TW: self-harm
entry 4 26/04/22
I was 1 day off being 2 months clean. I'm not sure what happened one minute I was breaking up with my girlfriend and the next I was in my room blade in hand and my thigh and hand covered in blood. As I mentioned before there's this one person that gives e butterflies and I felt it was unfair to date someone while feeling that way. My ex-girlfriend would always say "I love you" and when I would say it back it didn't feel right. she would show me so much affection telling me how lucky she was to have a girlfriend like m, but I knew she wouldn't be saying that if she knew what was in my head. She wasn't too mad when I broke things off and we still spoke and are friends but I still felt so bad. What if she was the only one who would be willing to date me?
the last time I cut myself was because of my maths teacher, he's a real asshole. It sounds stupid but I was already feeling down and him saying I was "a waste of a scholarship" ruined me. He really gets on my nerves and acts like a straight-up pedo. One day I'll get him fired even if he's the assistant principal.
thank you for reading
goodbye for now :)
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