I'm a horrible person.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SJkkwHc5L
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5d9UBo2D3
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkmuMsnFKy
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7oXsbqOyY
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDx8CoU7rMK
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9VSMVJOjy
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHliK65kSa2
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8EaloIz7e
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4ZxLan73v
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PnpgEpmYj
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7e0ZUcPQs
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhNHw1CAgQ
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkG30BtEDUH
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqvUUrKGie
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8IfQ7catv
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8wVA5aUGT
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsv5Umje4Hc
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WJmN2Vhl7
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Q2tQKPZbO
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2wTsusOxe
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgBf1YnKP3
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6LYkm9vUj
Of being lonely.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgckQ3iqJv
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlB1a8R9TE
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So I take comfort in my own world.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZ8wmAjW5j
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspRSBmyBkO
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwQeVCw65s
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4ARMlxqhf
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmh4lODmCd
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLdnZle4US
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVeKImHtZN
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRui1glExh
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnADxLuUp8U
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ggxBTbOof
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCNVhz3QEd
I shouldn't even have been born.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQy9o4c038b
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.317Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxaZWDFBMo
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