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天亮，上班。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZLxQHFWeG
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVx4Vqc9wE
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbmsWvRpE8
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHxhQ7Brht
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyc9j2NvLs
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看不見，罷。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjEXgOzwd9
天黑，下班。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQvzNZNzrx
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhwZQ4nqP1
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kj5qIXghM
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wWW7B4Njy
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxAabBfews
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMHtmD33CX
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgCYRLKXHX
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKZ9o4frPa
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1Q7T0wdIj
公司，午飯時間。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4LFCWatyW
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyVxSRwxSy
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdcOfJTSwB
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaX7xma49n
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLaenCQiR2
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOwXK5LzZh
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80HWWNHNuz
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還是……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1l6BAf6IM
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDZUOLq7Cv
公司，工作。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6wb9BRPPJ
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwb2Sio1mp
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQQJQjSjc6
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggPvtTfG6E
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLjFIEuvW1
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgzUWoqYm3
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphscHOfRll
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw09Et3oKuj
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2MShEv5EX
快意，笑了。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp82p8pV3pi
酒吧，喝酒。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexLSp9qs1e
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRwgoXR0S5
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOhs1ofwTR
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPrIMEdQVl
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgOsRUIznr
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PLyiGJRvf
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bUEUUaJqh
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyomJmImTmP
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醉倒。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JtSpCrXIz
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MvrXMX8vv
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqAkpKOldh
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrYHczOAsn
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4uQtv9l1u
假期，醫院。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcx6TYNdOx
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNZTYwwy87
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhG02S1hSKi
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJotinRK4b
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bn5gzp3zE
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzV4QgRUkNZ
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIdjByY5aJ
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPIAB5988G
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVKorb7hfz
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死寂。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlnnKeBF89
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXviX7adTRr
回家，晚飯。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaX92fplqyD
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqUeM2DouB
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymb0LcqWQd
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJEWShrUr8
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNCAu3W8xb
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCF223dY2f5
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOivDOEcfqD
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Q32vf9Kg5
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHXjIOA1Vm
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2k8VE4ZvY
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5s1rhYQBb
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsKIWSPwzQ
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHjoL8vu4D
男友家，床上。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXtDmYZeME
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jDq7g2FQe
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FaIYr7pcj
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNvvCx7o4K
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM12KN7lWLj
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTmIMJI61G
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEHHhjk7cy
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUpUduLhGL
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24jUOYebte
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPn8jZ4ZfyB
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfu7IpTBG5
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGPH4CnQWc
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawxwWpe9wZ
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbzmRUiBmg
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunUDJ4gInS
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKsHDHWxgI
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJLbymV7EO
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhith55C7G
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoMPnK1Fgk
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfxLcgQ6Q7
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllG6UxwteM
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「在你體內。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RyfqrOkDr
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「甚麼？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UyTAWOeX1
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「蟻。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9S5J6sw56
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡez9JVH5yez
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sBrwscOnA
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EojVqzG9d
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5xax3J6sX
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JfM1JElI1
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWDJ5TBfLx
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPmpgzEGYZ
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoSfNOFKCN
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「誰？」另一聲音反問。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNpFyPyvjh
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFo5OJ0MZR1
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靜。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMhImBk4PE
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbigQMYUTY
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVwyWoPZW5
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAXdOer6fJ
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfWupRreSy
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwDnhj9hF3
我：「我有精神病？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlA6gJCMPR
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTUGzfj9DB
醫：「是情緒病。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTHqKdQVhW
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我：「怎麼辦？」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMpgIB6e7Q
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi68ipNqa7F
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5p8mgMHmH
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqMdjETHHq
我：「謝謝醫生。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLf9pjeuqcI
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醫：「不用謝。」188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYaOYjKFPj
188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENq1dXUwxO
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDHc7nGVrc
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAe9Qn0mYv
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6LCZvsd2a
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。188Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZQIbBOJUu
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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