「咁我都知...」佢嘅意思,即係暗示已經從阿柔嘅口中得悉阿南嘅取向,無疑對我嚟講係一個更大嘅打撃。172Please respect copyright.PENANAeqwkas2OGT
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「當上一課啦,知道自己有幾唔成熟。」阿雄拍一拍我講。172Please respect copyright.PENANA29L9rHiBBB
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「唔緊,有我陪你,一齊單身,笑死呢兩個女友奴。」洛賓指住阿雄同阿星答。172Please respect copyright.PENANAgZcNKro8oc
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「嗤,我想俾你笑埋一份多啲。」我苦笑,但其實內心係充滿感激。172Please respect copyright.PENANAOR364ekcX8
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「死啦你。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAFDRLGayi0P
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嗯,完了吧,如無意外。172Please respect copyright.PENANAxwAoHDUPPo
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冇可能。172Please respect copyright.PENANAGXle3pL5fI
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雖然一切回到中一,大家唔再有交集嘅階段。172Please respect copyright.PENANAQ25ETygTy0
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但發生咗嘅事,又點會可以咁易唔記得?只要喺見到佢嘅地方,我嘅視線仍然離唔開佢,一直期待,大家可以對上一眼。如果真係好似佢所講,以前佢成日咁樣望住我,唔知佢果陣有咩感覺?
幸好嘅係,佢真係好快就變返以前咁活潑、開朗,臉上亦重現返果個好令人心暖嘅笑容。只係,我已經失去擁有呢個笑容嘅權利。不過咁都好,證明佢可以重新生活。唔會再拘泥於同我過去嘅難堪回憶。172Please respect copyright.PENANAX0nhj78Jk8
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「喇,暑假之後大家就要認認真真讀書喇,要好好準備公開試。」喺中五最後一日返學,Miss Lam好語重心長咁講。172Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ng2Kk0hVV
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本來以為中五可以好轟轟烈烈咁過,令自己中學生涯變得無憾。本來以為會有一場好難忘嘅戀愛,令自己嘅人生有一個新嘅體驗。172Please respect copyright.PENANA2Zhp1pleF9
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點知去到最後,都係變返好似當初咁渾噩,咁得過且過。172Please respect copyright.PENANAwlOry4quNi
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「溫書喇,想裸考就算?」阿月問。我哋依然保持住喺圖書館睇書嘅習慣。以前真係睇書,但而家,係因為望出窗外,正正就係手球隊練習嘅地方,咁就可以望多阿南一陣,望住佢好努力咁為球隊打氣、管理。172Please respect copyright.PENANAf89eWzyq4n
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「考唔考得好都係差唔多姐,溫嚟做乜?」172Please respect copyright.PENANAWKpR2tcCAJ
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「你咁樣積積埋埋到公開試就好辛苦喇。」
「到時就會溫㗎啦。」我依然望住窗外,心不在焉咁答。172Please respect copyright.PENANALgv8A2Y6Q6
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「你有冇諗過大學揀咩科?」阿月問。172Please respect copyright.PENANAWW6NQzd5pL
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「冇喎。」172Please respect copyright.PENANA3v7lUDodEq
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「咁Jupas 呢?填咗咩?」172Please respect copyright.PENANATD3epWYSvV
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「求其揀咗幾科穩入嘅科。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAKNQKaeKoB3
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「你點解要咁樣放棄自己姐?明明你嘅成績都可以入好多幾好嘅科。」聽到我咁散漫咁答,佢沉唔住氣咁問。172Please respect copyright.PENANASg4hcrjvgJ
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「讀完咪又係出嚟做社畜,攞到張沙紙就夠啦。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAXDgCpPIhJR
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至於做作家,我覺得已經失去咗寫好一篇文章嘅靈魂,寫唔倒好嘅文章,仲有咩意思。172Please respect copyright.PENANAV9T7irJip3
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「你講大話!明明就係因為冇咗阿南而唔肯努力。」佢篤爆咗我。172Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6CAICxaMB
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「痴線,佢影響力冇咁大。」我否認。172Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4Lzb5CTpX
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「既然你心入面冇佢,咁你可唔可以當為咗我而上進啲啊?」172Please respect copyright.PENANAEGNUOIN5ew
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「不如咁講,你可唔可以為咗我而唔好再理我?」我反問。
「唔得!」佢好堅決咁答。「除非令你愛上我!」172Please respect copyright.PENANA2dvB4gaYoq
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「更加冇可能。」我回應。172Please respect copyright.PENANA0r0sslZ21P
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雖然佢喺我身邊嘅日子,見住佢為我嘅消極而灰心,用盡所有方法去支撐住我,有陣時真係會令我有一啲觸動。但我知道,一日忘記唔倒阿南,阿月都只會係阿南嘅替代品,我都冇辦法可以百分之百將自己投入喺對阿月嘅感情上。172Please respect copyright.PENANACHVJKI4wpI
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為咗令佢嘅熱情冷卻,有時我更加好絕情咁對待佢,就好似對初相識嘅阿南咁。但或者有人喺我身邊煩一煩,先提醒倒自己其實仍然生存緊。172Please respect copyright.PENANAIEsbzwUiWw
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「我唔會放棄。」佢抿一抿唇,然後好堅決咁講。172Please respect copyright.PENANAgZ5KpGzL1D
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「你鍾意喇。」172Please respect copyright.PENANADIZtAHn26N
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呢個就係點解我同阿南最後都冇一齊,而且仲要喺訂婚Party上受到千夫所指嘅原因。唔係我唔想令阿南清楚我嘅心意,而係一切就好似一個蝴蝶效應咁,當中其實有好多「有彎轉」嘅機會,譬如如果可以平心靜氣咁同阿南解釋清楚,甚至再退多步喺聖誕晚會唔同阿月單獨傾偈,或者都會引領到去一個好啲嘅結局。但就俾我一手將統統能夠改變局面嘅機會破壞曬。