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天亮，上班。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIlClsYics
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrjT0P1o6U
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRV52Ix4q2
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3C5uTJaBNH
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBIri0IlyX
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VHBkEb5jq
到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJhEqDp382
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfcaYZCT3E
看不見，罷。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPYny2nUBH
天黑，下班。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4guchwSSfE
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpknbVsUDea
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6GE7516rd
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXS2Hlie2j
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVek0PkHq3b
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIP7wUKaML
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fIAdtqdv1
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Htf2l3qJR
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iWR5ddiVR
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmTkNF3ioo
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9m0ojLn4L
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vcqE2fnfy
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktzG3FJLii
公司，午飯時間。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7wq9N5JW3
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo29NTrDRnP
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiC3HVlKbqz
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNcMVMGjco
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSS64AGuA6p
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fm1nss5FQ
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxDFXQ0Kyd
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6c394h8R8
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpKjiqSHf2
還是……178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgujAAyxKf
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuF2HVuemAO
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJ0Io5AG26
公司，工作。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2zqGmjv8V
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9O7M4GHDaB
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ847SnvcslN
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiIPumIlnb
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmuH27wn5Z
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sVbJFataJ
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcZmiZYMk0
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0L1PnooqiK
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcQMh61b84
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yMBHCvnSd
快意，笑了。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyqk7JKSaF
酒吧，喝酒。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZ3batWTBm
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7uH85KHFg
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKKTWDHo9K
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEW1v8JshI
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeniFoyLUkD
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttUH6tU1k7
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡko5UBKC5US
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetMmjPNDKY
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgN689dbYPl
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwN8R0hEHpX
醉倒。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2t6wtTCUf
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGneHdVtPW2
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4TobuDlWw
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzLaDDKDf7
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefvu24pzcJ
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2qq84N3vA
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23JZqjLo4X
假期，醫院。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoE7S1qaz8
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEZc9ROE16
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68a1xxyujU
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvD8brpNmrl
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPGt3Yi0zI
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDC2oAqp0g
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93zSjz8S24
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCG0KOM9gL
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdowDkO8yW5
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0njBmkBkvt
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RTSvFGLe2
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCTgXidcs3
死寂。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqdAKfMezM
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1nngh4t1v
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoX3PqIOAh
回家，晚飯。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7tHcIooki
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ224APmf9jj
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiMIQqk4hj
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxI3Ycwvx9g
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUnUKbTVbo
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgr4oQyt6bL
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRjNKwh8Bp
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRYAZlw3gZ
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztkPBNbsdr
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwINjgAEy2Z
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9fWVLvKA3
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2A0C5Q7JZx
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJwhUgEZSL
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzY7F3LBcrz
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCb39mfQSK
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjT1wUmhD2
男友家，床上。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPB9rncfNY
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrTq8nJVhp
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNsIpklkC2
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGzXa5Gfkj
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTWUnQjhUX
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3fITlROGI
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9q5MlylH2m
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQbPO7WPfq
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DTtGTdIDA
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QmPXc8OM0
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CzeOAGhRa
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKIubBZoHR
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl21CUzJD48
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPHVAR7r61
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEX4mEPhdE
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kP2cIcz0d
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP58yMjGej
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6lX5fvZwF
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnGX33r2vd
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17K0iiOjKY
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAZLkMKWRg
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRmOsVELNH
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhAxSKMslw
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspl77DBoMJ
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCs6v2UwL7
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpD7n0fiOh
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZn8PoCd3i
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRX9M6ViShk
「在你體內。」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowfkI45Sa0
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9JWMpA1oD
「甚麼？」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rCSlppt4b
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAQUjYjzWX
「蟻。」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yXGCCng7b
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaVNgEemcv
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGqe8dxiZD
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExf9AREO7v
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrADfglyvp
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw0HhsS6zp
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVfWawDFnR
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL43wgQwsc8
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTn8OJiFn6E
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUgFeBIGla
「誰？」另一聲音反問。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hhOOuFCfX
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mEB4sRDQy
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgq2PGjVtx
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbdRNsuaJY
靜。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCMrBiudL5
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbf0iBZNjbh
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58RZePEDFA
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oXApih9gk
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fFhZSbMi1
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0XDBnJuSL
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCt0xnDosWH
我：「我有精神病？」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YKuPAmQAz
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOHbnryr1C
醫：「是情緒病。」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMidVCjX9N
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlztwifd8KY
我：「怎麼辦？」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLm44kT0cb3
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYQFvDNeoJ
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMG8R0gNrb
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFctmm4AWPR
我：「謝謝醫生。」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAt9kpE6I08
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRG7J8MhJP2
醫：「不用謝。」178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBf8yUOEUrz
178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3jpXjFRj0
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlyPF8igwA
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVEoKDjCfA
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2xg34N5DX
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwAgiktswA
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpOn9uZTaT
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZ40Lf4Ivj
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……178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECJVPs1yhK
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDIakCXZY7
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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