I sip my last bit of my beautiful, soothing HOT GREEN TEA whilst sitting at the dining room table; and then I hear the door knocking… ahh… my beautiful boyfriend has come home… ahh..
I smile as I call his name:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznoOGfngNK
“Babe… babe JESSE. I miss NANCY am waiting for you… how was work?”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHb9ei7QrXJ
He doesn’t respond… oh oh… I am worried…. Why isn’t… why isn’t my babe responding?? I start to fret and call again to make sure he’s alright…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZv9CVxoxI
“BABE… JESSE. Are you okay? Are you?”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78XBIbfe50
He finally responds; with a heavy-handed angered voice as he arrives at the kitchen; slamming the table in my face79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx0Hru2cA0
“NO… NO..”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCroropRmzw
It was a loud NO… oh no. He’s had a bad day… I mean of course he has had a bad day… oh no… I am concerned. I speak:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW53sKvC6VJ
“Oh no… JESSE… what happened? What…?”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiyS7BB9Vz
He paces the floor and doesn’t respond… I start to worry… I mean… I haven’t known the man long; we’re pregnant and he is fully embracing his anger… ahh…. Ah. I remain calm and question him:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaw8PnVkTfA
“JESSE… was it work? Was it…?” He responds with anger; “Of course is WAS… WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I CAME BACK from you GOOSE?”
I feel utterly shamed and disgusted in him calling me a goose… a goose of all things. I call him PRINCE CHARMING… he’s Called me CINDERELLA; and now I am a fuckin goose.. I am annoyed… Why don’t you just call me the FUCKIN UGLY DUCKING…?
I sense my anger and I don’t like it. I breathe as I try to stay calm. It’s okay NANCY… it’s okay… he’s just having a bad day.. my anger resurfaces inside once again… how dare he call me a GOOSE…. I am pregnant; my stomach hurts like a FUCKIN HELLHOLE; and he dares call me a GOOSE… no.. NO..
I stay calm.. I must stay calm… as it can’t be good for the baby. I look at the upset JESSe; and correct him over his manners…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHk60YEdUh
“JESSE… that wasn’t really nice… I asked how you were and you called me a GOOSE… I was genuinely concerned about you… I didn’t need the vile insult…”
HE continues pacing the floor and doesn’t respond… not even an apology… I get really annoyed and speak up:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SgC8E1wJs
“JESSE… JESSE… what the FUCK? Do not ignore me…”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5ZU4BVaaq
He lashes back:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieDg5lvdGx
‘HAVE YOU BEEN WORKING ON YOUR STORY YET? I need to quit this job… the people.. the people are so unbearable there.. I can’t work there much longer… please tell me you have been working on it…?”
I am shocked by his sudden aggressiveness… I remain calm so I can remain composure. I speak to him:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmB2kiGPzHX
“Yes JESSE.. but please calm down.. I have been working on my story.”
I see JESSE start to calm down…. Now I know how the man reacts in such a nervous breakdown… I try not to get offended and overwhelmed by his sudden aggressiveness; and keep calm. But I remain inquisitive into what has upset him. I question him;79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvee5QNNMsw
“JESSE… what happened at work? What people were annoying you?’79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGS3gvH5CjR
I see him breathe and start to calm down. He looks at me; his eyes look at me with pure love. The nervousness of JESSE has disappeared and vanished from my eyes. He responds:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxVCrwVz6Z
“Just the MANAGER is a real fucking BITCH…. She is as bossy as everything…”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuO2f52Uti4
He starts acting out and mimicking the boss; quite well may I add. He continues:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3u0zdwjjZ
“This is just what happens when you ain’t the boss; with which is why I need to quit…”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNll4zhQUsu
He continues to speak like he is begging me:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5AGBbXTdX
“Please NANCY… this story needs to be written….. it needs to be written so I can work on my art journey… my art career… I need to do the very thing that I was put on this planet to do..”
I see his desperation so well through him… he wants to quit this job so bad… I don’t blame him…. He wants to quit so much… but I have to be serious..
I mean I can write this killer story; but I always must keep in mind there is always that stance and that sad thought that it may not be a killer story.. I mean I can continue to hope; but there is always that thought beating my mind… BUT..
But I have to be strong for him… I have to be strong for JESSE… I can sense how much this job is killing him; with which means I must work harder. I speak to him:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NZQmy12H2
“Okay… okay JESSE… I will work harder… I promise you…. I will work in this story and I will try my utmost best to make this story a killer story. For us.. for our baby…, and for your art-millionaire job… I promise…?”
He smiles and appears more calmer. I breathe at his calmness and he bends down to me. It looks as if he want to apologise to me…. He speaks;79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CFPCnOgPE
‘I am sorry NANCY… I am so sorry.. it’s just the stress… sometimes the stress in a job gets to me… I just.. I mean… I couldn’t handle corporate high-life office stress… I just couldn’t…”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzI2E2dRs6f
He puts his head down on my thighs; I pat his hair. He speaks with his head down:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvt4d5VXF3
“I know you will write this killer story with which will kickstart your career and my career… and things will be so much better for us…. I assure you that….”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUS9R2AV8Iq
He looks back up at me. We both exchange smiles…
I look at him with positivity; though the fear of the story not doing well; or not being a killer story gets to me. I ignore my haunting, depressing thought and I remain positive. I speak to my handsome man:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TfSDIvc48
“Thanks for believing in me babe… and yes… I can’t wait to you become the next LEONARDO DAVINCI… I can not wait to that day… it is going to be so exciting…”
He smiles with love. It makes me smile to see him so happy. He speaks:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXlYDuTlmy
“I think you and I just need to watch a movie. I mean I need a movie; to calm the nervous tension in my brain..”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpmuqIdD2j
I smile in agreement and respond:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8uA19gkFJ
“Yes… yes… I think we do need a movie. A comedy flix to be certain…. Let’s watch…”79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVl268tzVr8
I smile as he helps me to our sofa. I watch as he turns the TV on; following a great comedy flix movie on.
He returns to the sofa; and cuddles me in his warm arms. I smile as I fall asleep in his arms…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsDzTuxA5a
