I'm a horrible person.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiePGdBFifi
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY667xLGGoC
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIzia6cAxI
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdE4WZNXnE
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnTcBY2llW
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBRWWxDUxq
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChJnZZtm0N
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lWcPwkM2j
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7fJZTZlHK
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV09BgKpKg2
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YEcpEOg8r
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vhqM0qG7Y
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ilV9z3LWC
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAICHtpa296
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoaQKZFsE4
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjmgbNA9Fl
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3XJnsbY7g
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvaO88XwEe
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmJRi2Tkkn
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9Br7j0M2l
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96MeMk7SMc
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptKfvAku6C
Of being lonely.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDGhOTpA3j
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudLLOKpDZA
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So I take comfort in my own world.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Aoh3daFAi
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZBrjk8n30
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIIQwl0J6A
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNpHuya0sL
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZXc7c59r6
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNuBicf8dd
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOsuQhBESp
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXdR77dDTI
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOegmSJdFW1
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iRR9mWv0A
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bK2e0dYhz
I shouldn't even have been born.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUGet6msQP
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1mdImSQEO
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