而家每日跟住老闆出街,之後我都返去寫字樓,老闆返去嘅話,就陪佢一齊返,幫佢手整理吓啲文書工作,佢唔返嘅,我就自己一個返去,有嘢做就做,無嘢做就渾渾噩噩坐喺度,諗吓呢樣,諗吓嗰樣,逗留到十點幾先走,有時諗到同George嘅過去,更加控制唔住喊起上嚟。
精神同身體雖然好疲勞,但係夜晚又瞓得唔好,經常失眠,真係唔知自己為咗乜嘢而生活。
皓皓勸我見吓精神科醫生,我勉為其難去過幾次,都係俾啲安眠藥,鎮靜劑之類,對我幫助唔大,我一粒都無食。495Please respect copyright.PENANARlQTEJUUPw
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雖然寂莫枯燥,好朋友皓皓同佢新男友熱戀到如膠似漆,我唔想經常搵佢,浪費佢同男友相處嘅時間。495Please respect copyright.PENANAlSpl3RNYoy
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投緣啲嘅朋友淨係得番van仔,已經無同佢碰頭好耐,不過佢耐不耐都有聯絡我,講吓佢新相識嘅學生妹。
好幾次情緒低落,想搵佢出嚟,攬住佢痛痛快快喊一場,但係我唔希望佢知道我同George之間嘅事,又唔想俾家人知,心裡面好似有塊石壓住咁,好辛苦。
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有一晚van仔主動俾電話我,想問我攞啲資料,我先醒起過農曆年前,答應過佢過年後約佢食餐飯,而家過咗咁耐,都未兌現呢個承諾。
我已經收埋咗自己幾個月,我同自己講,唔可以一直咁頹廢落去,於是,我提起心情,約van仔食飯見面。
佢第一眼見到我就覺得我唔妥,問我發生咩事,我無講咩原因,佢亦都無追問,只係好溫柔咁講吓輕鬆話題,我唔想出聲嗰陣,佢就陪我沉默,一直都唔再提攞資料嘅事。
“你想要啲咩資料?”
佢搵我係想攞資料,總唔可以要佢成晚陪我喺度頹,臨埋單前我問佢。
“我嗰啲閑事啫,遲啲先講,你情緒對我嚟講反為重要。”
佢唔再避忌,伸手嚟拖住我,到停車場都無放開。
佢嘅關懷透過佢手掌傳遞過嚟,好溫暖,同我冰凍嘅手好大對比。
“我聽晚再陪你!”
喺我屋企停車場,佢又再捉住我隻手,只係靜靜咁陪多我十幾分鐘,然後唔容許我拒絕,再約我第二晚食飯。
我感激佢為咗陪我,連班都唔加。
第二晚食飯嗰時,我要佢講要搵啲乜嘢資料。
佢話近來清還咗大部份債項,Gigi想去日本旅行,想我俾啲意見同埋搵啲資料俾佢。495Please respect copyright.PENANAelmi5o2xrQ
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我同George都喜歡日本,俾van仔挑起返我對George嘅情懷,跟住嗰幾晚,我將同George旅行影嘅相,續張重溫。
東京、大阪、京都、青森、鹿兒島、北海道.....,佢帶我去過好多地方,尤其是京都,嗰度亦都係我同佢定情嘅地方,每一張相都勾起我一個回憶。495Please respect copyright.PENANAy2Sd2hiE5r
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過咗一個星期,我沉醉喺懷緬之中,反為一啲有關日本嘅資料都無替van仔整理過。495Please respect copyright.PENANADDmPrN5qfa
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接著嗰一個月,我同van仔食過幾次飯,每次都將佢想要嘅資料搜集俾佢,佢又將Gigi收集返嚟嘅旅行團資料,叫我幫佢做吓比較。495Please respect copyright.PENANAzcPsuZbsY1
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雖然我半句都無向佢講我近來嘅事,但係有個人可以傾下偈,有啲嘢幫佢做吓,總算可以分散吓精神,心情變得無咁沉重。495Please respect copyright.PENANAPln1KjsKMG
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擾擾攘攘咗個幾月,佢哋終於搞掂晒有關旅行嘅嘢。
仲有成三個星期先出發,Gigi已經話要執定行李,van仔又問我買咩旅行喼比較好,佢夾過價,呻氣話啲旅行喼價錢唔平。
既然係咁,我提議如果Gigi唔介意,可以借我自己嗰個俾佢哋用。
適合又可以問人借得到就借,係我去旅行一貫方針。
本來同佢聯絡少咗,大家生疏咗,因為旅行呢件事,van仔又恢復每晚signal我,每晚都係討論有關日本旅行啲嘢,尤其係溫泉,同佢講咗好多有關浸溫泉注意事項。495Please respect copyright.PENANAX8I4k84XRC
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“喂呀,你幾時嚟攞個行李喼呀?”495Please respect copyright.PENANAIJSXGvX4W9
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一日老闆唔舒服,我同佢下晝就返咗寫字樓,醒起van仔哋仲有個零星期就出發,但係佢仲懶懶閒,未嚟攞個旅行喼,於是打電話催佢。495Please respect copyright.PENANA3ARzorn1Lk
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“今晚你得唔得?我今晚無乜『痾打』,可以唔加班。”495Please respect copyright.PENANAbpOe54DemM
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我而家邊日都得閒架喇,橫掂我返咗公司,就等佢送埋貨上嚟,同佢一齊返我屋企攞。495Please respect copyright.PENANAyfGUv880ZE
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“喂呀,食唔食飯呀?”495Please respect copyright.PENANABRvEyHdluL
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van仔泊好車,我屋企人去哂旅行,得我一個,近來每次見面,van仔話要多謝我幫佢搵資料,食親飯佢都爭住俾錢,我想上去攞行李喼前,喺附近請佢食番一餐回報,順便多謝佢呢個幾月嚟,不停陪我、開解我。495Please respect copyright.PENANAedK0quFybe
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“梗係好啦,同靚女食飯!”495Please respect copyright.PENANARsgOlmc1DP
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食飯嗰時,van仔好多嘢講,成晚嘻嘻哈哈,我好耐無聽到咁開心嘅笑聲,我心情亦都好耐無好似而家咁輕鬆,自從Julie出現後,我再無見過George開心嘅時候,一直都未見過佢喺我面前開心笑過,而加van仔俾我體會番。495Please respect copyright.PENANAMMdsJBln1e
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“入嚟啦,驚呀?我屋企無人呀,哈哈!”495Please respect copyright.PENANApb2fAPTvEj
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食完飯,我帶van仔上到屋企門口,佢竟然呆晒,連手心都出埋汗,分明係好緊張。495Please respect copyright.PENANArCXzoUijIQ
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佢平日習慣咗粗粗魯魯,而家憂心緊唔知同我啲屋企人講咩野,我記得第有次帶George見我父母,佢都無好似 van仔而加咁緊張。495Please respect copyright.PENANAf5gmEJ1BYA
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van仔第一次嚟我屋企,我沖好茶招呼佢,順便帶佢四圍參觀吓。495Please respect copyright.PENANA1d8ILLuFHx
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“俾啲相你睇。”495Please respect copyright.PENANALUB7dwg1R3
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呢輪我每晚都重溫同George去旅行啲相,好直接就想介紹一吓佢想去嘅地方有咩名勝,同埋有咩好嘢食。495Please respect copyright.PENANAgnVrOSoAXJ
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我打開大阪嘅file,將儲存喺ipad,同大阪有關嘅檔案,逐個開俾佢睇。
睇完大阪,Van仔又叫我開埋其他地方啲file俾佢欣賞吓,我無乜所謂,就開俾佢睇。495Please respect copyright.PENANA4bNBJeQKPX
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點知van好眼快,佢睇到其中一個有關溫泉嘅file,我唔方便俾呢個file裡面啲相佢睇。495Please respect copyright.PENANA2LrkLBfvCa