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鄧伊嵐親吻床伴的臉頰。521Please respect copyright.PENANALuj9JXiCoi
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「以後唔見啦。」她淡定地說。521Please respect copyright.PENANAxvReEBd6Xj
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她不習慣長時期接觸一個不感興趣的男生,因為如此下去,必然會越來越依賴;原先只將身交付予對方,心更不能就此任意出走。這樣對大家都不好。521Please respect copyright.PENANANp0jmXOKlP
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何況,這種關係,多是沒有真心。521Please respect copyright.PENANA327TRzVJfx
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有真心的話,除了兩情雙悅,否則只得一方沉淪,沒有人能進行救援,吐泡、窒息、發脹、腐爛,是必然的結局。521Please respect copyright.PENANAlDoTRObJ1I
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有性無愛,是伊嵐自我慰藉的方法。521Please respect copyright.PENANAEhLbJyZDdH
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她無法有愛無性——因為她愛的人不與她做愛,甚至對她無愛。521Please respect copyright.PENANAPqPA9EW8JC
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伊嵐與阿行認識十二年,他們是小學同學。當時,他喜歡的女孩子是她的鄰座。521Please respect copyright.PENANAgkEm9WsKQc
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但她沒有助攻,只和他說:「佢鍾意班長!唔鍾意你,死心啦。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAxiQVvsO7F2
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而伊嵐,已經喜歡阿行十二年了。521Please respect copyright.PENANAKEhNn3yaFU
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楊念行摸摸宿舍附近的小貓,然後拍了拍手,行去上課。521Please respect copyright.PENANAXbSp8ofwkc
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這個學期,他大部分課堂都回復面授形式;他便悠閒地在日光下,慢慢走上山。521Please respect copyright.PENANAPXsFkxkdL0
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張漫青快步走。她提前到了學校,便不想乘校巴,行上山更加能感受冬日的陽光;太陽並不猛烈,反而有些綿密的溫柔,這於她是好天氣。521Please respect copyright.PENANA96CWaYxuBL
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然後,阿行看見了青青,或者說,他見到一個和她很相似的側臉、三七臉、背景。521Please respect copyright.PENANAHYd7dVlBof
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但他不打算行前一點拍她的肩。521Please respect copyright.PENANAtuo8IqpSnG
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她前晚的拒絕稍稍令他認為,也許她並不願與他再接觸;然後就是,他的自尊心也輕微受創。521Please respect copyright.PENANAsHpulV4Mix
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無論當晚聊得多麼好,下次見面都不知應否打招呼。521Please respect copyright.PENANA0FHCSMaQ9h
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二人的路程一模一樣。521Please respect copyright.PENANAkRCCXax3JC
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她哼着鄧麗欣的《日久生情》:521Please respect copyright.PENANATTvG92jX5R
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大概一起了相擁過未算好521Please respect copyright.PENANAr7wJOJr2SB
只因是發覺被愛的恐怖521Please respect copyright.PENANAvx9gKWtphm
能生出愛情521Please respect copyright.PENANADCZzY3N7IN
問我應不應去禱告521Please respect copyright.PENANAU23AEyRY3U
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搭𨋢、上天橋、行樓梯、踏大路、搭𨋢……521Please respect copyright.PENANAvHUhxKq2Rm
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青青終於看到阿行:「Hi?」521Please respect copyright.PENANA94j87QpCnJ
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他沒有說,自己一早已經看見她:「真係再見添。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAWnVtFR8ct4
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「咁啱嘅,」她有些愕然地笑一笑:「我嚟上堂呀。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAXIZVzNEr60
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「我都係。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAj341rQtqzI
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他們靜默,再沒有話聊,卻一直行到同一個課室;然後停一停,他首先打開門,和她一同內進,成為鄰座。521Please respect copyright.PENANASll0GLWKA4
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「唔係咁啱吖嘛?同一班?」她驚訝。521Please respect copyright.PENANAd0pMtCHp1M
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她覺得有點邪,多疑的她不相信如此,這事說給誰聽,都像是誇張失實的節目橋段。521Please respect copyright.PENANAOX6v8RjoJR
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會不會真的太巧合了?521Please respect copyright.PENANAPgdIemjJwf
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於他更甚,線上線下,已經遇見了她三次;「三」是「幾」的程度,算不算多?521Please respect copyright.PENANAbvcyKK1ZG5
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下一秒,他笑自己——係咪太想要女朋友?見多幾次就幻想咁多。521Please respect copyright.PENANAZhh0aLWW0o
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這個課堂並非呆板的講書、聽書、功課、報告,更着重個人思考和成長。521Please respect copyright.PENANAHXJnOxELev
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老師說:「呢度嘅大家都係嚟自唔同科系同年級——我諗冇人原本就識?所以,都可以避免同識嘅人分享啲尷尬嘢……而家請大家同隔籬位傾十分鐘偈,然後,畫出對方喺你心中嘅形象。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAlIAvUXeahQ
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阿行和青青手上都各有一張紙、幾枝筆。521Please respect copyright.PENANA9kFqoqIjNG
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他們傾偈。521Please respect copyright.PENANAldFjjQHxbS
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「有冇覺得可以見返我?」他以調情的口吻說,但很像在扮演另一個人。521Please respect copyright.PENANA3bz9hHDXoz
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「咩料呀你?你嗰日都唔係咁㗎喎。」她也故作深沉。521Please respect copyright.PENANA2872LvqrFg
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她有覺得能夠再遇他,香港不大,就讀同一間學校更易見面,只是想不到會這麼快、這麼近。521Please respect copyright.PENANAjUWiK3R2ZK
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「如果我話,嗰日之日我有啲唔開心,你會唔會覺得我小氣?」他刻意皺了皺眉。521Please respect copyright.PENANAebpN775sz4
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「你好坦誠。」她轉一轉眼珠:「但係都小氣。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAc6Hmsz7K5y
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「點解reg呢個course?」521Please respect copyright.PENANAO5D5SuSeFa
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「唔想讀啲咁嚴肅嘅嘢,我係學術垃圾,做親academic paper都靚唔到grade。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAzi8Mft38dI
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「哦,有人想逃避。」他揶揄她,又說:「我都係因為想讀啲冇咁chur嘅科。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAqJsebspc93
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今天,他們是鄰座,和前晚的對面位不同,現在更近一些。他盯着她的臉,試圖記得她的臉部細節,等一會兒更加容易畫出來——即使他只會畫火柴人。521Please respect copyright.PENANAgWwOpTgGfP
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「使唔使傾啲認真話題?」她聽見了別人說對於共產主義的看法,並且越講越激昂。521Please respect copyright.PENANAdtqQw5G61b
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「你問。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAGWsMaqxRK4
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「啊——」她突然想到:「你有冇住hall?」521Please respect copyright.PENANAaZcOgV9rU5
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她還是不想問太內在的東西,人與人之間,有時親近即遠離。她希望能與他至少在這學期內和平共處,真心地。521Please respect copyright.PENANAXa5DSQHLP5
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「好認真喎。」阿行挑眉,答:「有。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAdMU9T3ouMu
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「係點㗎?」她沒有住過宿舍,十分好奇,雖然聽過雅君的故事,然而每個人的觀感應是不同的。521Please respect copyright.PENANAVC6hN5rZyk
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「好嘈,半夜三更打麻將、播重音樂。全層都係男人……沖涼時間個個都唔着衫走嚟走去。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAipTJeGraxP
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「咁你有冇覺得佢哋好fit?」521Please respect copyright.PENANAiRXxXjKPiG
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「咩問題嚟……」他答:「冇。你話有女仔行嚟行去就話啫,男仔有咩好睇。咁你係咪冇住?點解?」521Please respect copyright.PENANAz9Y72NzQcx
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「係啊,因為唔想同陌生人日見夜見,同埋我都唔算住得遠嘅,宿費又貴。」521Please respect copyright.PENANATEHTU04P4k
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青青說出很現實的答案,完全活在資本社會的她,無法參與社會學的高尚討論。521Please respect copyright.PENANAVuGrQbzDsY
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如果問「小孩子是什麼」,而回答是「云云人海中的某個毫無意義的奴隸」,恐怕大家都會不快。521Please respect copyright.PENANAAF4e6CeGPu
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阿行點點頭,看一看青青的眉,發現她修了眉,立即整齊了許多。521Please respect copyright.PENANAE2zWuaYGbB
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他畫了她:眉眼清晰,身材肥胖。521Please respect copyright.PENANAwq6i5ZTyIq
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她馬上不滿:「喂,雖然我唔瘦,但都唔係呢個程度。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAJuoUzQUdZi
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阿行解釋:「Tinder肥仔聰。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAUsRaB9BuhB
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青青稍稍舒心。她對自己的外型沒有自信,如果有人面對面說她胖,玻璃心將會盡碎。521Please respect copyright.PENANA53rnxuTj9J
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父親時常說她遺傳了他的毛孔,十分粗大,卻沒有他皮膚白;又時常叫她不要攤坐,不然會越來越肥,現在似乎已和他的手臂一樣粗壯。521Please respect copyright.PENANA03lOPK9RfH
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他總是如此直接地批評女兒,認為她堅強又大方。521Please respect copyright.PENANA6JxUWTH7M1
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父親沒有惡意,但她聽得很認真。521Please respect copyright.PENANAVc7jvEVjIf
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從她九歲,講到十九歲,她真覺得自己的身型很糟糕。521Please respect copyright.PENANAngyaSrUtaj
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青青畫了阿行:眼睛總是瞇起來的火柴人。521Please respect copyright.PENANAG9NSfXi68n
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阿行的眼尾微微下彎,像無辜的小狗;眼裏充滿水花,似有萬種風情訴說。521Please respect copyright.PENANAHybTXn7xFk
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之後,老師就開始介紹這個課程,他們沒有再說話。521Please respect copyright.PENANA4tea7wj2zp
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落堂,青青起身離去,說:「拜拜,我去下一堂。」521Please respect copyright.PENANA3UFWhxNxKK
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這是藉口,她只想快快到飯堂吃飯,自己一人;唯有如此,她才能自然地滿足食慾,不用任何表情、聲調。只是上了一堂,她就已經有點累。這一年裏她似將身體捱壞,時常覺得睏倦,沒有一點青春少艾應有的活力。521Please respect copyright.PENANAzuVpbPtG2i
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「喂,contact呀!」阿行叫住青青。521Please respect copyright.PENANA0PikYn0cDR
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「你會搵我傾偈?」青青昂首,抓了抓額頭。521Please respect copyright.PENANAnT7xkdBrz5
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「會啊。」他點頭。521Please respect copyright.PENANAtit6gWOjAP
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「不了,無啦啦傾咩偈,我哋會見㗎嘛;當面先傾,好似舒服啲。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAjinpfYDWV6
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「咁如果唔會呢?」521Please respect copyright.PENANAaj7Vba1PX5
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「咁攞嚟做咩?」她理直氣壯。521Please respect copyright.PENANACwTQjCibZD
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「你反口!」他感覺又被她擺了一道,卻沒有生氣。521Please respect copyright.PENANASUqBBCDO54
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她不理,側一側頭,揮手:「下堂見啦,同學仔。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAJS6RcDix8u
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青青對阿行有些好感,但是,她不想無故與他聯絡,就算他有話題。521Please respect copyright.PENANAxVAc2mT0Iz
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因為二人並不相熟,無事無幹,又豈會私下聊天;如果會,意圖又很明顯——是否她太多心?應該是。她從來都是一個多疑的人,而且心胸狹窄。521Please respect copyright.PENANARmU8m52uTN
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她突然發現,自己口中常說的戀愛渴望,其實並不大。521Please respect copyright.PENANAhu1YKEEgEF
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她只想開開心心、嘻嘻哈哈,但不想承擔責任。521Please respect copyright.PENANA7WDAX91jAn
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愛人與被愛,都是很害怕的事——521Please respect copyright.PENANAgh5wjf2j3k
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其實她不應如此說。她的戀愛經驗多數是來自聽別人的故事,但唯有足夠曲折的經歷才令聽者印象深刻521Please respect copyright.PENANAlcBeNo30Fn
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何況,她感覺到,他對她也有好感。521Please respect copyright.PENANAClcDbQx0XH
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阿行心癢。521Please respect copyright.PENANA80WZk7JpPt
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雖然他在上一段感情中並不愉快,但回歸自身人際網絡圈,他總能哄得身邊人高高興興,大家都親近他。521Please respect copyright.PENANAGnTWX6oP2n
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青青的反應,令他始料不及。521Please respect copyright.PENANAylkmfHcFvW
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最重要的是,很快,他便在飯堂看到她,她根本沒有趕去上課,而是在悠閒地玩電話。她的臉部沒有泛起任何漣漪,眼睛不再靈動,只是放空地睜着。521Please respect copyright.PENANA8Z9W9gYBRN
她欺騙了他,為什麼?是他做了不好的事嗎?521Please respect copyright.PENANABy86VSi0tN
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他發現了她身上有很違和的東西——外型菂菂式式,但神態多是冷漠,唯有面對人時,才有人氣。521Please respect copyright.PENANAp1kRX0WVZC
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他在離她遠遠的位置,也吃着飯,然後離去。521Please respect copyright.PENANATF39xxQ0o6
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下午,阿行離開學校前,都會去摸一下附近的小貓。521Please respect copyright.PENANAjgm1ZJifgU
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他正在去往圍住草地的路徑,便看見青青;她正蹲下來,靜靜地看着正在睡覺的貓。521Please respect copyright.PENANAXxV2yeUy50
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「呿!」他用力拍她的肩。521Please respect copyright.PENANA9uHQI2Zph8
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「好彩冇嘈醒貓貓。」她嚇得被彈起,瞪一瞪他:「幼稚鬼。」521Please respect copyright.PENANAabqRFfDCvP
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他告訴她,牠的名字是Gri。521Please respect copyright.PENANAUuEKSbxFvG