Revision: Anxiety!Dark
P.O.V: First Person
(A/N: Before reading this, if you don’t know anything regarding this song, please take note that it details many aspects of depression and suicidal thoughts and behaviour. This chapter and hopefully this chapter only will contain such as well. If you are okay with this, do enjoy.)
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There was a boy I met in kindergarten
My head hurts...
He was sweet, he said that I was smart
Another visit from Dr.Panic and Nurse Anxiety.
He was good at sports and people liked him
I miss him,
And at nap time once we shared a mat
I miss the old days:
I didn't sleep I sat and watched him breathing
When we’d stay up till Dawn just fooling around,
Watched and dreamed for nearly half an hour
I miss those times,
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
But it was all a fantasy, a dream, a SICK nightmare.
Then he woke up
I dont know whether to be happy or sad that I woke up.
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He pulled a scab off one time playing kick ball
Bumps and lines of dark, velvete maroon decorate my wrists like a christmas tree.
Kissed me quick then pressed it in my hand
It hurts but I dont say a word.
I took that scab and put it in a locket
I let my hair down, jagged strands and uneven chunks dangle and flow in the cold night wind.
All year long I wore it near my heart
My heart sobs with an agonizing stinging.
He didn't care if I was thin or pretty
Screaming at me to just end it.
And he was mine until we hit first grade
But I just let a tiresome sleep consume me,
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Falling into the same nightmare again...
Then he woke up
But I cant escape reality.
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Last night I dreamed a horse with wings
Mascara drizzle down my eyes in hopes of a rebirth from their black and sorrowful stain.
Flew down into my home roomOn its back there he sat
I shakily toss circles and ovals in my mouth, generous amounts.
And he held out his arm593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DOioc7PDq
So we sailed above the gym
Suddenly my hands stop shaking and Im back on my feet.
Across the faculty parking lot593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGKlEZtsc1
My kindergarten boyfriend and I593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0jGfspwe9
And a horse with wings
My heart high on today’s ‘breakfast’.
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Now we're all grown up and we know better
I just want to get it all out...
Now we recognize the way things are
But...
Certain boys are just for kindergarten593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZId9VxM8f
Certain girls are meant to be alone
I guess Im all alone..
But I believe any dream worth having593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6y0NfyIOYG
So today's the day.593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCVQJZfGrg
Is a dream that should not have to end593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimkO3fLkz1
So I'll build a dream that I can live in593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGkeBEvjSP
I sigh heavily, holding my arms out in despair.593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e8bRhrst7
And this time I'm never waking up593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6odQYHhst1
My body swings dangerously, 593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYI5OGnKvo
And we'll soar above the trees593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7H4doEQJw
Back and forth..593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHXdRu5xTY
Over cars and croquet lawns593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9rvovAERL
Back...and...forth...593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oLcTnDj5O
Past the church and the lake593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQB1EuNeFC
And the try-county mall
Suddenly, a new found fear dissolves into my dangerously unstable mind.
We will fly through the dawn593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5h4ynYh6z
To a new kindergarten
I shake it off, tears blurring my vision;
Where nap time is centuries long
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
I let myself fall forward...
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Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
The thumps echo up the stairs, Soon falling in sync of the throbbing headache I have.
Ooh ooh
”NO!! DONT!” Wait—!
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