I'm driving Remus back from his most recent Chemo treatment. It's been three months since he had begun chemo. Three months. He is paler, skinner, and bald now. He looks sick and it's horrible. We do it twice a month each session now forty minutes.
21 months, thats all I can think about. How little time I have left. I want to see the world with him, but I can't.
"What are you thinking about?" Remus asks me noticing the look on my face.
"How cute you look today in your sweater" I say and he smiles.
"You know this is the best i've felt after chemo since the beginning." Remus says.
"Thats great my love." I say as I feel a tear streak down my face.
"What's wrong?" He asks me.
"I just love you." I say and he nods his head.
"You know in a few days we can go on a date to the three broomsticks. Have a coffee date." He says and I nod.
"Only if you're strong enough. I don't want to get ahead of ourselves." I say as I reach the driveway to the dorm. I had basically moved in with Peter, Sirius, James and Remus. Just to take care of him. When we get there it's basically empty. I get Remus inside and Peter is there cooking up a storm.
"Hey Peter what are you making?" I ask as I set Remus down on the couch.
"Just some soup, eggs, bacon and the rest of the stuff for this weeks breakfast." Peter says.
"Brilliant." I say as I get some soup for Remus and begin to force him to eat. This was the worst part as soon after he would throw up, but the doctor said to keep trying, so I do. Eventually I set Remus up in bed and leave to talk to Peter.
"So how is he today?" Peter asks.
"He said better than he had felt in a while, so thats good." I say and Peter nods.
"I can't imagine what it must be like for you. Whats it like being in the chemo room with him?" Peter asks.
"Watching him go pain over forty minutes. The blood drain and his strength weaken. It's pure torture, to know you can't do anything about it. It's like hell personified." I say and Peter nods his head.
"He doesn't deserve this." Peter says and I nod.
"You got any soup left?" I ask and Peter nods and serves me a bowl of soup. It's the best soup i've ever tasted and I smile.
"Is it good?" Peter asks and I nod my head.
"Yep,"
"Good, i'm glad you like it." Peter says.
"Remus promised to take me out in a few days." I say and Peter smiles as he sits next to me.
"You excited then?" Peter asks and I shake my head.
"He wont be well enough, he's promised me this for a two months and it's never happened." I say trying not to cry.
"I'm sorry," Peter says as he rubs my back. Then the door opens and it's Lily.
"Hey I'm here." She says as she walks in.
"Hey lovely." I say as I stand up and hug her.
"Hey Lily," Peter says as he hugs her next.
"Where is James and Sirius." Lily asks. We all look at the floor.
"No one knows." Peter says.
"Great," Lily says.
"Don't remind me." I say.
"Those two get on my nerves more and more each year. Their best friend is dying and they are no where to be seen. If they get back past eight i'll kill them myself." Peter says.
"Peter calm down they'll be here soon." Lily says.
"How do you know?" I ask her.
"I texted them and they said they would be here soon. It's their turn to watch Remus anyways so you can get some sleep." Lily says to me. I nod my head.
"I'm so tired, I need them to watch him." I say as I wait patently for them.
"Well I'm tired so im heading off to take a nap." Peter says.
"I'm going to wait with Remus." Lily says.
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I look at the clock, 1 am in the morning.
"Where are they?" I ask to no one. I wait for another thirty minutes with anger at the two boys. Then suddenly they burst through the door laughing their heads off. When they see me they freeze.
"Hey buddy (Y/N) how are you?" Sirius asks, the smell of alcohol spraying out of his mouth like spit.
"Yeah, how are you?" James hiccups out.
"Where the hell have you two been? Out drinking till one am. Your best friend is sick and you're out drinking!" I yell at them.
"Hey he was our friend first!" James yells back.
"Yeah well then act like it!" I yell at him
"You act like it!" Sirius yells.
"I am, I have been caring for him for three months. We all have except you two. I skip classes, skip parties, have no social life and am so depressed half the time I wonder why I am here, and you have the audacity to walk in here at one am and be drunk!" I yell.
"Shut up!" James says and he hits me in the stomach and I fall to the floor.
"Piece of sh-" James begins.
"James Potter!" I hear and look back and see Peter.
"Pete, wormy." Sirius says.
"Don't wormy me. Get out," Peter says and I look at him in shock.
"But pete we were just messing around."
"Get out!" Peter says as he stomps toward James and Sirius who shudder away.
"Fine we were just leaving." Sirius says as they leave. Peter helps me to my feet and we walk to the kitchen.
"You okay?" Peter asks and I nod my head.
"Did I wake you up?" I ask Peter and he nods.
"Yeah but thats okay." Peter says and I nod my head.
"Guys, what was that?" Lily says as she appears in the door way.
"James and Sirius came home, drunk and then hit (Y/N)." Peter says as he gets ice from the fridge for my stomach.
"They always coop with drinking and smoking. If Sirius hadn't quit weeks ago." Lily says.
"Has it ever been this bad?" I ask Lily and she shakes her head.
"No but-" She begins but it interrupted by Remus taping her on the shoulder.
"What happened?" Remus asks and we all look at each other.
"Nothing love, let's get you back to bed." I say, he nods and I bring him off to bed.
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