When I checked the time, it was half past eight. I wanted to go home as I was totally tired. As I was about to tell Jared,...
He asked, "May I drop you at home?"
I really don't understand how he was scanning my thoughts. I wanted him to come. But still, I rejected his offer.
He once again insisted. "I will not do anything... I will just accompany you..."
I was still not ready to accept his offer though I understood his sarcasm.
But he accompanied me till my home. All through the way, he spoke nothing to me. When we reached my home, he left without bidding a goodbye.
I refreshed myself once at home. I felt sleepy but I was not able to sleep, as Jared's behaviour made me restless. I was wondering if he was going to be the same forever.
His thoughts made the time run so fast. The next morning I got ready to go to my home. Rihaan had come to pick me up. We started and all through the journey, I didn't utter a word. I felt that Rihaan was least concerned about that.
We reached home. Finally, I asked him about his business trip. He told that it was fine and that he had some more work to finish so rushed to his office after leaving me at home. I just laid on my sofa. After some time, there was the doorbell.
When I opened the door I found that it was Jared.
He asked me, "Why didn't you inform me about your departure?".
I felt that it wasn't necessary to inform him. So we both entered into a heated argument.
As a result, he got angry when I said, "You mean nothing to me. Why must I inform you?".
And he was about to leave when I caught hold of his hands. I still now didn't know what made me do that. I asked him to come in. He rejected to enter. I apologised for what I said. He was still angry.
I didn't know what to do... Only then I realised the power of words. I have hurt him because of my life... Because of Rihaan. Whom else could I blame? It's all my fault.
Jared finally left the place. He must be heartbroken because of my words. But that isn't bad. I hoped that he would never return again. I believed that it was our last meeting though I had mixed feelings about it. I was really sorry for what I had spoken. But it would do both of us some good.
I wanted him to ignore me but I felt very upset because of his reaction then.
I wasn't able to eat. What if he got married to another girl? Would I be able to see him with some other girl?
OMG... Why did that worry me? We had nothing in between us!!!
He was just a stranger. No... He wasn't just a stranger... He was something more than that...
Oh... I hated the way my thoughts were playing in my head. I really wanted to sleep... At least rest... But his thoughts kept screwing me... Still, I had a heavy headache...
What has really got into me? I am not his. But I feel guilty about my attitude towards him.
I couldn't stop thinking and there were tears in my eyes. Was it because of my headache or because I hurt him....?
I could not still forget his touch. His smell that made me not wash the dress he hugged me once. The hugs we shared. Everything went on in my mind as if I was watching a document.
I tried falling asleep but nothing helped. The pain in my head, it was creating a twirl. As I was about to fall asleep after really a long pondering, the doorbell rang suddenly. It was Rihaan. I wanted to share my pain, the guilt I owned. But he was not ready to listen. After he came, everything went in routine.
The next day I felt that it was something special. I did not know what made me think like that. But still, I hoped it to be good.
After Rihaan went to work, I went to the nearby supermarket to buy certain necessary things. After I finished purchasing I returned to my apartment and entered the elevator and to my surprise, Jared was standing there.
He gave me the cutest smile as usual, but I didn't do any retorts. In my mind, "How is it possible for him to pass a smile to me after yesterday's incident? Was he really crazy?"
"Yes, I am... Crazy on you!!!", immediately came the reply.
He had once again heard what I thought. But I kept quiet as it meant nothing to me.
When we were nearing the second floor, the power went out. So Jared and I had to stay in the elevator. It was the first time it happened so. It was getting late, I wanted to get out as quickly as possible.
But all of a sudden he blocked me with his both hands. I tried to push him away when he had asked me to look into his eyes. I didn't want to look into his magnetic eyes. But he insisted me to look. So I looked into his eyes.
The moment I looked into his eyes his lips touched my lips. At first, I was shocked, so I pushed him away. I even slapped him on his right cheek. But that didn't stop him. He once again kissed me. Again I pushed him. I just started crying.
He slowly moved away from me. But when he tried kissing me for the third time, I was not able to protest. I was not sure of what I was doing.
It was as if I was fluttering like a butterfly that saw honey after a long time when I was kissing him. I hugged him tightly to which he responded by hugging me back. We kissed for a minute or two. As the elevator started again, we both moved away from each other. We were silent after that. I never wanted to kiss him but it happened.
As I reached my floor I came out and walked towards my home. I felt that he didn't come out. I opened the door and went inside my house.
When I was about to shut the door, I saw that Jared was standing there at my doorstep. I neither wanted him to leave nor enter. So I closed the door. I really never wanted to kiss him, though I loved the way he kissed me. His kiss was as sweet as that of chocolate. His lips were like marshmallows so soft.
I wanted him to kiss me again. But... I decided to stay from him even though I knew it was the most difficult thing.
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