"I HATE YOU!"
I knew it was only a dream. I knew the child screaming at me wasn't real. But I still felt the pain of being told you were hated. The child, a young girl, who couldn't be much older than 3, looked how I imagined mine and His child would look like. 686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9R1J2Hbx1
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The girl kept screaming this at me. I didn't understand why she was telling me this. I didn't know who she was. And then I realized.
It was her. The one I was forced to give up. The one no one but my family knew about. Mine and His daughter. 686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPovnCiNpm
I was forced to give birth in secret and then abandon her in foster care. My family didn't care what I wanted. I couldn't ruin their perfect family imagine by having a baby at 16. 686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9twGja8oJ6
I had screamed the same 3 words to my own family for making me do this to her. I wanted to hold, to care for, to watch her grow, but I was forced to forget about her.
I wasn't even aloud to tell him. They also forced me to leave him. I hate them for that.
I now understand why this child is screaming "I hate you" to me, I had left her. I had disappointed her.
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She is still screaming at me. But I understand now and so I reply to her.
"Please don't hate me. It wasn't my fault. It was them. Hate them. I hate them for making me do this."
The dream ended. I laid in bed just crying. It has been 3 years since she was born and I still hate my family for it. They may have forgotten about her but I never could. Before I fall back asleep I yell out to my family. 686Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwDIB9Widi
"I HATE YOU!"
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