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秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道，有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙，聽來已然粉身碎骨，看來完好無缺。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuU06sKAaGo
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「完好？」現在的她問。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qLBeO8fSe
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「無缺？」曾經的他問。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTzZoZFZvf
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很多人說他生活美滿。家境富裕，頭腦聰明，五官英氣，身材高大。聞言他總是假笑，笑對方客氣得過份。奈何對方從未察覺他的笑容雖假，情感卻是真實而強烈的：他的確認為對方很過份。他想要的從不是這種生活，可惜每次對此表示厭棄時，總有人批評他不知足。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduN62mgVb8
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輕嘆一聲，繼續前行。踏踏踏，沙沙沙，聲聲撕心裂肺。像父母的哭罵，令人痛，也令人愧疚不安。無論他們如何呼天搶地，他終究永遠不會回來。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxsmSGVdou
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遷入新居，展開新生。吃力，困難。已然表達得很清楚，對方還是假裝不知該使用哪個稱謂。有人說不介意，有人說很平常，話題和目光卻只停留在胯下之物。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1a89Xjlyt
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無處訴說的孤獨日夜縈繞不散。曾發誓永不後悔，曾以為自己是多麼堅毅勇敢，曾相信世界其實不是那麼單一而絕情……160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwLK0cys1z
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步出公園，拐了幾個街口，來到醫院門前。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkwJ23O4YN
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「醫生，早晨。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEovEKbpbMk
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「早晨。近來身體好嗎？」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEUutEgEu7
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「好……不過……」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHzVmNHhOG
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「不過甚麼？」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPvWpy0oOd
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「我想再做手術。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriDKf4pfzw
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「為甚麼？」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXnTXZYk1L
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「不適應現在的生活。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Pz5CbqvVY
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「不適應身體的變化或是有其他困難？」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqI0FmqOZQ1
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「是生活上的困難……其實我很滿意現在的身體，我覺得這才是真正的自己！過往的我根本不是我！可惜旁人都不是這麼認為……」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4Cgji2WgJ
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「所以你想要回以前的性別？」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNf3VjWP5N
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「不——我是不想要任何性別。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYP8H27d40
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「噢……抱歉我還未能捕捉到你的思路。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xOtCrLM2P
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「這些日子，我遇到的問題大都源於旁人無法定徹底認同我是男或女。如果我沒有特定性別，可以在『男』、『女』、『跨性別』、『無性別』幾個類別之間遊走，可能會更自由！」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYTTaEgg8A
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「依我看來，你再次做手術之後，將要面對的問題會更多更嚴重。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbBe7C8jb5
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「我理解你的意思，但我還是想要放手一搏——我堅信每次改變都會帶來新的可能、新的希望。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwm04XC3UPN
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「既然你堅持，我會按程序寫信轉介你去心理輔導部門作專業評估。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrc3gnRRdrA
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「謝謝你。」160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOMPIPJkf3
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跟醫生多聊一會後，她步出醫院，再次走經公園。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6vgjGXN1y
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秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道，有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙，聽來已然粉身碎骨，看來完好無缺。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnWkL6W7ZM
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「以前未完好。」現在的她說。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98WEx0cRog
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「將來會無缺。」曾經的他說。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwGlxGvebj
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她笑了，笑自己傻，笑自己依然沉浸在幻想世界當中，相信自己的人生將來一定會變得完好無缺。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97FIGKaQaD
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明知無人能斷言明天一定會更好。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2cXD9nOSo
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奈何人總需要一個努力的原因、一個繼續活下去的原因。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNhZArdZPL
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那個原因名為「希望」。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hdc8rvP8F
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「我定要繼續努力。」現在的她說。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXBEpjnwX1
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「好好活下去吧。」曾經的他說。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtWCkHMPoo
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秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。160Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGr2n6RMFU
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她慢步於公園大道，放眼欣賞沿路風景，不再留意地上的枯葉。
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