm look. Did nothing faze this woman that forces her to break that calm look of hers. She was so intimidating but for some reason, I agreed to her proposal. I was hoping to learn more about her sure but I felt like I was stepping into the deep end of a pool without knowing how to swim. Maybe I can learn more about Erin as well.
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