I sunk my body to the bed and shut my eyes. Just like my eyes, my body felt really heavy with exhaustion. Today, after lunch, we gathered in front of the dorm and then went to tour around the academy. As expected, this place was very huge. Training ground covered most of the area, but there were also places for classes, instructor office, library, dining hall, assembly hall indoor activities, and many other uses. We needed to remember the places so we would not get lost. Fortunately, I was good at remembering things.
After we finished touring, we went to the dining hall again to have dinner since the sun already set. Then, we were told to quickly went back to the dorm. Since tomorrow the real thing would begin, it would be better to rest early.
Of course, I was physically tired. However, the same could be said to my mind. No, my mind was in the worse state than my body.
Yesterday, I was still a regular college student. Then, the next day, I got inside the screen and ended up in a game world. I could not go back even if I wanted to. My only clue was the [User Manual]. Here, I was told to play the role of the heroine.
In this world, I was a fake. I was not Clarissa Edelrose, but everyone here called me by that name. I was called by the name of another entity. I was not her, she was not me. I did not belong here. Just how long should I be here?
I was surprised that I could remain calm despite being in a ridiculous situation here. I guess that only applied during the day. As night fell, my negative feelings were getting back to me.
How was everything back home? Did Mother realized that I was not home? How about Father? How about Gilbert? How about Castille and Joshua? What are they doing right now? What will they do when they knew I disappeared?
As I continued to remember them, I felt like my eyes were getting hotter. Unconsciously, I let warm fluid escaped from my closed eyes. I did not want to cry, I hated it. I felt weak whenever I found myself crying. However, I just could not contain it any longer. I hid my face with my pillow. At least Griselda would not me as I cried in silence.
Maybe this was just a dream. I repeatedly said that to myself. Maybe if I fell asleep, I would wake up in my own world. Then, I could just call everything that I saw here as a silly dream. As I continued to hope for that, my consciousness began to fade away.
Unfortunately, my wish did not come true. I still inside this "silly dream" when I opened my eyes the next day.
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