下午的插曲並沒有影響到他們相約一起唸書,兩人唸書的時候很少對話,只剩下鉛筆摩擦紙筆的聲響。45Please respect copyright.PENANAAl9tPFcwGI
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筆尖寫在國語習作的方格內,除了簡單的中文選擇題以外還有許多語文測驗,面對這種文言文的洗禮,雅婷苦惱地嘆了無數次氣。45Please respect copyright.PENANAC28Dqi48bR
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忽然雅婷放在桌上的手機震動了一下,雅婷慌張地拿起手機確認手機畫面,按了幾個按鍵後紅著臉對悠仁道歉。45Please respect copyright.PENANAqcRPJO5ERW
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悠仁輕輕搖頭說沒事,但忍不住問了一句:「是急事嗎?」45Please respect copyright.PENANAmMTuSm3Yeb
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想想雅婷很少在唸書時間沒把手機關靜音,這是他們唸書時的默契。45Please respect copyright.PENANA8BMo4gsmAg
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「最近認識一些朋友,很常用通訊軟體聊天,才會忘了關。」雅婷吐了舌頭俏皮地說。45Please respect copyright.PENANAoq9g2MiRJD
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聊著悠仁也注意到手機上掛著一個像是小魔女的吊飾,帶著高帽跟掃把得立體卡通雕刻,雅婷素淨的手指與黑色手機殼上格外明顯。45Please respect copyright.PENANAZmkbM1Xytj
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「這是新的卡通嗎?」悠仁看了時間差不多了,開始輕聲聊天。45Please respect copyright.PENANAyMYBSdYNzq
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「我朋友畫的人物,是我跟朋友們的友情吊飾~」雅婷笑著搖晃著吊飾。45Please respect copyright.PENANA7dQCQoJtNo
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「其他學校的?」悠仁歪頭想了雅婷在班級屬於安靜內向的類型,很少看他到他和同學一起展示這個吊飾。45Please respect copyright.PENANAMUsNW6WkEU
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「對,之前網路認識的姊姊們,他們很有趣~有空再找你跟他們一起認識!」雅婷興奮地說。45Please respect copyright.PENANApeSrmCsmvF
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害悠仁忍不住伸出食指抵在嘴前,提醒他小聲點。45Please respect copyright.PENANAgx3ufgVUCb
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雅婷才驚慌的摀住嘴,一臉抱歉的笑著。45Please respect copyright.PENANAMcLDJLGTXT
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專注於唸書的時間總是過得特別快,不知不覺到了吃飯時間,只好陸續開始收拾手邊的書本筆記,一同踏出圖書館。45Please respect copyright.PENANAa5LWVXaoJV
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走在圖書館長長的階梯上,踩著基數格子的雅婷超越悠仁,晃在他前方。45Please respect copyright.PENANACdmaqOQ4FN
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「剛剛在念社會的部分想說出題會考時事題,就翻了一下最近的社會新聞。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAduc7e6LsD3
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「看著看著就有點難過。」雅婷的聲音從前面傳來,迎著路燈和晚霞,這時候夏天的溫度變的和緩許多。45Please respect copyright.PENANA20SxFtdn3N
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「什麼新聞?」悠仁歪過頭問。45Please respect copyright.PENANAloF8TtS4l9
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「就是那種霸凌啊,壞同學沒什麼懲罰,可是被霸凌的同學身心受創還轉學,新聞寫得好仔細,他還被強暴,好可怕。」雅婷說幾句後吸了吸鼻子,聲音帶著鼻音。45Please respect copyright.PENANAdC3lcZvXdT
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「我有看到阿凱給你看那段影片,什麼兔兔歷險記,你知道那其實是強暴嗎?那女生被學長學弟灌醉拖去骯髒的旅社,男生被記了大過留校查看,結果是女生休學轉學,可是影片下面所有人都在罵女生犯賤噁心破抹布,為什麼那群垃圾可以全身而退?」45Please respect copyright.PENANAScQTSin375
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「性暴力真的好可怕,我好難想像真的有人能夠走出來,如果是我一定會自殺。」雅婷回過頭的時候眼眶泛著淚,同理心強的她很感性,上一次哭著說是他看到澳洲大火的新聞,看見人們流離失所還有動物燒焦的內容,她也是這麼難過。45Please respect copyright.PENANAUSNqEoowEv
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「真的好可怕,無論是那個男生,還是在下面輿論的人都是兇手。」悠仁看著落日後的天空還留著晚霞的餘韻,邊緣微微的亮著橘紅,但大半都被墨色的夜染開。45Please respect copyright.PENANAy0T847aS8f
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他的聲音在和煦的風裡顯得更柔軟,雅婷也忍住眼淚用力的點點頭。45Please respect copyright.PENANASDz93xdD1Q
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「我們都要好好保護自己,而且考試應該會考今年會有立委選舉的相關內容,不想太多~」悠仁往前拍了拍雅婷的背,讓她轉移注意力不要太沈浸在新聞內。45Please respect copyright.PENANAGL9Ysjq44v
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帶著沈重的開頭,悠仁試圖聊起了其他社會新聞轉移注意力,包括貪污弊案或是土地正義等零粹的議題,對於高中生的他們顯得有些遙遠,像是聊著某個八點擋一樣的離奇。45Please respect copyright.PENANAmebvtL7TN1
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「你相信政治人物都會貪污嗎?」45Please respect copyright.PENANA6Q2bUvP0sH
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兩人走到公車站牌,等車的時候雅婷又忍不住延續剛才的話題。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYx1vHvK3aQ
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「會吧?錢擺在那沒拿也會手癢吧。」悠仁帶著笑容說著玩笑話。45Please respect copyright.PENANABRcFUj9186
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「對嘛~」雅婷也笑著。45Please respect copyright.PENANASIW5woGb78
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悠仁特地陪伴女同學一起等公車,看著自己的班車在眼前經過的時候,眼神變得有些恍惚。45Please respect copyright.PENANAXfmP7YboiG
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「悠仁回去以後都會做什麼啊?」雅婷總是停不下來的想說話,其實在讀書館她都讀不進半個字進腦裡,當她有任何想跟悠仁聊天的小心思出現,就會跟悠仁剛好對到眼,那種心花朵朵開的感覺讓她無法對焦在課本上。45Please respect copyright.PENANA6tCsqNhGqO
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悠仁望著街道盡頭,輕聲說:「聽音樂或跟我媽媽聊天,你知道她腳不方便不好出去,我會陪她聊聊今天發生的事情。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAZe5WSYmkdL
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雅婷很喜歡悠仁成熟的想法,即使一起在她房間也不會越舉,上次悠仁來家裡拜訪以後,雖然家人很擔心女兒會不會被騙走,但言談中對悠仁的禮貌跟談吐都非常滿意。45Please respect copyright.PENANAsyGYueMo9h
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雅婷喜歡丟出各種難題詢問悠仁的看法,都會得到一個善良正確的答案。45Please respect copyright.PENANAFQX17a0Vku
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這時公車剛好進站,車燈照亮他們的眼眉。45Please respect copyright.PENANA67uLEQrUv2
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雅婷有些依依不捨地跟悠仁道別,悠仁目送少女背著雙肩背包的背影,上面小女巫的吊飾晃的很顯眼。45Please respect copyright.PENANAd9VYjN7Tmb
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坐上車時雅婷也忍不住在座位向他招手,一副十八相送的小情侶一樣,這種曖昧的溫度也是她最喜歡悠仁的地方,剛剛好又不會太過頭的關係。45Please respect copyright.PENANASzbFtlsrOj
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隨著車燈遠去,離開下班放學的高峰期之後的車站人變少許多,僅有路燈照亮昏暗的公車站,陳舊的海報在佈告欄上張貼許久,氧化斑駁破損的看不出文字,玻璃面因為濕氣染上了厚厚的黴菌。45Please respect copyright.PENANA9QmZ9ARXif
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看著車尾燈的消失,悠仁上揚的嘴角緩緩拉平。45Please respect copyright.PENANA5CneeN3eGb
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柔和的神情逐漸的消散。45Please respect copyright.PENANAkgbl85pHnT
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眼底柔和的情緒如同被吹熄的蠟燭,只剩裊裊青煙,消失在黑夜中。45Please respect copyright.PENANAuBXmT4U9Zn
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今晚因為濃厚的烏雲,天空沒有月亮跟星星,隨著車燈離開以後悠仁臉上落入一片昏暗之中,看不清表情。45Please respect copyright.PENANAKL8wFTqGmK
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直到下一班公車進站,死白的燈光照在他的臉上,才能看清他臉上沒有絲毫的情緒,麻木地望著一台又一台的公車經過。45Please respect copyright.PENANAWmLUgmieA0
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上車時用悠遊卡「逼」了一聲,鑽到了公車最末端座位,油膩的公車拉環和磨損嚴重的陳舊坐墊,公車內瀰漫著汽油混合香菸的氣味,前往郊區路線的公車格外破舊,連車燈都顯得有些昏暗,只能隨著陡峭的節奏望著窗外街景。45Please respect copyright.PENANAOW5DYTKxQR
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霧濛濛的玻璃外的街景從熱鬧的繽紛街燈,轉移到寂寥的田野景色,周圍零散的鐵皮建築物像是蟄伏在田野的巨獸,僅有幾扇昏黃路燈照亮街道,周圍總傳來機械悶聲運作的聲響,隱隱排放著難聞的燃燒氣味,蔓延在鄉野之間,旁邊就是種植番茄的田地。45Please respect copyright.PENANAFSxBP5zPQO
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建築、工廠、農舍、住家分布在各處使得鄰居之間的維持適當的距離,隱隱能知道彼此的生活卻不深入。45Please respect copyright.PENANAUGuntL1bG2
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恍神之餘在一盞昏暗的路燈前下了車,望著長長的鄉野路徑每一座路燈都間隔很遠,像是在一盆墨色滴入牛奶很快就被這片黑暗給同化,無法看清遠方的景色。45Please respect copyright.PENANA8NyZO2YBV8
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悠仁走了大概十分鐘來到一棟三樓的透天建築物前,三層樓的透天建築外有個小庭院,穿越庭院才能到建築的大門入口。45Please respect copyright.PENANA28YfK2EQEF
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此時的庭院雜草叢生,看起來已經好幾年沒整理的凌亂。45Please respect copyright.PENANAoMPcF67m1Y
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眼前的鐵門鎖了四道鎖,要用三把鑰匙才能打開,最後推開鐵門發出尖銳的金屬摩擦聲,像是野獸的低鳴。45Please respect copyright.PENANA1rd5h11tdo
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映入眼前是和外面同樣的幽暗,他慢慢地融進無光的房內,關上門時接連著聽見四道門鎖的聲響,將街邊僅存的燈火關在身後。45Please respect copyright.PENANAPNd3TwGZAg
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這裡是沒有開燈的黑暗空間,只能透過窗簾間隙的微光確認方向,穿過長廊經過客廳的入口時,聽到外國英文新聞播放著關於國際趨勢與經濟重點新聞,吵雜的外語人聲劃破在死寂的建築內,響亮的電視播報將空間襯得更安靜,讓悠仁每個腳步聲都格外顯眼。45Please respect copyright.PENANA9xIKnwWM79
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「我回來了。」像是對空氣喃喃自語,如往常一樣沒有任何的回應。45Please respect copyright.PENANA1MD9Gzv5xa
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悠仁說完後穿越走廊往樓梯上走,來到自己房間後打開死白的燈光,此時才恢復能視力。45Please respect copyright.PENANAZjBh86uR75
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身邊沒有其他人的時候,悠仁放鬆臉部肌肉以後變得冷漠。45Please respect copyright.PENANAHAL3D6aH2V
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一臉木然的坐在書桌前,蒼白的桌燈照亮寫著密密麻麻文字的參考書,厚重如磚堆疊在桌上,旁邊整齊的書架也排列各種自然科學的知識文學書籍,還有歷史文化的科普書籍,有幾本看起來像是文學小說的書也是外國原文書籍。45Please respect copyright.PENANAvbwQSJpebb
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書桌即使堆著考卷、參考書、計算紙跟鉛筆都依照相同角度對齊,整個房間整齊乾淨到像是沒有人生活過的痕跡,床鋪的棉被都折出方正的直角線,房間內的傢俱沒有多餘的裝飾維持剛買回來的乾淨完整狀態,每一件文具、書籍上都貼著一張姓名貼紙『葉悠仁』。45Please respect copyright.PENANAMDKAiP6hXB
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唯一有生活感的只有立在桌邊的月曆,寫著密密麻麻的文字,從生活到課業都仔細列表規劃,手邊也有一個筆記本有相同功能,將每日例行公事的大項目細分成各項小事件,規劃內連洗澡上廁所時間都仔細紀錄。45Please respect copyright.PENANATkuxAty6u9
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包括現在的閱讀進度都已經到了今天預計規劃,參考書內頁都使用螢光筆跟便條紙整齊的筆記。45Please respect copyright.PENANAUlZfln0olm
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闔上厚重的參考書後,書桌前的悠仁輕輕喘了口氣。45Please respect copyright.PENANAWwBHDjr6iw
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這應該是他今天最發自內心的行為,他有點累了。45Please respect copyright.PENANA4BKpj3ox7r
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但他依然挺直後背只坐椅子三分之一的位置,下一秒像是沒有放鬆似的翻開筆記本開始記錄進度,確認明天的學習計畫,順便了解明天後天上課的內容。45Please respect copyright.PENANAA1LCNmyPZp
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牆上掛著黑白時鐘,只寫著數字跟銀色指針,此時指針指向十點的刻度,窗外天色也刷上墨黑,位於郊區的住宅區的街道陷入了安靜,只剩建築的燈火和路燈照亮微光的道路。45Please respect copyright.PENANAEda0lsQfLv
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這裡屬於市區邊境,最近的便利商店要走十分鐘,每棟建築之間都會隔著稻田或是河流,往後院有十五分鐘就能到後山的步道,也有一些山上果農在附近。45Please respect copyright.PENANAD1XDMUqvFF
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到了夜晚涼風吹過,耳邊只有蟲鳴的聲音。45Please respect copyright.PENANAzmuRRw6QP3
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此時稍作走神的悠仁,旁邊的手機亮起了訊息通知。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYLzkv4IxPh
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很少人會傳訊息給他。45Please respect copyright.PENANAyej5GK5HRl
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除了學習計畫,悠仁連同交際也梳理的乾淨整齊,只保留適當的人際距離,不溫不冷的客觀相處,讓他在學校除了全年級第一名的頭銜,他平常就像影子一樣不出頭。45Please respect copyright.PENANADsk0hWQrgq
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下課鐘聲敲響以後的生活被分割開來,偶爾他會去同學的個人部落格留言,製造一些交流的過程,或是打開桌上型電腦的通訊軟體,限定自己一到兩個小時維繫同儕之間的情誼。45Please respect copyright.PENANA4vvLaGJkS5
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也許他的面容不笑的時候有距離感,但微笑的時候又和煦善良,隨著青春期蛻變成骨骼結實的少年,雖然面容他很難辨識什麼是好或不好的審美,但至少有許多同學稱讚悠仁的長相,是好看、帥氣的。45Please respect copyright.PENANAaJnaMOkmQ6
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有時他脫下厚重鏡框的眼鏡,才會露出眼角的淚痣,那時有幾個刻意跟他一起到圖書館的女同學,說他這樣很好看,但悠仁禮貌的道謝後趕緊帶回眼鏡,繼續進入團體作業的討論。45Please respect copyright.PENANAxg6f4liDkV
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也因為優異的學業早就被學校主任盯上,成為年級重點培育學生,期待他高中畢業考取優秀的大學,讓學校能掛一條大紅布條宣傳。45Please respect copyright.PENANAt2toL2NgyM
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對他來說做這些反覆的學習與考取高分,就和他每天把房間整理得一塵不染一樣,只是生活的一部分。45Please respect copyright.PENANASdD0r5fmLp
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一切都依照悠仁的學習計畫,平順無波瀾的校園生活。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYP7FoAcQMN
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不過最近他有一些改變了,開始參加學校的社團活動,包括最近的校際籃球比賽他都跟同學得到不錯的成績,被加入幾個純粹聊天的群組,社群軟體裡不再只是堆滿學習的小組內容了,例如最近阿凱和他走得很近。45Please respect copyright.PENANAdF7zqgq2JV
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才準備拿起手機,這時手機又跳出新訊息,異常的狀態讓悠仁決定先調整時間列表,原訂五分鐘後才能使用手機,就先提前五分鐘打開手機螢幕,等等使用十五分鐘後就去洗澡。45Please respect copyright.PENANA6G1cYCyrZV
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打開手機螢幕時,悠仁的眼鏡折射藍色的光,一個開始打破他規劃的人明跳了出來, 『晨曦』。45Please respect copyright.PENANA3Yk3FTf1wK
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:我餓了。45Please respect copyright.PENANAzSr5hZvF7Y
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:快餓死了,我要食物。45Please respect copyright.PENANAwUZYMMc0v9
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看來行程都要延遲了,悠仁望著手機的嘴角微微上揚。45Please respect copyright.PENANAoIXdKZd9ZY
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