To be very honest, I don't know what to do.
At the moment, everything is going distorted but at the same time, I know that life has to go its own path.
I have to wake up, get dressed and go out. But then I stop and think, I don't want to.
But then my mind goes another direction that I need to go, I have too. It's a really important year for school purposes and it's my last chance to succeed. But I don't feel good enough, or intelligent enough to do this.
My mind kills me inside. I'm not sure if it's because I have these thoughts that I'm stuck or because I really am not capable to do this.
I'm scared that I could lose everything and everyone. I'm used to being alone but at the same time, I'm scared of being alone.
I try to help others, but the person who needs help is me.
My mind is my own prison and my heart is too weak to break it.
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