“and you never knew how much i really liked you
cause i never even told you
oh but i meant to” -Back to the old house The Smiths
this one is quite self explanatory. there was (still is) this one person who i really really like and i know she likes me too. i couldn’t bring myself to admit to her how much i liked her. i was (and still am) so so so scared of love. i’ve been hurt a lot by it and i don’t wanna get hurt again. most of the time when i was hurt it was online. like i said previously i struggled with friends and never really found anyone to love in real life + no one knew i’m bisexual. although, people online couldn’t tell anyone. and i found that people online were much better than people in real life. but every time i’ve online dated i’ve been hurt. a lot. so i’m terrified to love again.
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