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You know when your young you want to be with the person for ever but u find your self everything crashing down and its like they pushed you off a cliff and there is no one at the bottom to catch you and you know this is going to be a crash landing and the you know your going to have alot of scares and bruises and some of the scares will leave nightmares that just repeats in the back of your mind and it can happen when your asleep or you see something that reminds you of your past and then its like your reliving it all over again and then you just fall apart . I got tried of someone that post to love me treat me like shit i could look in to there eyes and see a evil person and they just want to get what they want out of you and just throw your feelings aside no matter how much you fall apart your the only one who has to pick up the broke shattered pieces off the floor and you will find your self tired of the bull shit and I had to Let you go in the back of my mind i did not want to cause i had to many years in but i knew what my worth was and i also had to do it for my mental health cause he sure in the fuck did not care about me and my health he was to busy worried about finding someone else cause i was not giving him any sex or kisses at all and if he did get a kiss from me i would wipe it off with my hands when he was not looking, I was starting to hate this son of a bitch i just wanted him to just disappear out of my life and let me live in piece cause i knew in my heart he was not going to change at all. I felt letting you go was best for me.
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I am so glad i let you go cause you was not good enough for me you so disappointed me so many times and you did not even care as long has you got what you wanted. I just knew what i had to do to heal my self cause my mental state was on the line and i felt so lost that i lost my way back home but at the same time i knew i did not have a home anymore, All I knew was i felt broken and i felt lost and i felt like i was all alone dealing with this , I got so tired of being judged for something and I would get judge for not being smart enough or not pretty enough or i lacked intelligence and it was always something. You know I knew i was different from the start but all i wanted to be was excepted but i knew i could not please everyone i had to please my self but finding where to start was the hardest part cause the man i was with at the time did not let me shine on my own he always had to take my spot light away. I knew if i wanted to live my life the way i wanted to be and get away from the abuse and neglect i had to leave him even tho i was living in a $159.000 house at the time and to me i truly honestly did not give a shit anymore, All i knew was i was so tired of being mistreated and tired of not being heard after i spoke it was like he just ignore me and what would piss me off is when i tell him something and when i look dead in his face he would tell me i forgot or I did not tell him that knowing damn well I did .
I had to let you go even tho you hurt me and the pain yo caused in my life and i felt like i let you do this to me but i was so blind to see cause i was hoping you would change but you did not , All I see is honestly a cold hearted son of a bitch that is selfish and a spoiled fucken brat and i hope one day you get yours in spades and when you do i will not feel sorry for you cause you had every bit of it coming. So this are my last words to you Paul William Fenimore IM SO FUCKEN GLAD I LET YOU GO....... P.S. I WIN!!!!!!!
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