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Dear Sam,
Hope you had a safe journey up to Edinburgh. I heard the other day that mum said she was going to send a letter to you since you two haven't spoken for a while. It's nothing particularly special but I just wanted to talk with you for a while since I think it's been over a year since we last exchanged letters and it feels like we used to do this a lot more than before.
I've been thinking of the future a lot more recently. I don't know if it's because the mock examinations are coming up I understand we're in a very privileged situation to be able to afford going abroad to school but I don't want to impose this burden on mum herself, especially since I know that dad will do anything within his power to not fund my education abroad after what happened between them. The things I want to pursue in the future can be picked up here so I don't think it's really that necessary for me to actually come over to England for university when I can just stay where I am and save some money so I won't be a burden to you or mum.
I don't know how to say this but I think the divorce is having an effect on mum. She seems easily agitated now and definitely not as happy and stress-free as before. Maybe she's realised that the income she has is not enough for both her and I to survive on, or something, I don't know. Her temper's a bit worse now and you can tell she's very stressed from the job searches she's been putting herself through. She hasn't yet found a job as far as I know.
I don't know if I'm overreacting or anything but at the end of the day she's still family so it just feels odd abandoning her to live her own life here, without any meaningful income.
I think I will probably choose to stay here to and complete my university studies here instead of moving elsewhere. I don't know what would happen if I left her here all alone. You're already out in England so just please, make sure you do well in your studies and come back. I can't really fathom being alone here with mum, but also can't really imagine her doing okay all by herself.
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Sabrina
