「咁我都知...」佢嘅意思，即係暗示已經從阿柔嘅口中得悉阿南嘅取向，無疑對我嚟講係一個更大嘅打撃。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwskqRxmY74
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「當上一課啦，知道自己有幾唔成熟。」阿雄拍一拍我講。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTHSTFNJzq
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「唔緊，有我陪你，一齊單身，笑死呢兩個女友奴。」洛賓指住阿雄同阿星答。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLP2qfLvF1
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「嗤，我想俾你笑埋一份多啲。」我苦笑，但其實內心係充滿感激。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwIZBSys8P
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「死啦你。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmZHagkmgi
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嗯，完了吧，如無意外。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1mU7GXvyC
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冇可能。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoODV2T2zAh
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雖然一切回到中一，大家唔再有交集嘅階段。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtEsS0Crho
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但發生咗嘅事，又點會可以咁易唔記得？只要喺見到佢嘅地方，我嘅視線仍然離唔開佢，一直期待，大家可以對上一眼。如果真係好似佢所講，以前佢成日咁樣望住我，唔知佢果陣有咩感覺？
幸好嘅係，佢真係好快就變返以前咁活潑、開朗，臉上亦重現返果個好令人心暖嘅笑容。只係，我已經失去擁有呢個笑容嘅權利。不過咁都好，證明佢可以重新生活。唔會再拘泥於同我過去嘅難堪回憶。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8FcQODldW
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「喇，暑假之後大家就要認認真真讀書喇，要好好準備公開試。」喺中五最後一日返學，Miss Lam好語重心長咁講。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLzidIUAOq
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本來以為中五可以好轟轟烈烈咁過，令自己中學生涯變得無憾。本來以為會有一場好難忘嘅戀愛，令自己嘅人生有一個新嘅體驗。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOFpZk4Fkj
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點知去到最後，都係變返好似當初咁渾噩，咁得過且過。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DmEYo82Rf
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「溫書喇，想裸考就算？」阿月問。我哋依然保持住喺圖書館睇書嘅習慣。以前真係睇書，但而家，係因為望出窗外，正正就係手球隊練習嘅地方，咁就可以望多阿南一陣，望住佢好努力咁為球隊打氣、管理。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpYi5LrsfL
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「考唔考得好都係差唔多姐，溫嚟做乜？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SGYA3DGa3
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「你咁樣積積埋埋到公開試就好辛苦喇。」
「到時就會溫㗎啦。」我依然望住窗外，心不在焉咁答。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJWkA9GcaJ
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「你有冇諗過大學揀咩科？」阿月問。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyP1huTsObf
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「冇喎。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKChn4vn3e
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「咁Jupas 呢？填咗咩？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn32fcCgJLC
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「求其揀咗幾科穩入嘅科。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLM4dfe9GIf
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「你點解要咁樣放棄自己姐？明明你嘅成績都可以入好多幾好嘅科。」聽到我咁散漫咁答，佢沉唔住氣咁問。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFLNtQT5Rf
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「讀完咪又係出嚟做社畜，攞到張沙紙就夠啦。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoou8TGjP3Q
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至於做作家，我覺得已經失去咗寫好一篇文章嘅靈魂，寫唔倒好嘅文章，仲有咩意思。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP26WM2ueiO
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「你講大話！明明就係因為冇咗阿南而唔肯努力。」佢篤爆咗我。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YxaicVFck
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「痴線，佢影響力冇咁大。」我否認。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21LoYs2a9G
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「既然你心入面冇佢，咁你可唔可以當為咗我而上進啲啊？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtSLromkHq
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「不如咁講，你可唔可以為咗我而唔好再理我？」我反問。
「唔得！」佢好堅決咁答。「除非令你愛上我！」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9xzMn05eJ
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「更加冇可能。」我回應。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1mkSdy70j
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雖然佢喺我身邊嘅日子，見住佢為我嘅消極而灰心，用盡所有方法去支撐住我，有陣時真係會令我有一啲觸動。但我知道，一日忘記唔倒阿南，阿月都只會係阿南嘅替代品，我都冇辦法可以百分之百將自己投入喺對阿月嘅感情上。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCKvL3IZpU
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為咗令佢嘅熱情冷卻，有時我更加好絕情咁對待佢，就好似對初相識嘅阿南咁。但或者有人喺我身邊煩一煩，先提醒倒自己其實仍然生存緊。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTZjmne9Ns
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「我唔會放棄。」佢抿一抿唇，然後好堅決咁講。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjootVNoyri
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「你鍾意喇。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2fvpFfkx9
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呢個就係點解我同阿南最後都冇一齊，而且仲要喺訂婚Party上受到千夫所指嘅原因。唔係我唔想令阿南清楚我嘅心意，而係一切就好似一個蝴蝶效應咁，當中其實有好多「有彎轉」嘅機會，譬如如果可以平心靜氣咁同阿南解釋清楚，甚至再退多步喺聖誕晚會唔同阿月單獨傾偈，或者都會引領到去一個好啲嘅結局。但就俾我一手將統統能夠改變局面嘅機會破壞曬。
