近來回到小學,看見越來越多舊人,踏足在矮小的樓梯,都使她不斷想起過去。畢業後沒有再行過這種高度的樓梯,成年人而言頗為矮小的她可以一步踩兩級。231Please respect copyright.PENANAjgtGnFUxvS
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所有事都湧現,直至她感到自己的頭腦已經滿溢,無法再裝載。231Please respect copyright.PENANAdBL6ejdQhn
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與第一次在學留守功課輔導班的拘緊不同——同學們的拘束,他們已見慣見熟林蓁,開始不守規矩——她倒是不介意他們有點不守規矩,畢竟,已上了全日學的學生,注意力有限,何況他們都在兒童期,「守規矩」如此需要後天約束的事,本就不易做到。231Please respect copyright.PENANAjytW14vuhG
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她只是會悠悠地請學生們:就算聊天,手也不要停止寫作。231Please respect copyright.PENANAhmv2M36LIj
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初時,他們如果遇到不懂的功課題目,只會坐在座位上發呆,或是問附近的同學;現在,他們會舉手,大聲叫喚:「Miss!」無論簡單或艱澀,通通發問。這也許代表她已不會令人感到陌生了。231Please respect copyright.PENANAiEeB76S7tX
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漸漸,學生之間的聊天聲音越來越大,連她也可以加入對話。231Please respect copyright.PENANALN0HfW79qd
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一個半小時過去,順利結束。231Please respect copyright.PENANAnJRGUaaoY3
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林蓁回家,便將洗手間的燈膽換上——231Please respect copyright.PENANAd2QDYd0Bep
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那是前天父親著她「明天去換」的燈膽,可是昨夜她在周立沖處留宿。231Please respect copyright.PENANApHlA7OkZos
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應是是錯覺,換了新燈泡,便覺得家裡明亮了許多,比起以前用舊燈泡時更甚。因此,牆身的壁癌便被光襯得更清晰,霉霉綠綠,硬誇上些美感便說那是如雲如霧。也許是抽氣扇不夠強勁的緣故,所以無法及時將濕氣抽走,然後形成了一股無法散去的霉氣。然後,如影如形,一直存在牆壁上,成為家裡最大皮膚的一份子,班駁得很。231Please respect copyright.PENANA8JK10Tq3aH
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父親罵罵咧咧:「做咩琴晚唔返嚟?」231Please respect copyright.PENANAFS0IOMOacS
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她不應。231Please respect copyright.PENANA5a7Hty8RmU
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「明明叫咗你琴日就買嚟換,而家先做!廁所無燈好危險㗎,你知唔知?」231Please respect copyright.PENANA4U9SbwcRZW
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她不應。231Please respect copyright.PENANA9PK6zGbXeZ
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「喂!又唔出聲,叫你做少少嘢都唔得咩?」231Please respect copyright.PENANAIbzMzKk749
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她不應。231Please respect copyright.PENANAqGAZzDNzT4
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「我係你老竇嚟!關心吓你琴日唔返嚟咋嘛!你唔高興咩?」231Please respect copyright.PENANA3K8MAgFTI1
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她終於應:「我成日都唔返嚟㗎啦。」231Please respect copyright.PENANAES3CJLAWpH
他沉默。231Please respect copyright.PENANAl1ldaYQNSd
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家裡常常沉默,沉默確實也是林蓁心中家的常態。只是近年,父親說多了好多話,他會說話開口發問、要求、索取,然後,要求他人回應,如果不應他,便會說說說直至她覺得煩。要是以前,他只管一次過說好多話,完全不求他人應,反正他不介意別人怎看。近年是介意了,或是希望有人和他說話聊天交流了,不願再自說自話,才會不停說些問題或內容,直到人家回應。231Please respect copyright.PENANAjwrwu16Xzd
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林蓁通常是為了讓他不要再說,才開口回應。231Please respect copyright.PENANAtvXyacLKXq
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父親說:「咁所以我而家咪一次過關心你囉,唔使原因㗎嘛。」231Please respect copyright.PENANAC7FmsbAIfk
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「唔使原因,但你有,因為想我幫你換燈膽。」231Please respect copyright.PENANAqrrKsCZM5B
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她語氣平靜。231Please respect copyright.PENANAfiAoPuzVue
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她太熟知這一套,很多想要向她傾訴心事的人,都會首先煞有介事地問她近況,然後再進入自身故事的正題,完成流暢的轉折。她不會拆穿,反而覺得這是一種禮貌,至少讓她好受一點——他們有考慮到她的感受呢,也怕突兀。231Please respect copyright.PENANAyWLB1B0jNi
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「衰女包!我生你養你,你咁樣諗我?」231Please respect copyright.PENANAmDdXHSMtjN
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她不應。231Please respect copyright.PENANAKwW6JWvCOM
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「又成日唔返屋企,係咪拍拖啦?唔使理老竇啦?」231Please respect copyright.PENANAdWTmTmXVkV
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她不應。231Please respect copyright.PENANAomAJl5Tk0R
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「都唔知係咪喺出面識埋哂啲飛仔,教到你咁忤逆。」231Please respect copyright.PENANAvcUhplYAPx
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她不應。231Please respect copyright.PENANAeqqwSbb0o1
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「出面啲男人邊度會真心鍾意你吖!你咪亂咁信人。」231Please respect copyright.PENANApCKCFDy0GW
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她不應。231Please respect copyright.PENANAeqGarV5SuG
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「而家有毛有翼識飛啦?出咗身又唔見你畀家用!」231Please respect copyright.PENANA82zbgpjpXZ
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她終於應:「我仲未畢業。」231Please respect copyright.PENANACHnwAmy21l
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語氣始終平靜。231Please respect copyright.PENANATNyOydzlAJ
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林蓁時時自省,到底從什麼時候開始,這個家就剩下她和父親呢?母親找其他男人了,家姐和細佬相繼出國讀書,遺棄她一個。是不是她做錯了什麼,才落得今日呢。231Please respect copyright.PENANAfa72BvKQIA
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自從家姐離開,她便毫無預兆地代替了被打父親的角色。231Please respect copyright.PENANAXQuXQn19vk
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林蓁不解,她又不像家姐,已不會頂嘴,平日有溫順臉容,斟茶遞水家務樣樣做齊,會替母親搥背,會照料弟弟的功課;作為一個二女兒,她已做得很多,那年,她才十三歲。231Please respect copyright.PENANAZOp4I93cIh
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「啫係就嚟畢業啦,覺得自己好大個啦嘛!」父親又說。231Please respect copyright.PENANA6tv4haQMho
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她始終不應。231Please respect copyright.PENANAyqg0NrhKCS