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不知道夜蛾老師跟悟怎麼跟高層周旋的，但我的學籍問題總算是順利被解決。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AyHs42nfv
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連明裡暗裡來試探我的人都沒見著，聽說才剛進高專就被悟打回去了。物理上的那種「打」。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffWi540zUG
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──這些消息都是硝子打聽來的。在完成例行性的生理檢查後，她像是想到什麼似的，問：你……打算怎麼辦？243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKi2jyROKrk
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翻身下床到一半的我停住動作。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVbwZE9Yvn
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她看著我的眼睛，說，不想當咒術師了嗎？243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmneFNgL9c8
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「硝子。」我猶豫著開口，「我不知道該不該放棄。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAP1nqDmv8T
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「為什麼不？」理所當然地反問的同時，她也彎下身軀拉近我們的距離。茶褐色的眼眸仍然注視我，就像是想探究什麼似的。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mGNmPjFmm
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我注意到她微帶倦意的神情；於是幾欲吐出的話語停留在舌尖，最後又重新咽回腹中。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmrM03ZfHE
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所有念想於此刻盡數消弭。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcUANkHEZS
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「……可能還要再想想吧。」我輕聲說。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYzE9gldnM
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「是嗎。」硝子重新直起身體，雙手插進白大褂中。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsLNSgszZc
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「反正我也只是個醫生而已。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4NNarVFRg
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她又例行性地叮囑我幾句；態度平和，一切尋常，就好像什麼也沒發生過一樣──我卻直覺似乎有哪裡不太對勁。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpPmtyh74y
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「硝子。」我叫住她。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiO2TIIah14
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即將離開醫療室的少女回頭看向我，視線於空氣中交會，表情是我見慣不驚的平淡。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluVAvNHCDP
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「你可以……抱抱我嗎？」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfczKTuCuNl
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不知道為什麼說出這七個字似乎變得很困難。以前總習慣跟她撒嬌，然而現在卻連話音都會不自覺顫抖。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWDkn1eLv1
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下一秒，熟悉的、夾帶著菸草氣味的，柔軟的身軀，緊緊地擁住我。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqB0miXGSDA
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下巴擱在我肩上，她什麼也沒說，只感受到帶著濕氣的呼息落在耳畔。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92w2coKpsq
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我想起那天她濕潤的棕色眼睛。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQe6fIQvPnA
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「你是笨蛋。」她甕聲甕氣地說。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6EzUiurls
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「對，我是。」假裝沒聽出她在哭，我好脾氣地應和。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWsIuZjvt6
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「你們都是。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90E1dStvzH
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「……他們是，我不是。」我感覺自己似乎又要喘不過氣來，只能勉強開口否認。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4vIXu7OPg
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「你前面才剛承認你是笨蛋。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5H4Ml90Yhn
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「……好吧，我是。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCewuktHKge
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於是硝子不說話了。痛苦隨著她落在我背上的撫拍而緩和；我艱難地從她的懷抱中伸出手，試著學習硝子的動作，輕輕地、拍了拍她的背。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUENRO4a3ht
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懷中看似鎮定的身體也跟著顫慄。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKj6buV25bf
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偌大的醫療室裡，只餘她小小的啜泣聲，和衣肩上暈染的濕意。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhngPMO3KpS
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硝子的情緒管理能力一向不錯，很快就止住眼淚。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TqTQN7BUY
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她沒過問我為何突然向她討抱的原因，反倒是我自己先按捺不住。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiEN7u1a2d
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「你不問嗎？」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDnvv4FWgc
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硝子盯著我幾秒之後扯扯嘴角，反正你自己會講原因。說這話的時候語氣裡還頗有幾分勝券在握的意味，一副「你看，這不就自己說了嗎？」的樣子。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjLJWcrU9t
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真是被她捏得死死的。我心情微妙。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoC5LQ1mv4
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「好吧，我只是覺得……」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ao1FWgDdv
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我只是覺得你看起來很失望，我說。感覺如果那時候真的就這樣放你離開的話，大概就要變成陌生人了。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bi6FdklhY
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她離開的背影和方向與少年重疊而合，而同樣的錯誤不能再犯第二次。我不能放她走。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlz5NdhfyX
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「──我不接受。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAXgpFZkJo
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硝子沉默幾秒，無奈地笑了笑。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZficpc38J
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「你要是對待五條也這麼坦率就好了。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAY1XVDbqW
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「欸……欸？」什麼意思？為什麼突然扯到他？243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclzzqMrxOS
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人對夢遊時做的事情不會有印象，這你清楚吧？硝子問。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTl6bBaOdj
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我點頭，疑惑地反問，「所以我夢遊的時候都做了什麼？」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPfVhXSO5y
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「是也沒什麼，都是些常見的而已。」她含糊地帶過，「不過你前陣子倒是做了件事，把五條嚇壞了。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciZC44qfTH
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……我突然有種不好的預感。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0gaqm9W0z
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「硝子，等──」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqBDtjsWqU
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「──你在夢遊的時候對著五條告白。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe69onnr0mD
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我搖搖晃晃地從病床上起身。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatzVgDHcn7
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「你幹麼？」硝子問。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGE0KzGS28
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「退學。」我要退學，就現在，立刻，馬上。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduWHviqeWX
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「可是我還沒講完。」她憋笑。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1yAcjZu0m
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「你別──」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2ajDGXPvg
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她把我按在床上坐好，強迫我繼續聽。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruOHTadFWi
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我好想逃。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlcAFWabNM
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「你抱著人家堅持不鬆手，說『好可愛的貓！』，然後準備親他臉頰──別這麼緊張啦，他頭一歪閃掉了，變成親頭髮；還有一次是抱住他，用撒嬌的語氣說『硝子──我好想你』……」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb4AvzGqzx
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她數了一堆我做過的丟臉事，最後如此總結：「你把人家嚇到現在看到你都會想跑。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIeX4p8vmh
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語氣裡倒是聽不出指控的味道，感覺更像是看好戲。我的腦袋還轉不大過來，聽見這話直接反射性問：那他幹麼不跑？243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhZbgxan3A
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……問完的時候才意識到，這種事情好像也不是他要跑，是我要離他遠點才對吧？哪有檢討受害者的道理。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa65orfXBw
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想到這裡，我站起身。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JJa5FiL8l
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「你要退學了嗎？」硝子饒有興致地問。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouq08x5Jvv
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「對──不對、不對。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNosz0oGSb
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面對她疑惑的表情，我語氣平靜地說──243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpGwBQp95p
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「我要讓自己消失在這世界上。」243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vHtx5O7pA
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是速速寫出的摸魚產物。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjZvSu1BXn
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很想大修，但是這篇已經兩萬多字了，不太好改，大概要等之後比較有空吧（還在忙考試ing）……唉再放下去都要瘋狂被芥見打臉了。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8WV1NFqtS
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總之希望這篇可以順利在今年完結（好難），可以的話還滿想印一本給自己當紀念的。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ykda84ds8
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祝閱讀愉快。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxRUKmYz6i
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240306 梔涼｜匿名交流單
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（一個後續）243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWRrM8KzHG
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問題：請問兩位現在的感想是？（高舉麥克風）243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gq0lOrvu4
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主角（臉上打馬賽克＋變聲處理）：不想活了。243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzulrKEVEs
五條悟（離線中）：（還在躲貓貓）243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEOz3Vrzqp
路過的家入硝子：沒差吧反正是夢遊啊（無情嘲笑）243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NXcMc8iPR
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夏油傑……夏油傑持續離線中。
