"WHAT!? HE DID WHAT!?" Jaime shouted in the library.
The library looked over at us and shushed us.
"Sorry..." Jaime said then sighed and looked at me. "He did what!?" She whispered.
"He kissed me...in front of his mom! Can you believe that?!" I said.
It's study period time and i'm just telling Jaime what happened on me and Cyr's date.
"Woah. Back up, rewind, press play."
"Huh?" I said, confused.
"Start all over from the beginning."
"Oh. Well, he picked me up and paid for our popcorn and drink. He said he wanted to share. Then, during the movie, he grabbed my hand and held it. Once the movie was over, he didn't stop holding my hand even when we left the Theatre and then when we went to the bakery, he held my hand again and kissed my cheek. And he also told me that i'm cute when I blush."
I watched as Jaime's jaw dropped.
"When Cyr's mom dropped me off, Cyr pulled me back from leaving the car and kissed me right in front of his mom. I stressed that she was watching but he said she knows he's bisexual so I guess she's cool with it." I finished.
"Wow. Just...wow. And what happened this morning with you two?"
I sighed. "Weeeeell....."
***FLASHBACK
I stood at the bus stop, thoughts still running through my mind about what happened last night. I'm still super happy that we had an amazing date and that Cyr kissed me but something was still missing.
"Hey."
I looked up to see Cyr. I smiled at him. "Hey."
"Did your mom say anything about last night?" He asked.
I shook my head. "Thankfully, no."
My mom, or should I at least say, 'my parents' don't know that i'm even gay and i'm not ready to tell them. I'm not ready to tell anybody. I only trust Jaime and Cyr.
"What about you? Did your mom say anything about the kiss?" I asked.
Cyr smirked. "Only after you got out of the car. She said and I quote, 'sooo cuuuute~'." Cyr sighed.
"She practically gushed."
I giggled. "Your mom is so cool."
Cyr shrugged.
The bus finally came and we all got on. I sat next to Cyr as usual. Throughout the bus ride, I rested my head on Cyr's shoulder. I didn't mean to, though. And you know why. It's just...I sorta fell asleep. I didn't really get enough sleep last night because well...I was too busy thinking about Cyr and the date so much.
Then, I felt Cyr take my hand into his and held it. My eyes flew open and I looked down to see our fingers intertwined with each other. It made me feel fluttery instead but then I remembered that other kids could see so once the bus stopped at our school, I quickly let go of Cyr's hand. I know he probably wants to walk into school while we hold hands but I didn't want anybody to see. Cyr knows i'm gay. He just doesn't know that i'm hiding it unlike him. It's so obvious that Cyr is out of the closet and I envy him for that.
***END FLASHBACK
"So, did he say anything about you letting go of his hand?" Jaime asked.
I shook my head. "He probably thinks I wanted to hurry up and get inside to see you or something."
I sighed. "I should tell him i'm hiding it huh?"
Jaime nodded. "You should so then he'll be more careful about grabbing your hand and kissing you out in public."
"Thankfully, that didn't happened yet. The kissing part. Which reminds me...now that we had our first date, what happens next?"
Jaime shrugged. "Now the only thing to think about is whether or not you two will start dating."
I gulped. "Oh no. I can't. I mean, I really do but...I can't." I sighed.
"You should just tell him the truth. He'll understand."
I nodded.
***
I stood outside the cafeteria door as I waited for Cyr to come from gym.
"Hey."
I turned around and saw Cyr. I smiled.
"Hey. I-"
I felt Cyr press his lips against mines. It felt so nice but I really didn't want anybody to see us so I quickly pulled away and pretended that I was shy of the kiss.
"I have to tell you something..."
"Sure. What is it?"
I licked my lips and sighed. "I..."
I felt Cyr grab my hand and hold it. I instantly had a reaction. I quickly pulled my hand away from him.
"What's wrong?"
"U-um..." I can't do it. I can't tell him."
"What are we?"
"Huh?"
"I mean, ever since the date, all we ever do is kiss and hold hands which is great but i'm not sure what we are. Are we still friends or...something more? I know you said you wanted to wait but...i'm getting mixed signals now."
Cyr nodded. "I understand."
He shrugged. "I dunno. I DO like you. And no matter how much I want to stop, I just keep finding myself grabbing your hand and kissing you. I guess....I dunno." Cyr rubbed the back of his neck.
"Do you want to start dating?"
I bit down on my bottom lip then shrugged. I really wanted to say yes but I couldn't form the words.
Cyr nodded. "I can let you think about it?"
I nodded. Cyr smiled.
"Cool. Let's go eat."
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