Chapter Nine
Helping in the barn was fun, Alex done the messy work. Like clearing the hay that was in the horse's penn, and putting fresh hay in. I helped in moving the horse's so that Alex could do that. I also got to brush some of them, Alex showed me how to do that. While doing some work, I started to sing, I didn’t realize I was doing it. It was the song ‘Today’, from the If I Stay soundtrack, it was originally sung by Smashing Pumpkins. “Today, is the greatest, day I’ve ever known, can't live for tomorrow, tomorrow's much too long, I'll burn my eyes out, before I get out…” I stop, because I caught myself doing it. I look around to see if Alex herd me or not, I hope not. But when I see him in a penn, he is staring right at me.
“You are good,” he nods to himself.
“I guess,” I say back and continue to brush down one of the horse’s.
We had been in there so long that that afternoon sun had been replaced by the moon.
“Hey, Alex?” he looks up at me, “don’t you think that we should head back.”
He gets something out of his pocket, his eyebrows shoot up to his hairline. “Shit, it’s 10 to 9. We’ve been here for hours.Yeah, let’s go.”
We walk back to the house, I shiver. Wearing a short sleeved top seemed like a good idea when I woke up. But not now.
“The cold airs a bitch isn’t it?” Alex says, he is wearing a long sleeved shirt, he’s probably only a little bit warmer than I am.
“You could say that,” I laugh. The wind blows my hair into my face so I look up, and I am struck. The sky, I’ve never seen it so clear. I’ve never seen so many stars, they peak out of the blackness, it looks like a black blanket covered in impossibly bright diamonds. The moon shines bright and proud. The minutes pass and suddenly we are back at the house, when we enter my tummy starts to yell at me. Then I realize that dinner is over, I look around and yea everyone is on free time until bedtime.
I turn to Alex who is still beside me, “What are we doing for food?”
“There will be some left overs in the kitchen,” Alex walks forward and into the hallway. He turns and we walk into the now dark and empty dinner hall. This room is warm and inviting when lit, but in darkness and moonlight streaming through the big windows, it's a different story.
We walk in silence, with Alex way ahead of me. We go behind the counter at the top of the room and go through the door that is there. I smell some breaded fish and my tummy jumps at the hope of food. I notice that there are about 5 guys in here washing up, or at least that is what they are probably meant to be doing. Instead each of them are armed with a dish towel and whacking each other with it. Alex comes to my side, “It’s the boy staff that are on dish duty tonight.”
Before I can say anything back he walks more into the kitchen and disappears behind tall counters. I stand awkwardly, the boys are still going at it. They haven’t noticed us still. I look around and the kitchen feels like it is a maze of counters and workspaces, some high and some low. I look over to the boys, as it's either that or count how many counters there are, I don’t recognize any of them.
Alex emerges from somewhere holding two plates full of food and two bottles of water under his arms. “Here.” He says to me, indicating the food. I take one and then he hands me a bottle. “We can eat in my dorm if you want.”
“The one with 9 other guys?” I say somewhat sarcastically.
He laughs a little, “No, my own personal room I have here.”
“Errrr……why not?” I say not looking at him, I could feel my cheeks getting warm. But if he notices he doesn’t say. I don’t know why I was getting either embarrassed or nervous at the thought of being alone with him. Alex leads me out of the kitchen, and into the big room. People are all about talking, laughing, some reading. We go up the massive stairs, when we reach the top however we don’t go in the way of my dorm or the others. But down the long corridor that no one was in. Up some more stairs that were small and stone. I noticed that the light source here was actually lit candles on the walls. Just like in those historical movies/tv shows like Reign. There is another long corridor, with several doors, but this part of the house felt cozy and comforting than what I had seen of the house already. The candles were still the light source here, which made me love it even more. Alex stopped at one of the doors and took a silver key out of his pocket and unlocked the door. When he opened the door he stood by it and looked at me.
It took me a beat until I realised that he was waiting on me going in before him. It wasn’t until I stepped inside did I realize just how nervous I was about the whole ordeal. My hands were heating up. His room, I noticed, was very neat. The room wasn’t the biggest, but he made it work even with a double bed (which was push right into one of the corners). A chest of drawers at the foot of it, but what took up most of the room was his TV that sat on a little table with two big comfortable cushioned seats facing it, and a ton of dvds piled up next to the TV.
I take a seat on one of the seats and he sits in the other. Putting my water by my feet do I actually look at what Alex has cooked up for me. It was mash and mince. A classic scottish dish, at least I think, when I was younger my Nana would make it for me and Aaron all of the time. Hers were better than the version of it that my mum would make, as she would put a ton of carrots in it which just took away from the taste of it.
“It’s all I could find sorry.”
I look up at Alex and realize that I was just starting into my food for a good 2 minutes like a complete idiot, yay go me. Not. “No no, the foods great I was just thinking about something.”
He looks relieved. “Do you want me to put a movie on?”
I smile, “Yeah, sure.”
Putting his food down on his seat, he leans in front of his dvds. Right at my feet and his arse is in full view, his boxes are peeking up from his trousers and his shirt is riding up his back. All I see is a very hot muscled guy in front of me, and I start to feel something down there. I suddenly want to touch him, hold him. What is this? No, resist it!
When he gets up I look at my food and start eating, and looking anywhere but at him. The universal logo comes on the screen. The movie he had chosen was a rom-com a light hearted kind of movie. However, I find myself unable to focus fully on it. My eyes continue to flick over to him.
After the movie, we somehow find ourselves sitting on his bed talking about this that and everything. Pointless subjects, Alex making jokes. Me laughing harder than I normally would. Him impersonating talentless celebrities, me joining in. Him laughing an amazing laugh, him grabbing my waist with his arm and laying me down on his bed. That feeling from earlier returning, this time with more flare more heat.
His face was hard, his body leaning on me, his eyes searching mine. With all of the courage I could get I move my head up to meet his lips, and when they connect it feels like it’s christmas morning and a million fireworks going off all at once. His mouth never leaving mine, his body was pressed against mine hard. I felt secure, his kissing was soft and hard at the same time. It was as if he was searching my mouth for something. I never want it end it was as if nothing mattered anymore, as long as I stayed here everything was going to be ok.
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