With the grace of god, I have not been dreaming about Amor being my new professor. He was actually the professor of the subject I hate the most.
I think I can make my parents proud with the feeling of starting to like the subject (just because of him).
“Should I drop you home?” A dull voice came from behind.
“Ah! Phoebus. I am so sorry, I uh…I got lost somehow. I really needed to apologise to you for the morning and also for everything which has hurt you because of me till now. I didn't actually realise that, so stupid of me. I am really sorry. ” I held both of my hands together, begging him to exempt me.
He kept staring at me and asked, “Should I drop you home?”
I nodded without any hesitation. Maybe I could apologise to him on the way again.
I told him the way and tried to have a friendly conversation but he didn't say anything other than
“We reached your home.”
“Phoebus, I am really sorry. I mean it, really. I can do anything to make it up for you.” I gave him an apologetic look.
I waited but did not get any response from him. I opened the door and turned back, slightly smiled and said, “I know things did not go well today but I wanted to say something to you before our classes. We can start our group study from tomorrow at my home an hour after classes. Only if you do not have any problem.”
I went straight home without looking back because that was not the thing I planned to tell him this morning. Things got so destructive that I got scared maybe for Bella or him, don't know. All of this happened because of that new professor. He is some different creature, giving some kind of electricity flow throughout the body.
Phoebus acted differently today and he even called me his girlfriend, that's weird someone might tell that to Bella. What will she think? Was he jealous of me? Like, he never acted like that before and suddenly gripped his arm around me to make me feel protective.
I guess I am just overthinking, he did that because he is a friend of mine and that's what friends do when they feel another one is in danger and he felt that for me. He has actually always been kind to me. I am such a stupid person. I feel miserable for treating him like that.
Hope that he accepts my proposal for our group study, not because I can't accept no as an answer but because I actually want to make him feel I also want to be his friend(about which I am not even sure).
My family is good at distracting me from my thoughts mainly because they never learnt to knock the door and also we talk like loud speakers, much louder than the dog next door throughout the night.
Alena came in and directy laid on my bed. I was still standing looking at her and already knowing her reason for being in my room. She must have walked the whole day, waiting for me to come back home and tell her everything about my day in college and mainly about my talk with Phoebus. I was not wrong, she actually asked me about that but I did not know how to tell her about me accepting his proposal instead of declining him, as discussed earlier today.
I gave an apologetic look to her because I knew she would go nuts after listening to this. She understood.
“How silly can you be Daphne? I told you this morning only. I know you never follow my suggestion but literally I am stupid that I thought this time you would listen to me.” her increased voice invited our mother into the room.
“What the hell is happening here?” Mother angrily asked.
Alena told her everything as I thought she would do it one day but this was not expected so soon from her. All I could think was running away from my home until they forgot everything about me and Phoebus.
My mother glowered at me for a few minutes and said that she could not believe that I hid such information from her.
But I needed a comeback. I needed to make them feel that they can trust me for once at least.
I started confronting her by saying that Alena told me about her hiding half of the story of my grandparents. I needed to take revenge from Alena, I cannot let her go as it is.
“That is stupid. You and your grandmother are different. You cannot change the topic like this Daphne and you Alena, this was not expected from you.” My mother started yelling at us.
“Nothing is different ma! You hide something from me, I hide something from you. This might make no sense to you because I am younger than you but it does to me. Since Alena told you everything already I do not care what you all think because she has betrayed me as well as you because we thought that she would never disclose our secrets.” I straight away said everything that was inside my mind at that time.
Mother sat down in sorrow and I suddenly felt bad for her. I apologised for my behaviour with her.
She said that she never wanted to hide anything from me but was saving me from that dark side which she faced in her life after knowing the reality of her mother’s story. She reminded me that the other day I asked her about the boy for whom she ran away.
“He was not your grandpa. Though he was my father, my real father. I hate him. I wish he was not my father, I wish. Granny ran for the man who left her pregnant at a very young age. She had no shelter. Her parents did not allow her into their home and that man ran away as soon as he got to know that she was pregnant with me. Your grandpa came for her rescue. He gave her shelter to live in and married her without any question. With the Lord's will, they are happily together.” she started crying.
We both hugged our mother tightly, giving her strength like she always does to us.
I told them everything about the things that happened in the college and made them feel that I would never do anything that would hurt them.
“I trust you both. It's just I do not want you all to be hurt by such a cruel world. You need to be careful.” mother patted our back and left the room slowly.
As she shut the door behind her, I gave a deathly glance at Alena and she did the same so we felt that we were even. We just realised that we are not that kind of siblings who will keep each other’s secrets our whole life.
I just hope that Phoebus accepts my proposal. It feels like tables have turned. Initially, he was waiting for me to accept his proposal and now I am doing the same.
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Next day I went to search for Phoebus but he was nowhere to be found. Suddenly I bumped into Amor. I gulped and looked at him with wide shocked eyes. I said, “I am so sorry, sir. It's my fault, I did not see you coming.”
He smiled at me and said that it was not my fault alone, it's always the fault from both sides and also that he did not want me to call him sir.
He is literally something else. He seems to play with people’s minds but I really need to not let him distract me. I need to find Phoebus.
“Are you searching for someone?” he asked.
I hesitated a bit and then slightly nodded.
“I can help you. Oh are you searching for your boyfriend?”.
“You have a boyfriend?” An excited voice stopped me from saying anything.
“Bella!! Oh god. Bella, I missed you so much.” I hugged her tightly.
I introduced both of them and dragged her out of his reach to avoid any kind complications.
“Daph, there are so many things I have missed. I want to know everything from you, everything. I know you must have felt lonely without me.” We laughed a lot together.
I knew that I had to tell lots of things but I should not, it's all between her boyfriend and her best friend. I tried postponing about the weeks she has not been here with me, listening to my miseries.
“I really do not want to make you sad with my miseries bestie. At least not right now.” I said making her feel that we need to avoid all sadness just because she has finally returned.
After so long I actually enjoyed, so did she. At the end of day I felt awkward asking about her boyfriend. I actually had nothing to do with him, still I needed to find him. I realised that I asked her so low that she didn't even realise I asked her something. That was kind of a relief, I can find him. I dropped Bella home and started walking towards my home
Going inside, with a blank expression, I saw Phoebus having dinner with my family.
“Daph! See your friend here.” Alena came running towards me and hugged tightly.
“What is he doing here?” I asked her in a low voice, hugging her back.
“He wanted to ask you something about studies but you were not home. Ma had a whole interview session.”
I was happy to hear that but he must have had a tough time talking to my mother for so long. I went near him.
“Hi, she told me that you wanted to know something from me. What's that?” I asked with a smile.
He replied, “Yeah, not exactly what I wanted to ask but I wanted to tell you we can study together from tomorrow.”
I felt light listening to him. He was not around me the whole day.
I smiled and nodded with surety. We had dinner and lots of laughter, as per my observation. I stopped my mother from going out with us.
“You did not come to college today.” I eagerly asked him.
“Oh yeah.. Actually I was not feeling well in the morning and neither did I have your number so I thought I could just talk to you directly here.”
“Sorry for that. Really. It must have been hard for you to talk with my mother for so long. She is too interrogative sometimes.”
We laughed a bit.
“Your mom is fun actually. I liked her. And you know what? We have the same hometown! That was a very interesting thing and common between us.” he said it with a wide smile.
He was really from my mother’s hometown. God! Her will must have been keeping him forever with her.
“Thats….that's interesting. One would have never thought about it.” I said in an unagreeable state.
After a few silent minutes of looking at each other, I said that he is always welcome in my home. I hope I was not sounding wrong at that moment.
He smiled and left.
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Going back inside I found my mother excited and happy like I never saw her in years. I could not understand the reason behind it.
Oh yeah, he’s from her hometown.
“Daphne, for the first time in my life I think you have made some good decisions.” Mother held both of my shoulders.
“What?” I asked her in an astounding way.
“Being friends with him. He is fabulous. I loved him. Call him always for studying with you at home only. I would love to have him at home.” She replied.
It was hard to believe my mother saying those things about someone, she has not even praised dad in years but he neither did it. I think both of them make a great pair. Even though they do not put it in words, they praise each other or show that they are thankful by giving some surprises or gifts. I just love their way of showing love to each other. Sometimes me and Alena think about having the same kind of relationship with someone but trying to get that one since past few years has made me feel that no, my father is unique and so is my mother.
“You know, you are old enough to marry him too. If you want I can ask his parents. Call them too.” She continued.
“Ma! What are you even saying? Firstly, I told you he is my friend’s boyfriend. Secondly, you just met him. You can't fix me with someone you barely know or I barely know. I think you need some rest. Dad please tell her something, you are too silent.” I got vexed as my mother started talking about my marriage with him.
“Daphne, my dear, in my whole years of marriage it's the first time I have seen your mother praising one of your friends. She never even glorified Bella for being your only constant friend since childhood.” Dad was definitely stating facts but at the wrong time.
Alena was really enjoying everything. She was standing behind the sofa, giggling.
I gazed at the faces of my three treasured people who, not for the first time, were trying to make me burst out by going against me altogether.
I am not gonna let that happen. I straight away went into my room, thinking deeply.
I could not get over the words my parents told me the whole night. I do understand he is a kind person but the thing about marriage, do they really mean it? I hope they don’t but even if they do, it's not bad at all. I love that thought.
Considering that he must have a crush on me too,like Alena once said, will he ever accept my marriage proposal?
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