“喺咪放埋假去完旅行先返香港?”315Please respect copyright.PENANAk5N1XyiSQD
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Julie喺佢face book宣布咗,佢哋將會去旅行,同George傾開,我順便問佢。315Please respect copyright.PENANAaoFvSvlkwd
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“係呀,不過一切未有定案!”315Please respect copyright.PENANAkDP3kP3Cec
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仲未有定案,Julie成個月前已經宣布咗。315Please respect copyright.PENANAiqC7dpyCcZ
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起初大家都係朋友咁,講嘢會有啲避忌,同Julie有關嘅,我提都唔敢提,傾嘅都係都係一般不著邊際嘅話題,耐不耐先互傳一啲同話題相關嘅風景、實物相片。
不過近來我覺得佢有啲嘢想試探我,輕輕提番起我哋過去開心嘅事,我唔知佢係咪想背住Julie同我保持來往,令我陷入另一個矛盾,如果佢真係想咁樣,我應唔應該接受佢。
不過只怕係我自作多情,以George嘅性格,佢唔會好似我咁貪多冒失,如果唔係,佢都唔使避走去外國。
雖然George唔係四圍拈花惹草嘅人,但係經過近排嘅通話,我相信佢對我嘅感情無減少過。315Please respect copyright.PENANAbA9GEHuySb
我嘗試誘惑佢,個幾星期前大家傾開影相,佢一向喜歡影相,我有意無意拉扯到人體攝影上面,心魔驅使,我即興除晒衫,主動影咗一張背部裸照俾佢,想睇吓佢對我有無衝動。
“視像傾好唔好?”315Please respect copyright.PENANAbocmAGqWQC
George要求我,佢同van仔一樣,都只係象徵式問吓,未等我回覆好定唔好,已經打實時視頻通話過嚟。
我對上一次見佢,係佢借調去總公司之前,時間上已超過一年。315Please respect copyright.PENANAXIVXU1uyQ5
太耐無見面,雖然隔住個mon,第一眼見到佢,我情緒好激動,控制唔到眼淚,完全出唔到聲。315Please respect copyright.PENANAxpfXeKU7am
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“C,⋯⋯”315Please respect copyright.PENANAl9qX8cn9eT
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佢叫我之後亦都哽咽起嚟。315Please respect copyright.PENANASPt68sFIqp
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接近十分鐘,我哋情緒先平伏落嚟。315Please respect copyright.PENANAJ68G8rSvKA
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“你好嗎?”315Please respect copyright.PENANA9Sx07oYQRF
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我眼淚仲未流完,又高興到笑起上嚟。315Please respect copyright.PENANAC7lm6bE5op
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“你憔悴咗!”315Please respect copyright.PENANAoV4Q3SbBqS
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我唔敢同佢講,我自憐自傷咗一年,但係最近我守唔到寂寞,放縱自己,搵人代替佢用情慾嚟寄託感情,尋找安慰。
加上又經常失眠,有時諗吓自己將來,諗吓佢,思潮起伏,要借助安眠藥先瞓到幾個鐘頭,攪到成個人萎靡不振。315Please respect copyright.PENANATP9AEZSmun
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估唔到佢第一眼見番我,對我評價係我好似個「搲烏婆」咁難睇,我嚇到即刻擰轉身,唔想俾佢再見到我。315Please respect copyright.PENANAuOsxJOIfnB
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我慌忙失措到唔記得我係揸住手機同佢講嘢,我擰轉身,鏡頭仍然係對住我呢個「搲烏婆」。315Please respect copyright.PENANAyo5MYvc8cf
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“咦~我係咪好肉酸呀?”315Please respect copyright.PENANAtypGtWxn2u
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我「乸」起面口問佢,唔記得咗我已經係一個「搲烏婆」咁,而加仲要眼耳口鼻「乸」埋一執,咪更加難睇。315Please respect copyright.PENANAhKx29cla9r
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“傻女,仲係咁貪靚,你憔悴咗唔代表你唔靚!你而加帶住少少愴桑,靚得嚟仲有味道,仲sexy呀,哈哈。”315Please respect copyright.PENANAvwHZjQcfqG
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佢雖然咁講,我仍然唔想俾佢睇得我咁清楚,又唔捨得唔同佢視像,唯有自己背住光,等個樣貌無咁清晣。315Please respect copyright.PENANA0eb2N2szMW
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“見到你開朗番,我都替你高興!”315Please respect copyright.PENANArjysZ69SCg
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George可能好事近,見到佢回復番以前嘅陽光氣息。315Please respect copyright.PENANA3uX7akE4x2
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“離開咗年幾,好期待兩個月後嘅來臨!”315Please respect copyright.PENANAXifl5ofNCB
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George滿臉期盼嘅表情,佢同Julie重會超過兩年,接近得多,連講嘢嘅方式都一樣,有啲隱晦。315Please respect copyright.PENANAgyWfrlNKbb
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我唔敢插口佢兩個月後同Julie嘅假期。
「中間無返過嚟咩?」
我咁問真係好蠢,如果佢答有,即係話佢返嚟不單止無搵我,甚至連通知一聲都無,咁我點算,我會有咩感受呢?
“無呀,唉⋯⋯好多原因令到我無返過嚟,C,如果我返嚟,我一定會搵你。”
佢咁講我好開心,不過佢就快同Julie訂婚,如果我哋繼續咁聯絡,我怕我忍唔住會再次黐上返佢。
我已經介入咗van仔同Gigi中間,唔通日後又會介入埋George同Julie中間。315Please respect copyright.PENANA8xAETQMubW
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對van仔我尚且決斷唔到,抖纏不清,何況係George,我同佢嘅感情,喺van仔身上永遠都唔會有嘅。315Please respect copyright.PENANA8DS4VFwwK4
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我傷害咗Gigi,而加更加怕會傷害埋Julie,我係咪天生破壞人哋關係呢壞女人?想到呢點,我出咗一身冷汗。
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Van仔吃喝玩樂過活,縱使佢樂觀對待人生,都有高低潮,順逆境。315Please respect copyright.PENANA8eFIjwqQZ8
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同珠女慶生後,個幾月嚟van仔都過得唔係太如意。315Please respect copyright.PENANAUBulD93amY
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喺私生活,Gigi每晚煮飯、做家務、等佢放工,就好似一條無形嘅繩索將佢緊緊綁住,一向同佢玩開嘅朋友疏遠佢,背後取笑佢。315Please respect copyright.PENANAyepUHbH901
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佢期望Gigi可以俾多啲空間佢,到佢願望成真,Gigi每星期都返佢阿媽屋企食飯,定期喺埋度過夜。315Please respect copyright.PENANA4hJ1PECxn7
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就輪到van仔班小妹妹唔理佢,甚至連我都同佢少見面。315Please respect copyright.PENANATUGWoEESfb
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喺公司,佢亦都俾好幾個同事刻意針對,背後話佢奉承老闆娘,目的係謀奪老闆娘間公司。315Please respect copyright.PENANAQhuztukakd
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過往每個零月,van仔會約佢食一次飯,而家老闆娘都推辭咗,甚至無向佢提及Gigi。
Van仔奇怪點解連最疼愛嘅契女,佢都唔關心吓、問候吓。315Please respect copyright.PENANAXVJ1b2Zj8V
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呢年多以嚟,我一直處於人生低谷,喺寂寞失落嗰啲時候,van仔唔理一切支撐我,而加大家雖不至於叫「同是天涯淪落人」,但算係一齊咁失意走運,所以只要佢有咩唔開心,我一定會扶持番佢,安慰番佢。315Please respect copyright.PENANAQluUcJPAzw
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每次見到佢,佢除咗向我訴苦,佢都想借大家嘅身體接觸嚟減壓,不過我越嚟越覺得咁做係對唔住Gigi,而且令我同佢泥足深陷,不可收拾。315Please respect copyright.PENANAm67YvZYxnO
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所以我只係接受佢拖吓我手,擁抱吓我,其他再進一步,我都一律拒絕,即使佢失望,我都硬住心腸。315Please respect copyright.PENANAkF47bdGJ2z