「Jane,你仲唔執嘢走?」Susan朝我問道。279Please respect copyright.PENANA7iIpHlnxtC
「我仲有少少手尾未搞掂,你走先。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAWAKpHtBsJY
「長命工夫長命做,聽日先做啦。難得今日有得準時放工喎!」279Please respect copyright.PENANAD86BONBnEF
「真係差少少,打埋幾隻字就得。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAoPnP1bnrXS
「save咗佢聽日先打啦。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAK3wvAIqWKQ
「我就係唔想拖到聽日呀。乖,你走先,等我搞埋佢。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAfgEnUxjugt
「OKOK,你嘅訴求就係返工,收到晒!咁我走先啦,你唔好留咁夜喇,拜拜!」279Please respect copyright.PENANA5hDj6MgS2b
「嗯,拜拜。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAWJDMd7asji
Susan拿起包包跟我道別,推開辦公室的玻璃門。看著她站在門後等待升降機的背影,我輕嘆了口氣。279Please respect copyright.PENANAz0Wh7Hq1pc
其實……根本沒有什麼未完成的工作。我只是不想在巴士站碰到Tracy,才找個藉口待在公司。279Please respect copyright.PENANAq3fqGpJ0Vo
我點開Whatsapp,重看剛才跟Tracy的對話。她今天也是在五點四十五分傳訊息給我,問我能否準時下班。看到這副無所事事地坐在辦公桌前耗時間的模樣,我給了什麼回答,相信已呼之欲出。279Please respect copyright.PENANAMqsbUGVARf
我討厭說謊的自己。我討厭對她說謊的自己。279Please respect copyright.PENANArRCFTURlia
我寧願浪費一個難得準時下班的珍貴日子,也選擇不跟她見面。279Please respect copyright.PENANAb3DYAXSD7W
我是討厭起她來了嗎?我是不想再跟她當朋友了嗎?279Please respect copyright.PENANAw3ucHgV9P7
我到底是怎麼了?279Please respect copyright.PENANA77E0d3D2c1
我討厭沒由來地躲避起來的自己。279Please respect copyright.PENANANaL5YKX8a2
然後,我更討厭……往後還會再撒另一個謊的自己。279Please respect copyright.PENANAuHQDBU4b6g
這樣子下去,只會逐漸形成一個惡性循環。279Please respect copyright.PENANA0072K1o6qw
「唉……」我再次嘆了口氣。279Please respect copyright.PENANAa9ocUL9Te6
最近,我反覆感到懊惱跟自責,內心已被弄得疲憊不堪。我不想再想下去,點開手機打發時間。279Please respect copyright.PENANA4DhI6xgiuC
站在候車隊列的最後,我莫名地感到煩躁。排隊的人很多,即使上得了車也只能站著。明明早已習慣「逼車」,今天卻不想站著回家,也不想花時間多等一班車。279Please respect copyright.PENANAUexFNW3hHU
我想……不如乾脆吃過晚飯後才回家吧。偶爾奢侈一次,去吃點好吃的東西,也許能令心情變好一點。279Please respect copyright.PENANAZLXPeG2DqF
「Jane!」打算轉身離開之際,一個女聲讓我停住了動作。279Please respect copyright.PENANACWG5IXJ31N
「Tracy……」意想不到的身影與我只差幾步之距,我驚訝地瞪大眼睛看著她走到身旁,如自言自語般小聲詫異道:「我以為你已經走咗……」279Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5dVD79JO2
「頭先臨收工收到個客電話,搞下啲文件就遲咗走。」她疲累地苦笑回道。279Please respect copyright.PENANA4J1fUmgpyp
「你公司都會有OT?少有喎。」我瞄了一下手機,還有十五分鐘就要到七點了。279Please respect copyright.PENANAVdujxYvYES
「雖然唔多,但我嗰邊間中都要OT。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAvuYyybeI2V
「但你send Whatsapp比我嗰時都已經搭九啦喎?」279Please respect copyright.PENANA4DwWMoFVh2
「對方收工前五分鐘打嚟,想死……」279Please respect copyright.PENANAQLc99ouBMx
「辛苦晒。」我同情地慰勞她道。279Please respect copyright.PENANAdvX92J8C6j
「無諗到會撞到你,早知我走之前再send多個message比你啦!」Tracy有點可惜地說。279Please respect copyright.PENANAbnBxeKClvQ
打算避而不見的人,還是出現於自己眼前。我好像被抓包般感到些許尷尬,心裡又開始內疚起來。279Please respect copyright.PENANAX3jyuUuiOu
與在內心不知所措的我相反,Tracy像平常一樣對我微笑。她突然像是想起了什麼似的,從包包裡拿出一個小東西,放在掌心遞到我面前。279Please respect copyright.PENANARfGlc72O2r
「Jane,請你食。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAOs7m4vr0O7
握在手中的是一個透明包裝袋,裡面放著一顆肉球造型的巧克力。我好奇問道:「塊朱古力咁得意嘅?」279Please respect copyright.PENANAjDkgVQljfF
「係呀,我今日買零食時見到佢,見幾得意就買咗包試下。我覺得幾好食,你都試下吖。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAewYVlNRZ8Q
「多謝。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAtlgLeS4ZJN
「我比多幾個你。」見我收下巧克力,她又從包包裡多拿了幾個給我。279Please respect copyright.PENANAUZNbzn5TqR
「唔使啦,你留返自己食啦。」我不好意思地婉拒道。279Please respect copyright.PENANAsnOYjDzxxN
「嘻嘻,你同我又會咁啱喺我今日有嘢食嘅時候撞到,佢哋係整定要比你食㗎啦!」279Please respect copyright.PENANA548OK5v9ef
「你比咁多我,你咪無晒?」279Please respect copyright.PENANApV4Tw7WFtj
「包嘢好大包,入面仲有好多!」279Please respect copyright.PENANATs8RdDVcG7
「好……多謝你。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAjJrkIJV0VA
我敵不過她,只好以雙手接過巧克力。看著我把它們放進包包裡的模樣,Tracy有點謹慎地說:「同埋……最近見你好似心事重重咁,你就當係……我對你嘅打氣。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAovbfVhhOZO
女孩真摯地看著我,雙眼毫無保留地展露對我的關心。胸口感到一陣刺痛,我故意低頭不看她。「嗯……多謝。」279Please respect copyright.PENANAJuLjHDq3Lq
我們彼此沒再說話,各自低頭滑手機。心裡明白她是在顧慮這邊的心情,但不自然的沉默同時讓我感到些許不自在。此時,前方傳來一陣引擎起動的聲音,停靠在車站旁的巴士亮起了燈,候車隊列慢慢往前移動。279Please respect copyright.PENANAtkkMDtglVJ
這情景讓我想起原本的目的。對,我是打算要去吃晚飯的!我抓緊這個可以逃離的機會,有些急切地說道:「Tracy,咁我走先啦。」279Please respect copyright.PENANABJrd3ezfLh
「咦?你唔係等車返屋企嘅咩?」對方訝異地問道。279Please respect copyright.PENANAfDXhlKwQlA
「呀……我突然諗起有啲嘢要做。下次見,拜拜。」我轉過身,沒等對方回答,如逃般的離開了巴士站。279Please respect copyright.PENANAu9OIyA4Rtw
走了一會,我漸漸放慢腳步。冷靜下來,我為自己剛才的行為感到非常後悔。279Please respect copyright.PENANAKfbe50pUAL
我認為,我已經把我們困在一個惡性循環裡。279Please respect copyright.PENANAvePQNyEL2E
其實我是很高興她關心我的。然而,與內在感情相反,我無法坦率地接受她的好意。279Please respect copyright.PENANAgjxmIvUpwn
她一看我,我就不由自主地想要躲開。279Please respect copyright.PENANALOvXJ2DcgX
那雙直白的眼眸,耀眼得讓人無法直視。279Please respect copyright.PENANA253Y8npUGW
最近的我,到底是怎麼了?279Please respect copyright.PENANArBYZ5elrX7
明明想要她關注我,卻又害怕對方踏進自己的內心。279Please respect copyright.PENANAbK0ENaUOVv
結果,我又逃了。279Please respect copyright.PENANAbenInXnbub
哪怕這樣可能會讓她誤會。279Please respect copyright.PENANAodNwniuFRE
我到底是得了什麼毛病了?279Please respect copyright.PENANASh1LdPXbFT
「戀愛真係好難!!!」279Please respect copyright.PENANAOqWkf40ycQ
一個悲切的聲音響徹腦海,我感同身受地點頭道:279Please respect copyright.PENANA9QZQd7A00C
「係……戀愛真係好難……」279Please respect copyright.PENANAUPKM3nZl1F
「點解我嘅真命天子仲未出現——」279Please respect copyright.PENANAGnh6m9lvG1
「有都唔一定係好事嚟㗎……」279Please respect copyright.PENANAvkMTlBgzoH
「Jane,你而家個男朋友係點識㗎?可唔可以指點下細嘅?」279Please respect copyright.PENANATAAytQOfb2
奇怪。為什麼腦海會響起一些自己沒在想的事?279Please respect copyright.PENANAE3DM1o8nkY
「Jane?Jane——」279Please respect copyright.PENANALwKbbxYLTh
它還有自我意識在叫我啊?是不是最近壓力太大,終於弄出個病來了?279Please respect copyright.PENANAmkCRc3T9vA
「Jane!!!你有無聽我講嘢!!!」279Please respect copyright.PENANANhoPlwaW8O
「嘩!」腦海裡的聲音突然大喝一聲,把我整個人都嚇得跳了起來。猛地回過神來,坐在對面的Susan正一臉不滿地盯著我。279Please respect copyright.PENANA3d0iAtOhBq