"Remus, I have a quick question." I ask one night. It was near the end of the school year and he is working on his final project. Lily and James had already moved out and It was now just Peter, Sirius, Remus and I left. John liked having the dorm to himself I recon.
"What is it?" He asks me and I gulp down a shaky breath.
"How did you get your scars?" I ask and he looks down.
"My dad." He says and I freeze. I never met his dad, he wasn't allowed at the wedding unlike his mum. His mum was super nice and so caring.
"What do you mean, if I may ask." I say and he puts down his paintbrush.
"Let me ask you something, why are you asking now?" Remus asks and I couldn't answer him. Not really anyways.
"Just interested." I say and he nods.
"When I was young my dad had this dog. He would teach it to attack people he didn't like. One day he was mad and told it to attack me. I never liked the dog so it didn't have a problem in attacking me. It almost killed me if mum wasn't there to pull the dog off. It was that night that she left him and took me with her. I was in the hospital for a little while and it was horrible. I hated it and when my dad came to visit I pretended to be asleep. When I turned 18 though I filed a restraining order against him and he was never allowed near me. I haven't spoken or seen him since the court ruling." Remus says and I come up from behind and hug him.
"Your safe now. You know I wont let anything bad happen to you." I say as I nuzzle into his neck. I run my fingers through the very small amount of hair that had grown back. It looked like a buzz cut.
"I know that." Remus says as he turns over to look at me.
"You know I think it's time for bed." I say and he looks at me confused.
"Why?" He asks and I roll my eyes.
"Cause we have a meeting in the morning to look at property. James is meeting us here at 9 and then we're heading out with the real estate agent to go looking at 10." I say and Remus nods his head.
"Oh shoot you're right." Remus says as he begins to put away his paint.
"What are you doing for your final?" I ask and he shrugs.
"Nothing much," He says and I nod my head.
"What's the assignment?" I ask.
"Someone who has changed us. A portrait or representation of them using paint and everyday objects." Remus says and I nod my head at him.
"So who are you doing? Are you doing your mum?" I ask and he shakes his head.
"I'm doing you, if that's okay. The picture I took of you with Lily, Sirius, James and Peter at our wedding." Remus says and I gasp. I look at the blobs on the page and begin to see the resemblance.
"It looks good so far, we'll have to hang it up in our new house." I say and Remus smiles.
"Love, are you going back to school?" Remus asks and I shake my head.
"Most likely not. I have all the education I need and I can get a job somewhere in a finical office. Then I'll be getting a steady income and with any luck you'll be able to do your dream of art." I say and Remus holds my hand.
"But what about your dream. I mean you've done so much, what about your dream." Remus says.
"I don't know what my dream is anymore. It used to be I wanted to travel the world and draw everything I see. Now it's just to be here with you." I say and he leans back. I look into his blue eyes and smile.
"Time for bed?" Remus asks and I nod. He begins to undress and get ready for bed as I crawl underneath the covers. Not much later after I've done this he crawls in too. I roll over and put my head on his chest and hear him breath. It sounded pretty healthy. Nothing sputtering, no shaking, and no wheezing. It also felt great. The way it moved up and down, it was like a lullaby.
"Baby," Remus says.
"Yes?" I ask him.
"How much do you love me?" He asks and I move around in the sheets to look up at him. He is staring down at me with a sad look.
"I love you with the same passion that a star burns with." I say and he smiles.
"Thanks." He says as he closes his eyes.
"Remus, why did you ask me that?" I ask him.
"Because I was nervous." Remus says.
"Nervous about what?" I ask him.
"That you would leave me." Remus says and I smile at him.
"I would never leave you. I promise, you have my heart." I say as we begin to doze off. I curl up on his chest. Feeling the rise and fall of every breath. I smile at the small action, it brings me joy to feel it happen. I smile even more when I hear him snore. It sometimes is annoying but tonight it was beautiful.
I rub myself into the soft hair on his chest and wrap my legs around his. We have a huge bed but we never really use the whole thing. We honestly could be using a full instead of the kind we have. But maybe when we get a child they can have some of the room too. For when they have nightmares and horrible dreams. Or when the storms outside makes them cry. We'll be there for them.
Thinking about parenthood with Remus was all I could think about these days. The agency said that we were on the path to be approved. I was so excited and they said only a few more months. Then on the two year anniversary of Remus being clear of cancer we should be able to adopt.
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