"What's the difference between emotional Pain and physical? What's the difference between a kid who is depressed and a kid who never speaks up? what's the difference between life and death?
Can Heavy rain be calming? Can a storm be joyful? can the sunflowers be still as amazing if they never get sunlight? well, that's what happened in my dream as I was holding you, or what was left of you.
Then almost suddenly the whole dream changed, the rain was pouring down as I saw you lying helplessly on the ground with ten swords piercing in your back; I rushed to help you but the rain became overwhelmingly huge; It was flooding! and it showed no sign of stopping.
, At the bottom of the ocean, no one can hear you scream. But what if they could? Would they swim over to me or save themselves? A selfish saying might teach you to save yourself before they could drag you down with themselves.
You made me Paranoid, I could never see through you as I could see through others. I could never know what to expect, you were always a surprise.
I need someone, without someone who would patch me up after a fight. Who would tender me after everything else is gone? Without someone what am I supposed to be feeling other than emptiness? Is there a silver lining without you? Can I expect everything I was hoping for without you?
I can feel myself becoming superstitious, the continuous signs, the bad omens, the regrets I have made... The sounds I hear...
Once upon a time, I believed your smile was worth ten million grand. Now I look upon it as one of the signs I should avoid at all costs, how did we get here? How did I get here? how can I escape the curse of love? how to just stop? I wonder this every night, and might I say I am VERY surprised that all of my hair is still attached."
The folly of all follies is to be lovesick for a shadow.
- Alfred Lord Tennyson
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