Van仔察覺到我長期處於情緒低落況態,同時又唔使花時間陪伴George,尤其係假日,佢每次搵我出嚟,我都可以出席。
呢啲蛛絲馬跡引起佢懷疑,佢直接問過我兩次,我同George感情係咪出現問題,只不過我都一概否認。
我睇得出佢唔相信,因為佢實在太了解我,生活同情緒嘅每一個細節,佢都掌握到。
佢對我雖然未到推心置腹呢個階段,只要唔損害佢大男人心態嘅事,佢一律無向我隱瞞,但係我反為對佢講大話,不過我心裡面真係感激佢,起碼佢俾我知道仲有人闞心我。224Please respect copyright.PENANAymVT5vGpNc
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我同van仔之間嘅交往,由認識到發生關係,經過好幾次轉折,來往由頻密變成間歇,由平淡變為激情,兩個人糾糾纏纏大約有兩年幾時間,我對佢嘅感情,亦不知不覺間產生咗蛻變。224Please respect copyright.PENANAPocjBYNyPU
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我係充滿幻想,思想簡單,鐘意做白日夢嘅人,我同George關係越穩定,但係我外鶩之心越強,想再一次回味初戀被追求,大家想辦法互相吸引,又患得患失嘅心情,可能只係一個藉口。224Please respect copyright.PENANAjC86VYmvPI
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Van仔就啱啱喺我心魔亂竄,暗黑黑子大爆發期間出現喺我面前。224Please respect copyright.PENANAQJXqyMhH4y
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van仔同男友係兩個唔同世界、兩個極端嘅人,男友溫文、呵護,van仔狂野、粗魯,我夾喺佢哋兩個人中間,接收佢哋從兩個方向俾我嘅滿足。224Please respect copyright.PENANABzo6oHbsU1
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我認識van仔之初,我一廂情願,我唔知點形容,類似柏拉圖式嘅交往,同佢停留喺互相調笑,有限度身體接觸嘅精神調劑。224Please respect copyright.PENANAfWWqdlwtGC
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所以我以呢個定位同佢摟抱嬉鬧,但係一踏上呢條路就停唔落嚟。224Please respect copyright.PENANAL9O5pxTxCD
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閒談中滲入咗情慾話題,我哋開始接吻,俾佢愛撫。224Please respect copyright.PENANAKqQnDsxIVn
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繼而陪佢裸泳,單獨上佢屋企,身體接觸程度越嚟越大,我抗拒唔到佢嘅誘惑,一次又一次嘅邊緣性愛,只因為我想得到嗰種既害怕又想要嘅矛盾感受。224Please respect copyright.PENANAz6ZBczQ54j
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公司嘅同事,包括珠女都認為van仔好多缺點,奇怪點解我咁遷就佢,世界上邊有完美嘅人,我本身亦都好多缺點,不過有啲我自己睇唔到啫。
被追求呢種虛幻感覺隨住同佢日漸熟絡而淡化,同佢去澳門,經歷整整兩日兩夜嘅瘋狂做愛,初戀浪漫就好似一層包裹住我同佢嘅薄紗,徹徹底底咁撕破,因而演化我同佢喺小海灘再次裸泳,喺佢架客貨van車斗、蓆天幕地,無遮無掩咁胡天胡帝到凌晨四點,我同van仔已經蛻變成爲肉慾追求。224Please respect copyright.PENANApfy9rMszCT
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George過咗去總公司之後,我同佢嘅接觸頻率亦改變咗幾次,轉變都係受Julie介入George喺總公司嘅工作,同埋生活而影嚮。224Please respect copyright.PENANAPGunZLuFLN
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最近佢每日都定時定候俾電話我,為咗遷就我,佢選擇喺我午餐時間,佢嗰邊大約係凌晨時分同我視訊。224Please respect copyright.PENANAC56WsdqYIP
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今日佢過咗時,我等咗一日,都無佢嘅電話,我怕自因工作而錯過咗佢嘅來電,不停留意住有無未接聽電話。224Please respect copyright.PENANAqxDkKmC9St
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手機喺我臨瞓前終於震動起嚟,我鬆咗一口氣。224Please respect copyright.PENANAAQIzudyMQH
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一開口佢對遲咗俾電話,向我道歉。224Please respect copyright.PENANAt0D7OYtrr6
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佢無講原因,我相信佢唔講,一定有佢道理,只要最後佢搵我就可以,至於點解咁遲,我完全唔介意。224Please respect copyright.PENANAMY5gF18jMo
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好明顯George今晚講電話同前一輪好唔同,喺個mom 見到佢有啲焦慮,欲言又止,有啲嘢唔好意思開口咁。224Please respect copyright.PENANAn33kxjAcIJ
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我相信一定有尷尬事情同我有關,否則佢唔使咁不安,莫非同Julie訂婚介指有關。224Please respect copyright.PENANAmkbzP3RADj
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我好奇想知佢想同我講乜嘢,亦都擔心佢同我講真係我所估計,我唔想聽嘅消息。224Please respect copyright.PENANA0EnURxtYgV
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“C,最近有無放假出外玩?”224Please respect copyright.PENANA9qPI6zuqP9
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佢無厘頭咁問。224Please respect copyright.PENANAcTWLIejnwr
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“無呀!”224Please respect copyright.PENANAH0ND2L139a
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自從佢離開我之後,我心灰咗一段時間,乜都無興趣,到而加心情都仲係咁孤寂,已經一年無放過假,仲講乜嘢出外旅遊。224Please respect copyright.PENANAelZZ7wWZLl
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“上次你問我放假安排嘅,而加我有咗定案,返嚟之前我會放三星期假。”224Please respect copyright.PENANAZjD4TzDBVq
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George睇嚟好開心,難怪嘅,佢辛苦咗接近兩年,終於可以放吓假,仲有Julie陪住佢。224Please respect copyright.PENANAHB4stlvTcf
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“做咩咁嘅反應呀?224Please respect copyright.PENANAVkC4hZVMDg
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George見到我有啲落寞。224Please respect copyright.PENANAQtJItyIgTo
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“無嘢呀,我唔知講咩好之嘛!”224Please respect copyright.PENANA3hLKmQ1fy9
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我同佢一齊嗰時,我做錯事,又或者同佢鬥嘴,無論咩原因都好,只要我無話可說,我都會依偎住佢,講呢句說話。224Please respect copyright.PENANAGb1sSaerst
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“C,我想邀請你過嚟!”224Please respect copyright.PENANA4Do54Lm69e
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George邀請我過去佢嗰邊?我立即意會到佢想我出席佢同Julie嘅婚禮。224Please respect copyright.PENANAGYs8Mp9CrQ
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George正式開口邀請我!224Please respect copyright.PENANAIVgaObocNN
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“恭喜你⋯⋯”224Please respect copyright.PENANAXzEb6NwBqr
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我好無奈,唔想親眼見證到George同Julie,但係唔答應佢,又怕佢失望。224Please respect copyright.PENANAKFzUi7abRH
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“恭喜我咩呀?!”224Please respect copyright.PENANALIcpJyhoOl
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佢愕然,對眼登得好大。224Please respect copyright.PENANA5bp4rEqXJX
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我將Julie喺face book訂婚介指嘅事講俾佢知,不過我強調Julie佢自己無講明係訂婚,一切都係我同佢face book一班朋友嘅意會。224Please respect copyright.PENANAbk7tQt1zvn
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“無件咁嘅事!C,我今日俾電話你係想邀請你過嚟陪我一齊渡假,但係過去一段日子,我同你疏離咗,我一直唔知點開口,我怕你拒絕我!”224Please respect copyright.PENANAlhHQACsoYG
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George好激動。224Please respect copyright.PENANA6JzxPky73V
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呢個係過去年幾以嚟,我最開心,最振奮嘅消息,我高興到唔識講嘢,淨係流眼淚。224Please respect copyright.PENANA3R6sycWn1x
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“C,我好想你可以陪我,我哋從新開始好唔好?”224Please respect copyright.PENANA3lXjO07LTF
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“點解咁突然嘅?我怕⋯⋯我怕係發夢!”224Please respect copyright.PENANAnhFB4v3ErD
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我怕係發夢,我拍吓自己個面。224Please respect copyright.PENANA6PpVT1tnYc
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“你無發夢,係真嘅,過去兩年先至係一個夢,我夢醒咗,C,你相信我,我已經圢破咗迷惘,你係我最需要嘅人!”224Please respect copyright.PENANATHJPomfX48
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我對住個mon不停點頭,我要俾George知道我相信佢。224Please respect copyright.PENANAWyYondUL4j
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“C,你相信我,我好高興,你嗰邊時間已經好夜,聽日我再call你,向你交代我同Julie嘅事。”224Please respect copyright.PENANA6jpUODCSjS
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“我哋傾得好哋哋,點解要聽日先再搵我,George,我以為你唔再要我,而家你俾個好消息我,我想你永遠陪著我,唔好再離開我!”224Please respect copyright.PENANAInIZwbXvkc
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我同佢嗰度時差十三個鐘,即係話佢趁午飯時間搵我傾偈。224Please respect copyright.PENANAgNDAdKGScm
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“C,我都係想一直陪著你,不過來日方長,我想你多啲休息,我亦都做埋我手頭上啲工作。”224Please respect copyright.PENANALhPXJv31r1
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“對唔住呀,你唔好怪我好似搬弄是非咁,將Julie喺face book嘅嘢講出嚟!”224Please respect copyright.PENANASKWgqRfo39
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“唔關你事,我先幾日同師姐傾開攪hall友週年聚會,傾完之後,佢都打聽過我同Julie最近嘅發展,佢好粗略講過少少,佢似乎一直有留心Julie。”224Please respect copyright.PENANARJkQrOwGan
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“George,無論點都好,希望你唔好責怪Julie,佢做咩都出自於佢愛你!”224Please respect copyright.PENANAcCemzzC2b1