Social rejection occurs when an individual is deliberately excluded from a social relationship or social interaction for social rather than practical reasons. The definition sounds simple right? Well, here's MY definition of rejection. Rejection is when you tell someone that you have a huge crush on that you like them and then they easily take your heart out and stomp on it right in front of you. The rejector can say his sorry's or whatever but it still hurts. Ever since I've been rejected by Cyr, i couldn't stop thinking about what he told me. I haven't been in the mood to eat even when mom brought up some Chinese food for me to have. She still thinks that some 'pretty' girl from school rejected me but instead, it was a really gorgeous guy with an awesome personality and beautiful smile that rejected me. I've never had a crush on someone like this before. Especially not someone who I just met. So of course I feel even more hurt than how much I should be hurting if I had crushes on every guy that passes me in the hallways. There's no way to avoid Cyr now. We both stand at the same bus stop together, we both have three periods plus lunch together, there's no avoiding him unless I stay home in bed.
While I was getting ready for school, I took my time. I'm not as eager to go out to the bus stop as i'm usually am. You can guess why. When my mom came up to my room to see what was taking so long, she thought I was on the computer again. But when she realized i'm not, she said: "Rejection hurts but you need to move on. You can't keep hanging onto the person or it'll just make you more miserable." Yeah. Like that's easy to do.
I finally dragged myself out of the house and towards the bus stop but I took my time. I expected Cyr to be there already since normally i'm the one that gets there early and I was right. I saw him standing there, looking as calm and cool as he can be. Like he never hurt somebody. Then he turned and smiled at me.
"Hey, Jonah!"
I didn't greet him back. I just continued to walk up to the bus stop and stood next to Cyr.
"Jonah, are you okay?"
I slowly nodded.
Cyr sighed. "Jonah, i'm really sorry."
I quickly shook my head. "It's fine. No worries. I'm over it." I gave him a reassured smile.
"Well, okay."
The bus came and I got on it. I normally sit next to Cyr on the bus but today, I decided to sit by myself. I sat down in the seat across from Cyr's seat and turned my body away from him then stared out the window. I really wish I had Jaime with me right now.
The bus got to the school and I didn't hesitate to get off the bus. I practically flew off the bus once the doors opened. I ran into the school and looked for Jaime.
"Hey, Jonah!"
I saw Jaime and ran up to her then hugged her tightly. Jaime awkwardly patted my back.
"Nice to see you too. How are you feeling?"
"Terrible. I wanted to stay home but my mom kept giving me speeches about how I need to get over being rejected."
"That sounds terrible...Oh hey, Cyr."
I quickly pulled away from Jaime but didn't look at Cyr. Instead, I ran past him and walked straight to first period.
Cyr sighed. "Jonah has been avoiding me since we got on the bus. I'm at loss for words."
Jaime nodded. "He told me what happened. I suggested to him that maybe you two should hang out alone together but he isn't a fan of the idea right at this moment."
Cyr nodded. "I get that but I don't want to stop being friends with him. I never said I would never like him. Just right now isn't a good time."
"I know but...you're practically his first huge crush. I get where you're coming from and I know Jonah gets where you're coming from but he needs some time. And then when Jonah recovers, ask him to hang out."
Cyr nodded. "Thanks for the advice. I'll see you second period." He said then walked away.
I was busy burying my face into my Harry Potter book so I wouldn't have to see Cyr's face.
"Jonah?"
I slowly lifted my head from my book and looked to see Cyr.
"Can we talk?"
I blinked my eyes. "Right now?"
Cyr nodded.
"But...what about class?"
"This is more important. C'mon."
I sighed then closed my book and gather my stuff. Me and Cyr quickly left the classroom before our teacher could see that we were leaving. I wasn't sure where we were going. It seemed like Cyr was taking me somewhere. He took me over to the entrance to the Boy's locker room and then we walked out into the pool area. The school had an indoor pool for gym class. I sometimes liked coming to the pool to read or clear my head. It seemed like Cyr wanted to talk here.
I watched Cyr walk over to the edge of the pool then took his shoes and socks off and sat down, dunking his feet into the pool.
"Come here." He said.
I walked over to him and took my shoes and socks off also then sat down and dunk my feet into the pool too. I stared down into the pool and watched my feet.
Cyr sighed. "I can give you a million sorry's but somehow, it still won't make up for me rejecting you. I hope you know that I never said I won't ever like you. It's just right now isn't a good time for me. Especially since we just met and all." He started.
I just nodded, listening.
"I wish there was something I can do or say to make things better."
I shook my head. "You don't need to do anything. I'm the fool."
"You're not a fool. You just caught me at the wrong time."
I started to feel my eyes tear up.
"What if you like someone else?" I asked.
"That won't happened." He said.
"How do you know?" I asked, looking at him. "How do you know that won't happen? You can't predict the future."
Cyr looked at me with soft eyes. "Because...I already like you."
I stared at him, confused. "But...you said..."
"Jonah, I never said I didn't like you back. I just said I can't be with you right now. There's a difference." He explained.
"Oh...well, why not?"
Cyr looked away. "It's complicated. I would rather not discuss it with you. Let's just say, I wouldn't feel comfortable being in an relationship right now."
I nodded, understanding. I started to feel a bit better. All this time, I thought that Cyr didn't like me but he does. He just...doesn't want to date me right now. For some odd and secretive reason.
Then, Cyr grabbed my hand and held it.
"I hope you understand my decision now." He said, looking at me.
I nodded. "Of course."
He smiled. "Thanks for having this talk with me." He said then got up and grabbed his socks and shoes.
"We better get back to class."
I nodded and stood up as well. "Agreed."
I felt much better now and I couldn't wait to tell Jaime all about it.
"Hey, do you want to hang out this Saturday? We can catch a movie or something?"
I smiled at the idea and nodded. "Sure. Sounds great."
My first....date?
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