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胸口的傷在經過將近一個半月的休養之後總算是好到可以下地行走的程度。只不過還不能進行劇烈運動，所以跑操場之類的體能訓練註定是與我無關了。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6aqfZQ2kK
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我回到房間的第一件事就是先大掃除。最近從樓上搬下來住到我隔壁的悟大概是聽到隔壁傳來的碰撞聲響，忍不住自己開門探頭：「在整理房間？」303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ38DWQcPx
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我說對，又隨口問他，你要來幫忙嗎？303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIAdjAggPc
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漂亮的貓貓皺了皺鼻子，大抵是考量到我剛痊癒，最後決定紆尊降貴捨下他五條少爺的身分來幫幫我。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zmvBCNv4b
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「謝謝。」我說，然後又腆著臉補了一句「有你真好啊」。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlJJt1lg70
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我原本以為這樣說他會很開心，結果他……看上去並沒有。不知道到底哪裡說錯了。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pRwWykYtM
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我沈思著將被子抱起來準備拿去丟洗衣機。轉眼間手裡一空，白髮少年抱走這些不算厚重的布料，往洗衣間的方向走去。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE1SyU9TsS
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我看著他的背影眨眨眼睛，後知後覺地意識到他其實很受用。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8FzK8m9ez
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雖然身體上的病症已經好轉大半，但是精神上的問題卻沒有任何痊癒的跡象，即使是搬回理應令人感覺安心的房間也是，反而還變得更糟。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPl1lORmhx
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閉上眼的時候，我總是會想到少年失去生氣、躺在地上血流不止的模樣；想到上一秒對我有說有笑，下一秒卻拿刀捅我的村民。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvV1m3c2rTy
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想到那個幫我掖被子說明天再來看我的人。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzvHmYu8Bl
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……想到我再也不敢打開的櫃子。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE50xEiACSv
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這已經不是第一次渾身冷汗地醒來。從旁邊隨手抓起眼鏡戴上，我走到鏡子前面仔細端詳自己。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7oFMNBwps
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皮膚和頭髮都失去光澤，眼睛寫滿厭倦，好不容易褪去的黑眼圈再度浮現，整個人瘦了一大圈，連臉頰隱約都有凹陷的趨勢。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTZIaU1tMU
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很憔悴。這一個半月以來我無法細數自己被折磨多久，精神又受到多大的打擊。我明確地知道自己的精神狀況不斷惡化，知道自己已經撐到極限了，我想說給別人聽，但我不敢說。我不能說。其他人又何嘗不是跟我一樣。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKPjbMm9hd
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二〇〇七年的夏天真難熬。我扯扯嘴角試圖擠出一個微笑，鏡中反射的人影落入眼裡，只覺得像個滑稽的小丑。303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGxLTcsKqt
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無趣。一切都無趣。這世界無聊透頂。愛不了人，不能被愛、拯救不了任何一個生命。什麼都做不到。就連最簡單的笑看起來都像在哭──如果什麼都做不到，為什麼我不去死？303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizAvcr5z0H
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我閉上眼睛將那些陰鷙的念頭全數咽下。走進浴室，微冷的水打溼全身，大腦慢慢地冷靜下來，新的疑問卻誕生了──303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlvms8PYLC
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我為什麼要當咒術師？303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCqicXiZJV
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祝大家閱讀愉快，一樣有什麼話都可以投匿名交流單！303Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJi0PGCAVcR
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