Have you ever thought about how you wished you were different?
How you whisper your deep dark secrets and hoping that someone would hear.
Someone once told me that for one to be heard one must shout. But I can't open my mouth.
Even talking has come hard for me. Sometimes sarcasm is all that comes out of my mouth and it became so frequent that I'm trying to act according to it.Sometimes staying silent is the only answer I find worth giving. 378Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqD9GQrEK3f
When I used to be shy and quite people used to tell me 'come on talk a little.'
And when I tried to put up a front and act cheerful people started to tell me to shut up.
That's when I knew that I took too much into considerations what people thought of me and I still do.
One of my many flaws is that I like attention. And I don't get it, I'm always left alone and that's what makes me feel worse. 378Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFCWINdYgz
Sometimes I feel stupid to even think these thoughts, I always wanted to be an independent woman who never needed anyone to be happy. She made her own happiness.
To be honest, everything seems too much, but at the same time, it seems like nothing. 378Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡary3VWTbX4
I feel that all the will and strength to fight in me are fading with every passing hour. I used to get on my feet and tell myself that it's going to be okay and I will continue today and pass through all this and go to university, I will do it.
But now, even thinking about it seems far off.
It's my dream and I know I'm capable of doing this but my mind won't let me.
And I'm letting my mind take over.
Quote of the day: " Make someone smile today, maybe that smile will brighten your day."
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